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*The Autobiography of
B.F. Hall, M.D. and D.D.S.

It is no agreeable
task for one to undertake to write the history of his own life. I
nerve myself to the task, not from any feeling of vanity, or to transmit
my humble name to posterity, but, if possible, to do good after I am
dead; with the hope that my example may stimulate and incourage(sic) some
poor young man to break the shackles that fetter him, and rise above
his early surroundings.
I was born in
Nicholas County, Kentucky, the 15th day of June 1803. My father
was a Virginian by birth, and lost his father of Smallpox when he
was but a boy. His mother, being poor, and having but two
children—both sons—put the younger out to learn the tanning
business, and the elder, my father, to the shoe-making business. As
soon, however, as he was of mature age, not liking his trade, he
turned farmer. He first became an overseer for some gentleman in Fauquire
(sic) County. Being sober and economical, he acquired some
property, and purchased a farm and went to work on his own account.
My mother on her
mother's side was French, and descended from the Huguenots. Her
ancestors were among the few Protestants who escaped massacre on the
fatal night of St. Bartholomew, when so many thousands fell martyrs
to the persecuting hate of Romanists in France. I have set for hours
and heard my dear old grandmother tell of the scenes of that
dreadful night, and the manner of escape of her ancestors from the
massacre. Those recitals created in me a dislike to Romanists which
I have not wholly conquered to this day.
My father was a
Revolutionary soldier, and was in several battles. He was afterwards
with General Wayne against the Indians. When a boy I used to sit and
hear my father and his old fellow soldiers talk over those scenes of
war and bloodshed. From that Lime to the present I have not been
especially fond of the British or Indians. So much for early
impressions and prejudices.
My mother, whose name
was Martha Foster, was born in New Jersey but when quite small, her
parents removed to Virginia and settled in the neighborhood of my
father. Her parents were rigid Presbyterians of the blue-stocking
order. Hence she was brought up in that faith, but could never be a
Calvinist, My father's mother was a Baptist. My father, though a
strictly moral man, and lived to be almost 80 years old, never made
a profession of religion.
My mother, when quite
young, was converted under preaching of the Wallers, the Craigs and
Samuel Harris, the Baptist "Apostle;" and, against the wishes of all
her friends joined the Baptists. I have frequently heard her say she
was seven years "under conviction," and was all that time "seeking
religion," and anxiously inquiring what she must do to be saved. She
was a woman of good judgment, fine memory, large conscientiousness
and remarkable decision of character.
She had profound
reverence for the word of God, and could repeat whole chapters, in
both the Old and New Testament, by memory. She loved the Psalms of
David. She was a great admirer of Watts and Rippons' hymns, and
could repeat, perhaps, more than one hundred of them by memory. She
was possessed of a strong faith in the God of the Bible and
Providence. She could see God in everything. Altogether she was a
great and noble woman. Her influence had more to do in moulding my
character than all others together. I cherish her memory yet with
the fondest, tenderest emotions. Though dead, she still speaks to me
and many others. I thank the Lord for giving me such a mother. She
has gone to her high reward.
When "Continental
money" was yet, my father sold his real estate, consisting of two
farms in Virginia and such personal property as he could not take
with him, and with two loaded wagons started to Wheeling in company
with a Mr. Metcalf and family (the father of the late Governor
Thomas Metcalf) where they purchased two flat boats, and having
wythed them together, started down the Ohio river, destined for
Limestone (now Maysville) Kentucky. They frequently saw Indians on
the Ohio side but were not, at any time attacked by them. They
reached their destination in due time, and all well. Maysville then
consisted of a few log cabins. There was but one house then between
them and Lexington, which was at that time an insignificant little
town of log buildings. The whole country was covered with switch
cane. As Indians made frequent, raids into Kentucky, and no place
was considered free from their incursions, they did, for several
year, go into the interior', but lived in Lee's Station, a few miles
from Maysville. The people in the Station—and there was a number of
them—went to work and enclosed ground enough to raise sufficient
grain to bread all their families. Some worked, while others, guns
in their hands, kept a lookout for Indians.
A few years after
this, the lndians became less troublesome, and people left the
Station and began to open farms in the interior of Kentucky. My
Father purchased land on the North fork of Leiking{Licking}, where
he remained for a few years, when he sold out and purchased still
further in the interior, where Morefield now is in Nicholas County,
where he remained till his death about the year 1833.
My parents had some
four or five children when they came to Kentucky, but lived until
they had eleven, eight sons and three daughters, all married, save
one!, my youngest brother, Dr. B.W. Hall of Nashville, Tennessee.
Out of the eleven only four are now living, three brothers and one
sister.
The neighborhood in
which my father lived was almost entirely Presbyterian, and most of
the family became members of that church. My father's house was the
preacher's home—not only Presbyterian, but those of other
denominations. I attended that church generally, and their Sunday
School, where I learned the whole "Shorter Catechism," and memorized
many of the Psalms and numerous chapters in the New Testament, which
I can repeat my memory at this time. I have never forgotten them.
Youth is the period to store the mind with knowledge to be used in
riper years.
The rudiments
of my
education were acquired, first in
a log School house, and after in a frame building, some two miles
from father’s on the road, which was frequently muddy in winter.
Here I learned to read and write and “cypher” through Gutherie’s and
Pike’s Arithmetic.
After I became large
enough to work in the crop, I went to School only in the winter, and
worked the farm the rest of the year. I never had to be persuaded,
nor scolded to go to school; on the contrary, I often cried when I
was told I had to stay from school. I was often whipped for mischief
at school, but never because I did not learn my lessons. I was fond
of learning.
My parents were very
strict with their children; and frequently chastized us for
"breaking the Sabbath," so called. I continued to go to school in
winter and work on the farm in summer until I was not far from
seventeen years of age. Sometime before this I was encouraged by Gen. T. Fletcher, a friend of my father's, to study law, and had read
Blackstone, and a few other elementary works and studied them pretty
thoroughly for a boy of my age, and wits occasionally
examined by Gen. F., who encouraged me by saying I was learning rapidly. My reading law, however, was carefully
concealed from my father, who had quite a repugnance to the
profession.
When I was about
Seventeen years of age, an incident occurred, which changed the
whole tenor of my life.
My brother next older
than myself were {sic} quite volatile and fond of fun, even though
it should be at the expense, and to the injury of others. In the
spring, when the corn was fully up, we attended a muster in the
neighborhood. A good deal of whiskey was sold and drank on such
occasions. Towards evening it began to rain. We bought whiskey, pint
after pint, and induced quite a number of my father's neighbors,
heads of families and others, to drink. They agreed to drink as long
as we would buy and give them. They drank until several of them were
becoming drunk. One of them, a good liver, feeling quite rich just
then, invited the crowd to his house for supper. We all went; my
brother and I to see the fun; for we had drank none whatever. By the
time we got to the house, some were too drunk to eat, or to go home;
and they fell on the floor and rolled, and cursed and swore, and
some were very sick. Some would sing and pray and use profane
language, by turns. Thus the night wore away, and the morning was
drawing near, when my brother and I had to be at home to begin our
day's work. So we set out and reached home about day break. That day
my brother harrowed the young corn and I re-planted. How my
brother's mind had been employed through the day, I had no means of
knowing, but mine had been painful occupied with the scenes of the
past day and night. I thought how sinfully we had acted, and how
much sin we had been the occasion of others' committing. The
recollection of these stung the heart. I began to awake to a sense
of my sinful condition. The sins of my life rushed, thick and fast,
into my mind. I grew sick at heart, and tears, bitter, burning,
blinding tears, rolled down my cheeks. I felt that I was a sinner; a
great sinner; a hell-deserving sinner. The guilt of my many and
heignous{heinous} sins came careering up before my mind, and a sense
of guilt settled, with a leaden weight upon my heart. I was opprest;
my heart was crushed with grief. Then and there, in the field, I
resolved, for the first time in my life, to change my course, and to
seek the Lord, and never to give over {to} the struggle until I had
the evidence of pardon. I had been brought up to say my prayers; and
often had my dear old mother taken me with her into the closet, and
knealt{knelt} down with me by her side upon my knees, and, putting
her blessed hand upon my head, prayed for her poor, sinful boy.
Still, I had never prayed. My heart had never gone out after God. I
had never, until now, been burdened. oppressed, crushed beneath the
weight of conscious sins. I had never known before what repentance
meant. But now I felt it all, painfully poignantly. Every breath was
a prayer for mercy. But my lips moved not, except with quivering
emotions. For the first time in my life I resolved to seek a retired
spot to pray—to pour out my burdened soul before God.
The sun was almost
down. Our day's work was done. My brother started towards the house,
and I went of a secret place to pray. Back of the field, near a
hollow, in a briar thicket, I found a shot suited to my purpose.
After looking all around to be assured that no one saw me, I dropped
upon my knees, my head and hands upon a log, I made my first effort
to pray. I knealt{knelt} for some moments in silence, for words came
not to my lips. I could think of nothing to say. My pent-up grief
was intense. It seemed that my heart would break. Tears gushed
unbidden from my eyes. I sobbed aloud. A wail of agony welled up
from the deep fountain of my heart. Amid sobs and groans I
instinctively, and half unconsciously, ejaculated, "God, have mercy
on my poor soul!" but I could think of nothing else to say. My agony
of soul was too intense for utterance. I fell prostrate, my face
upon the ground, and wept, and sobbed, and groaned with agony of
soul. I had, somehow, imbibed the idea that God of stern
inflexibility, of rigid justice, but without mercy, and that Christ
was full of mercy and compassion. These ideas now rushed upon my
mind, and under their influence, I instantly turned my thoughts to
Jesus, and cried out, "0 thou compassionate Savior, have mercy upon
my poor sinful, miserable soul!" How long I wept and prayed, I know
not; but when I bethought myself it was night. I arose and started
for the house. On the way, I dried up my tears, and composed myself
as much as possible to prevent anyone from knowing my state of mind.
Supper was announced; I went to the table, but could not eat. My
countenance must have looked haggard, for my mother asked me if I
was sick: I told her I did not feel well; and, lest I should be
interrogated further, and something should be said that would reveal
the state of my mind, I left the table, and retired to my room. I
went to bed early; and though I had slept none for more than
twenty-four hours, I could not sleep. For a long time I wept, until
my pillow was wet with tears; finally, exhausted, I sunk into a
troubled sleep. I dreamed the day of judgment had come, I thought
one at a time was called into a church-house, that was in the
neighborhood, to give an account of his past conduct. All the people
of the neighborhood, I thought, were out of doors, and one by one,
they were called into the house. The aisle was in the middle of the
house, directly before the pulpit, which was at the further end of
the house from the door; and I thought that, as each one was judged,
he was assigned a place in the house, either on the right or
left-hand of the Judge, according as he was either acquitted or
condemned. The righteous were placed on the right, and the wicked on
the left hand of the Judge.
My mother's name
at length was called. She quietly arose and walked calmly and alone
into the house. My heart beat terribly, but I had no difficulty in
dividing in my own mind what her doom would be, and I as readily
decided what would be my fate—the very opposite of my mother's. I
waited in silence and in dreadful apprehensions, and with deep
emotion, to be summoned before the throne. I knew that justice would
be done me, for Jesus was the Judge; but justice was the very thing
that I feared. But I had not to wait long, for soon my name was
called, and I arose, trembling, and went in. As I entered the
door, looking to the right hand of the Judge, I saw my mother. I
caught her eye. She was weeping. I knew it was in anticipation of my
doom. Her lips quivered, as I had seen them quiver a thousand times
before when she was burdened with grief too deep for utterance. She
spoke not, but turned away her head and wept. I cast my eyes towards
Jesus as he sat upon his throne with the Bible open before him. He
cast one look upon me. It was full of tenderness, but I read in his
countenance my fearful doom. He gently called me to draw near before
him. I started down the isle, but before I had reached the spot his
eye had indicated for me to come, I awoke, and, to my infinite
relief, behold, it was a dream! It would, nevertheless, have been a
reality, as resputed my destiny, had I at that time been summoned
before the judgment seat of Christ.
The next day was
Saturday, and I had an appointment with a young man to visit, that
evening, some young ladies in the neighborhood. But now I did not
wish to make the visit. In my state of mind I could not engage in
frivolous conversation, and any other sort would not likely interest
them. Then, I did not wish to my condition of mind. I had resolved
to live a new life, and did not wish my attention to be diverted
from it. What was I to do; Would it be right to ignore my promise to
the young man? This, I thought, would not be honorable. Should I
meet him, he might insist on my filling my engagement, which I now
resolved not to do. After revaluing the subject, as I supposed,
fully in my mind, I determined to meet him at the time and place
agreed upon, and frankly tell him all, and ask him to release me
from the engagement. I went accordingly, and on the way I decided on
the manner in which I should broach the subject. We met. Our
greeting was, as usual, cordial. I soon summoned resolution to open
my case fully before him, and in conclusion, asked to release me
from the engagement. What was my delight and joy, when he not only
released me, but added, as I had resolved to set out for heaven, he
would become my companion on the journey.
There was no
religious excitement at this time in the neighborhood; indeed
religion seemed to be at low ebb. The next day the people who called
themselves Christians had a meeting in the neighborhood. I had a
sister, younger than myself, who, next to my mother, was the idol of
my heart. I asked her to accompany me to the meeting. She readily
consented. On the way I revealed to her the state of my mind, and
asked her to join me in seeking the Lord. She was a sweet girl and
religiously inclined. She wept, and promised to go with me to
heaven. We sat that day some distance apart, but so that I could see
her face, and I loved to look at her, for to me she was very
precious. During the sermon I noticed that she wept, and the
preacher too noticed it; and in the conclusion of the discourse he
invited persons forward to the anxious seat. I thought that, likely,
my sister would like to go forward, and I wished her to go. When the
congregation commenced singing, I went to my sister and asked her if
she wished to go up to be prayed for? She said she did, but could
not get through the crowd. I told her I would go with her. We both
arose from our seat, she took my arm, and I led her through the
press near to the minister where I sat down, and my sweet sister
knelt, resting her head upon my knee. The audience appeared to be
astonished, both at my sister and myself. We had taken them by
surprise, for no one, except the young man alluded to above, knew
anything of my feelings, and until then, he was ignorant of my
sister's purpose and feelings. My conduct was inexplicable. When
they saw me go to my sister, they supposed my purpose was to prevent
her going up to be prayed for, perhaps, to take her out of the
house—for all had seen her emotions; but I was stern, and had not
shed a tear. They had seen me looking at her. And when they saw me
lead her forward, weeping, and me unmoved, they were greatly
perplexed. They did not understand. My concern was not about myself,
but her. And when, after prayer, the minister commenced talking to
me, I told him to talk to my sister. After dismission, my sister
took my arm, and we started home. On the way I encouraged her all I
could, and exhorted her never to give over till she had found her
Savior. She promised to hold on faithfully, and try to meet me in
heaven. Shortly afterwards she joined the Baptist church with her
mother, and in relating her experience, dated her conviction from
my conversation to her. The young man, a few weeks afterward, joined
the Christian Church, and stated that the first concern he had felt
about his soul was occasioned by my speaking to him on the subject
of religion.
As yet, I had not
"got through." I continued to go to meetings, whenever opportunity
offered, day and night, far and near.
One afternoon Elder
John Rogers preached at a private house in the neighborhood. Many
were there, and I among the rest. At the close of his discourse, he
invited "mourners'' forward to be prayed for. I sat and wept, but
moved not. A lady seeing my agitation, pressed through the crowd,
and asked me if I did not wish to go forward? I answered, I did, but
could not get through the press. She told me to follow her, that she
would open the way for me. I went forward and, kneeling down, began
to beg for mercy. This was the first time I had ever asked God's
people to pray for me; but after that, I went forward at every
meeting when mourners were called for.
I neglected to state,
at the proper place, that, the day after I had resolved to change my
life, and after my dreadful dream of the judgment, my mother sought
an opportunity to speak with me privately; and, suspecting the real
cause of my want of appetite and haggard appearance, she asked what
was the matter with me; and in a way that none but a mother, a
Christian mother, can do, desired me to be candid with her. I told
her all, and found relief in the disclosure. During the recital,
tears came in to her eyes; when I had concluded my brief but sad
story, tears gushed from her eyes. She wept aloud, and threw hear
blessed arms about my neck, and I threw my arms around her neck,
and, clasped in each other's embraces, we wept. My mother wept from
joy, and I wept from mingled emotions of joy and grief. For a long
Lime we thus stood, our hearts beating and our tears mingling
together. It was a scene wholly new to me. It was the beginning of
joy and happiness.
Time wore on, still
no relief came to my troubled mind, my burdened heart. True, my
mental agony was gradually becoming less intense; but this increased
my grief, for I was beginning to fear my convictions were leaving
me, and this caused me great sorrow. Still, I resolved never to give
up the struggle. I prayed regularly night and morning, and as often
through the day as I could find a secret place in which to beg God
for mercy. Away in the night I would retire to a grove not very
distant from the house, and pray for mercy, and beg the Lord to show
me some token of my acceptance with him. I would close my eyes and
desire to a light like that which Paul saw, or to hear a voice, like
to that which he heard, I wanted to hear him tell me in an audible
voice that my sins were forgiven. I had frequently heard professors
speak of having had such manifestations, and of hearing God thus
speak peace to their souls. I had been always taught that this was
the evidence which God afforded a person of the remission of his
sins. And what less could I reasonably expect! I waited long for
such a manifestation, and anxiously expected it whenever God saw
proper to forgive my sins.
This was the
condition of my mind when, one day a preacher came by to get me to
go to meeting with him. Soon alter we started, he asked me how I was
getting on seeking religion, and whether I had yet found the Lord in
the remission of my sins? I replied that I was getting on badly;
that, instead of having heard the voice of the Lord telling me my
sins were forgiven, I feared I was losing my convictions; that the
burden of my sins was not then as oppressive as it had been, which
caused me great alarm. At this the preacher smiled. I thought it
cruel of him to smile at my grief, occasioned too, by the fear that
I was growing worse instead of better. He saw I was hurt, and
observed I was mistaken. I replied that I feared I was not mistaken.
He proposed to ask me some questions, to which I assented. He
proceeded to ask me if I loved the Lord? The question brought me to
reflection; to earnest thinking; and I inquired mentally, what is
God? what are His attributes, his character? Do I know what he is?
If not, how can I be assured that I love him? I knew I loved
something which I supposed to be God. But then, I might be deceived;
that might not be the true God, but a creation of my own fancy.
Hence I answered: "If I know what God really is, I love him; but I
may be mistaken in his character. Still I love what I suppose to be
God," "I will ask you another question, one that I know you can
answer. Do you love the people of God?" "Yes, I answered, "I
do; and I love them because they are his people, and because I
suppose they love God." "Then," said he, "you are a Christian; your
sins are pardoned, for the Scripture says, 'we know we have passed
from death unto life because we love the brethren.' " "No." I
responded; my sins are not pardoned. God has not spoken peace to my
soul; he has never told me my sins are pardoned." "Benjamin," said
the preacher, "God does not now speak to us audibly, by a voice from
heaven, as he used to speak to the people before the cannon of
scripture was completed. The written word is to us the same as the
spoken word was to the people then." This was a new idea to me, and
contrary to what I had been always taught; and I told him I had
heard many persons say they had heard God speak to them audibly from
heaven," "That is all imagination," said the preacher. "The
preachers must believe the people do have such new revelations now;
and that God does tell them by a voice directly from heaven, that
their sins are forgiven; because they receive them into the Church
on the relation of such experiences." What he said to this, I do not
now remember; but I recalled that he said, among other things that
the word of God is our only source of information now, and that God
there addresses us as characters; that he then describes the
character of those on whom he will have mercy, those whose sins he
will pardon, and that when we are assured of being that character,
we are authorized to believe that our sins are pardoned. "I am
satisfied," said he, "from what I know of you, and from what you
have told me that your sins are pardoned, and that you are a
Christian, and that you ought to join the Church and be baptized
this very day." I told him I did not believe my sins were pardoned,
and that I intended never to join the Church until I had assurance
that my sins were remitted.
We had now reached
the place of meeting; and just as I was taking my seat in the
congregation, and before my companion had entered the pulpit, an
elderly minister arose to preach. In the progress of his discourse
he detailed the travels of a soul from sin to holiness. He described
my experience from the beginning to the point which I had reached,
and further. Had I not known that the preacher who went with me had
not had an opportunity to say a word to him, and that no other human
had heard me detail my religious exercises; I would have supposed
the venerable speaker was speaking of me personally, and of my
soul-travels. Several were that day immersed; and I stood on the
bank alone, observing with deep interest the solemn scene, my eyes
suffused with tears. Just as the last one emerged from the stream, I
felt a hand laid gently on my shoulder; as I turned to look, my eyes
met the tender gaze of a deacon of the church, who asked me
affectionately if I did not desire to follow the humble and pious
example of those dear young persons who had been just buried with
the Lord in baptism? I answered, "I wish I was worthy to do so," and
burst into tears. He said soothingly: "Do not be discouraged. I
trust the day is not distant when I shall have the happiness of
seeing you buried in the liquid grave and rise to walk a new life in
Christ Jesus. God bless you, and give you consolation and good hope
through grace! I wish you to go home with me," he added. I told him
I was compelled to go home that evening, and obtain leave of my
parents to return to the meeting on the morrow. "Then," said he, go
home with me tomorrow to dinner." I promised him I would ask my
parents' consent to do so.
I attended the
meeting next day, and went home with the deacon. After dinner he
asked me to take a walk with him. We went some distance from the
house talking about Jesus and religion. That was the only theme in
which I took any delight. After we had gone out of sight and hearing
of the house, he proposed, if I had no objection, he would join in
prayer. I gladly acceded to his proposition. We knelt, and he led in
prayer. I have often thought it was one of the most earnest,
heart-felt, importunate prayers I had ever heard. He plead
beseechingly in my behalf.
After a long
conversation with me, he expressed himself satisfied of my
acceptance with God, and requested that I would join the Church that
night. I did not promise him that I would do so, but told if, in the
course of the meeting, I became satisfied with my state of mind, I
would.
Before the meeting
some of the ministers conversed with me and expressed themselves
fully satisfied with my experience, and urged me to unite with the
Church at once, assuring me I had experienced all that they
themselves had, or any others known to them. I was still undecided,
and so told them. Elder John Rogers preached that night, and "opened
the door of the church" for the reception of members. I concluded to
go forward, and did, to the joy of many hearts. I was asked to
relate my experiences. Many of the members had heard it before—had
heard it all—in its details. They so stated to the church. They,
therefore, requested me to relate the substance. I did so in about
the following language: "Reflecting upon my past life, I became
convinced I was a great sinner. I endeavored to give myself to the
Lord, and trust I have found him to be my Savior." With this
experience the Church was satisfied, and gave me the right hand of
fellowship accordingly.
As the meeting closed
that night and I had to be at home at work on the farm, my
baptism—which was not deemed of much importance anyway—was postponed
till the next meeting, to be held a few weeks hence at a stand near
old brother Nesbit's about a mile below Carlisle. To that meeting I
went, and was immersed by brother William Morrow, in a small stream
that heads a short distance above the town. The place where I was
buried in baptism is now dry land.
I was now just 17
years old. I had set out for heaven, determined, by God's help to be
faithful till death. I had many outward difficulties to encounter.
My neighbors generally and my relations all were opposed to my
joining the Christian church all except my mother. She would have
preferred that I had joined the Baptists to be with her and my young
sister. But she was so rejoiced to think I was a christian that she
was reconciled. My other relations were Presbyterians. They could
hardly endure the Baptists; but the "New Lights," as they called
them--they could not tolerate.
The day that I joined
the Christian Church my father went to Carlisle to hear Walter
Warder, a Baptist, preach. He told him of my mental state, and asked
him to come to see me. Next morning brother Warder was there to
breakfast. No one present, not even my mother, knew at the time that
I had joined the Christian Church the night previous. At the table
brother W. requested me to relate my experience. I did so. When I
had concluded brother W. said he was satisfied with my experience
and believed I had found peace with God; and asked my mother how she
felt about it. I looked and saw that my mother was weeping. As well
as I remember she answered brother W. question in about in these
words: "It appears all well enough except one thing. I cannot
understand how Benjamin got through so soon. He was only about four
weeks under conviction; and it was seven years before I obtained
comfort, and I was all the while earnestly seeking the Lord."
Brother Waller told her we had more light now than was enjoyed then;
and referred to some cases in Arts, where some found comfort, and
were baptized the same day. My mother interposed no further
objection. Brother Waller then turned and asked me when it would
suit me to be baptized? This led me to inform him that I had united
with the Christian Church. He said no more, arose from the table,
and soon took his leave.
Besides the
difficulties without, I had now to contend those against within. I
was naturally volatile, fond of mirth and amusements, and had a
passion for dancing. Although I was 14 years old before I was ever
at a dancing party or ball, I soon became fond of the amusement. The
first time I ever danced, I was solicited to do so by a young lady.
I told her I did not know how to dance; did not understand anything
about it. She generously (?) offered to become my teacher. I told
her they would all laugh at my awkwardness. She promised, and got
the company to promise they would not. At length I consented. The
set was made up, and she was to be my partner. We walked out upon
the floor. The fiddle was tuned, and the bow drawn a time or two
over the strings. The music struck up, and our feet and limbs and
all began to keep time with the instrument. I soon made a bobble;
directly I lost my place; and before we were through I made half a
dozen blunders. Some turned away their heads to prevent my seeing
them laugh; my partner crammed her handkerchief into her mouth. All
were amused except myself. The ice was now broken, and I determined
to succeed--to excell those of my own sex who had amused themselves
at my expense, and I accomplished my object. Then I would dance to
show how much I could beat them.
I had been in the
habit of using profane language. This I overcame at once. I was also
fond of plays at weddings and parties. To avoid being drawn into
these, I went to no gatherings where I supposed they would be
indulged in. In order to avoid being drawn into any improprieties, I
carefully avoided all had company. Even at religious meetings,
instead of associating with the gay and frivolous, I associated with
the venerable and pious members of the Church; and would generally
engage in singing, or ask questions by which I could gain some
useful information. This course I continued to pursue until I lost
all-relish for loud laughing, frivolity and amusements. In matters
of doubtful propriety, I consulted the old and pious members of the
church, and was governed by their judgment.
Some twelve months
after I had joined the Church I imagined I was called to preach. I
loved sinners and felt an ardent desire for their salvation. As far
as I was able at the time to do so, I counted the cost, and felt
prepared to make the sacrifice, to perform the toil and to endure
the consequences. The idea of becoming a minister of the gospel
presented an array of new difficulties, greater and more numerous
than I had as yet been called to encounter. First of all, I had an
impediment in my speech, and stammered badly, especially when
agitated or embarrassed. I had read of Demosthenes and learned how
he overcame the impediment in his speech. What the Athenian Orator
had accomplished for worldly advantage and renown, I felt could be
accomplished for the good of souls and the glory of God. I
was, at least willing to make the effort, persuaded that, I could
ultimately succeed. Then again, my constitution was frail, and many
thought predisposed to pulmonary consumption. This I determined to
invigorate by physical discipline, proper exercise and diet. My
voice was weak and without volume. This I determined to remedy, and
did, by proper instruction and culture.
But I was without
sufficient education—did not even understand the Grammar of my own
language. Then, again, I was poor. But I was young and could learn,
provided another great difficulty was removed. My father's will was
law in our family. Could his consent be obtained for me to prepare
for ministry in a church with which he had no sympathy? This was to
be tested, and I resolved to make the trial. But how was it to be
done? In one way only; that was through my mother. Suppose he should
consent, what then? How was I to proceed to acquire an education? A
thought struck me. I had a brother-in-law, the husband of my eldest
sister, with no children, and he a Yankey and an elder in the
Presbyterian Church and in good circumstances, and loved education.
Maybe he will assist me. Then I had a brother who taught me my
letters, and loved education. Both lived in Flemingsburgh, some 16
miles away. My brother might be able to render me some aid. I
revolved I would write to them and ascertain what they would do for
me, if anything. I wrote. Both answered promptly. My brother would
board me, and my brother-in-law would furnish me with books and pay
my tuition at a Latin school, taught in Flemingsburgh by Mr. Peter
Acres, then a lawyer, and afterwards a Methodist minister. So far,
all right. The next thing was to gain my father's consent to let me
go. I opened the case to my mother. Told her of my desire to preach,
and committed to her good sense and management the affair with my
Father. She agreed to undertake the mission, but with little hope of
succeeding. But she would try. She tried, and failed. I urged
her to try again, and to tell him I did not ask him to pay my
tuition or board. She made the second effort, and used her own sweet
eloquence to induce him to consent. But he was inexorable. He could
not spare me; he needed my labor on the farm. The case seemed
settled; and one less determined than myself would have given it up
as hopeless. But I was not discouraged; I resolved to make another
effort--through my mother. Wearied, out of patience, exasperated at
our importunity, and evidently to put a full end to our intreaties
and any further annoyance to him, he told my mother to say to me
there was one condition, and one only, on which he would consent to
give me up, and that was, that, henceforth and forever, I should not
have a dollar of his money, nor any of his property, nor any
assistance from him in any manner whatever. The question was
settled, for he was a man of strong will and fixedness of purpose.
From this decision he could not he moved, and my mother knew it.
Neither she nor my father had any idea that I would accept his
conditions and leave. What could I do? I was young, and poor,
uneducated, in rather feeble health, and, more than all, friendless.
Neither as yet knew the propositions made me by my brother-in-law
and brother. My mother came into the room weeping, and told me my
father's decision, and begged me to give up the matter, at least for
the present, and wait the openings of Providence. I then told her,
smiling, that Providence had already opened the way before me, and
that I should walk in it. I told her all, and we rejoiced together.
I hastened to my father and accepted his terms, asking him only to
let me have a horse to ride to Flemingsburgh. He was astounded at my
acceptance of his terms, and asked me how I expected to obtain an
education? I told him I would try to do my duty and trust in God for
aid. After a short pause, he told me I should have a horse to ride
to Flemingsburgh.
Some time prior to
this my brother who was with me at the muster, had made a profession
of religion and united with the Christian Church. And he and myself,
by our father's consent, hold worship in the family.
There was not,
perhaps, in all Kentucky, a more harmonious united and happy family
than ours. We all loved and were beloved by each other. We were
noted for our love of books and music, and were generally good
singers. We would spend our winter evenings singing. Mother would
sit in one corner knitting, and father in the other listening to the
singing of their children, and they would occasionally join in a
song with us. But the household is broken; and nearly all have gone
to the spirit world. But few of us are on this side of the Jordan,
and we shall soon pass over to join those who are gone before, we
trust not again to be severed.
Having obtained my
father's consent to leave him, my mother and sister set about
fixing; up my clothes ready for me to go.
In a few days I was
pleasantly situated as an inmate of my brother's family. My
brother-in-law, having procured for me books, as directed by my
future teacher, took me down to the school-room, and introduced me
to Mr. Acres, who, at once put me to memorizing the Latin Grammar.
In due time I recited my first lesson; and the older pupils were no
little amused at my pronunciation of the words Nominative,
Genative,{Genitive} Dative, Accusative, etc. My teacher bit his lips
to avoid laughing outright. My queer pronunciation had quite upset
his gravity. After looking for a moment disapprovingly at his other
pupils for laughing at my awkwardness and uncouth pronunciation, he
composed himself somewhat, and observed: "We are accustomed here to
pronounce these words thus"; and proceeded through the list of cases
to pronounce each one correctly and distinctly. I was no little
mortified at first, but soon recovered from my embarrassment. That
one correction was sufficient; I never made the same blunder again.
I was progressing
finely in my studies, overtaking class after class that had been in
advance of me until some time in the next year some time before the
Presbytery was to meet in Flemingsburg. My brother, who was not a
professor of any religion, hinted to me one day that it might be to
any advantage to join the Presbyterians, intimating that it might
contribute to my obtaining an education. But as I did not entertain
the proposition for a single instant, but rather gave him to
understand distinctly that I could not conscientiously do so; he
dropped the subject, and never said any thing more to me about it. A
few days afterwards, however, my mother's brother, Uncle N. P.
Foster, an elder in the Presbyterian church, broached the subject to
me, and labored hard and long to convince me that it would greatly
promote my interests, and was, therefore my duty to join the
Presbyterian Church and also the Presbytery when it should meet
there. I chose, however, to be governed by principle and let
interest take care of itself. The time came for the Presbytery to
meet. My brother-in-law authorized my sister, as she informed me, to
say to me, if I would join the Presbytery, and become a candidate
for the ministry, he would send me to Princeton College, N.J. and
pay all my expenses there until I graduated in both the Literary and
Theological Departments. I was anxious for an education, not,
however, to preach Presbyterianism, which I did not believe, but to
preach what I understood at that time to be the Gospel. I could not
sacrifice principle to policy. Nor could I do such violence to my
conscience for worldly honor and renown.
Men of policy rather
than principle suggested to we that I might acquire the education,
and then leave the Presbyterian Church. But to this course I had
serious objections—insurmountable difficulties. 1. I could
not do it, I told them and he an honest man. None but an arrant
hypocrite could be guilty of such duplicity. I could not do it and
be an honest man; of course, I could not be a Christian. 2. I could
not do it and be a truthful man. None but a base, unscrupulous liar
could pretend to what he was not. I would have to avow my belief in
the doctrines of Con. of Faith, and at the same time not believe
them. 3. It would have been wrong to deceive my brother-in-law, and
obtain his money under false pretences. These were a few of the many
reasons I gave for not acting so basely. I resolved I would not do
it if I never acquired an education. When I made profession of
religion, I promised, among other things, to be an honest,
honorable, and truthful man. Besides, I knew that the way to avoid
doing wrong was to keep out of temptation. Had I joined the
Presbyterians, where would I have been today? Not a preacher of the
gospel, certainly. I would rather be right, however obscure, than to
be the Pope of Rome. I would rather be the humblest member of the
Church of Christ than to occupy the loftiest position on earth in
any other society.
When my
brother-in-law learned from my sister that there was no hope of my
becoming a Presbyterian, he directed her to inform me—I use the very
words she told me he employed—that he could not place a club in my
hands for me to beat his brains out. That is, he would not
educate me to oppose Presbyterianism. This was certainly taking a
practical or business-like view of the matter. His original
agreement, however, with my brother was that he would furnish me
books and pay my tuition; and this was not to be done on condition
that I would join the Presbyterians. This was an after-thought, or,
at least, an after-suggestion.
Being, perhaps,
somewhat sensitive anyhow, especially in my destitute and dependent
situation, I began to feel that my condition was an unpleasant one.
What should I do? My tuition for the full session had been paid; so
that my continuing at school the whole term could make no pecuniary
difference with him. Should I continue? While revolving this
question in my mind—while I had it under consideration—other
circumstances occurred which made it necessary to come to an
immediate decision; among which I mention the following:
My clothes furnished
by my dear old mother, were becoming thread-bear; I had no money.
What was I to do? To remain at school appeared next to impossible.
But what should I do? What could I do, if I left? Where could I go?
I could not return to my father's. I was not qualified to teach
school even. I was without a home, without money, and without
friends;
I had set out under
the impression that I was called to preach; but it was my duty to
qualify myself for the work. God does nothing for man that man can
do for himself. Like the Israelites at the Red Sea, I had gone as
far as the way seemed opened before me. What could I do more but to
wait and watch the indications of providence, As I said to my
father, I meant to trust God; and, like Job, I intended still to
trust him; though he should slay me. I thought of Abraham whose
trust in God's promise led him to forsake his father's house, and
his native land; and God provided for him. Every man's faith needs
to be tested, and now was the time to try mine. It was a severe
trial for one of my age and experience. My way seemed to be hedged
up. All around was dark and gloomy. All I could do was to wait and
watch.
My relations all,
save my mother, were opposed to my course. They were not willing for
me to be a preacher. They did not think I could succeed, and they
were, moreover, hostile to my sentiments. Hence, those who were
able, would render me no assistance. Even my mother expressed
doubts, whether I would ever make a preacher. Still she would have
assisted me, but that my father had forbidden her to do so. My
brethren gave me no encouragement and afforded me no assistance.
They did not support the aged, talented and useful ministers. Of
course they would not assist me.
In this condition of
affairs, I waited, and prayed, and watched the indications of
Providence. About this time a Christian preacher of the name of
Harrison Osburn, a young and popular minister, sent an appointment
to preach in the court-house in Flemingsburg. I went to the meeting
and introduced myself to him. He seemed glad to make my
acquaintance, and invited me to call at his stopping place the next
morning. I did so. He had heard of me, and something of my trials.
He told me if I was called to preach, I ought to be at the work. He
advised me to quit school and travel with him around his circuit
through Fleming, Lewis, Mason and Bracken Counties. I told him I had
no horse. He proposed to procure one for me, if I would go with him.
I agreed to do so. He borrowed a horse for me to ride of a brother
Richard Hart of Fleming County. I borrowed an outfit of my brother,
and we set out. Brother Osburn's first appointment was in the
country, some 8 or 10 miles from Flemingsburg.
I had been for some
time in the habit of praying in public, indeed, almost from the time
I joined the church. I was considered a good singer, and delighted
in music, and was frequently called on to lead the singing in the
congregation. I was familiar with most of the airs sung in those
days, and knew most of the hymns by memory, and could learn a tune
or hymn by hearing it sung a few times. After singing a few songs,
brother O. requested me to open meeting with prayer. I did so. He
then asked me to speak to the people. This I had never attempted to
do, and asked him to excuse me at that time, promising that I would
do so at the next appointment. I wanted time for reflection and to
prepare some thing to say; but he would not let me off, telling me
as I had to make a beginning. I might as well do it then as any
other time. I accordingly made to effort, and a poor effort it was!
In less than five minutes my resources were exhausted. I could think
of nothing to say. I became embarrassed I stammered. The young
people smiled and tittered. This increased my confusion, and caused
me to stutter worse than ever. In this state of confusion, I sat
down, deeply mortified, but not discouraged. Brother O. arose and,
as I thought, delivered a fine discourse.
After dinner we
started on to his next appointment. We were scarcely in our saddles
when brother O. said he was anxious to hear me speak that he might
decide whether I was called to preach. He said he was convinced I
had mistaken my calling; that he did not believe I would ever
succeed as a preacher; that my stammering would always prevent my
being a public speaker of any kind; and that he did not think I
could ever make myself useful as a minister; and advised me to
return home and rescind the bargain I had made with my father, and
ask him to take me back as a farmboy; that he thought I could
succeed better as a farmer than at any thing else; and much more he
said to the same effect—all calculated to discourage and drive from
the field almost any other young man. But it did not have this
effect upon me. I related to him my first and several succeeding
efforts in the ballroom, and of the final result. This made him
laugh outright. He said there was quite a difference between one's
heels and his head; that it did not require much sense to learn how
to dance; that some of the most expert dancers he ever knew did not
have sense enough to fit a dress, to cut a coat—(he had himself been
a tailor) or scarcely (sense) to knit a pair of stockings; but that
it required brains to make a preacher! All this I admitted might be
true, but it did not follow that I would not make a preacher. I told
him he might drive me away from him, if he did not wish me to go,
but that He could not keep me from trying to preach. I informed him
that I had not yet had a fair trial, and that it would be shameful,
if nothing worse, to give up such a cause upon such an experiment;
and that I never intended to abandon the work, involving
consequences so momentous, without a fair trial. Seeing I was
resolute and determined, and that I was not to be moved by his
judgment, formed prematurely, he advised me to continue with him
around the circuit. Before the month was out, he changed his opinion
somewhat, revised his decision and reversed his former judgment.
It was my practice to
pray morning and evening in secret. I would retire early in the
morning to some secret place to pray, and would then read my Bible
till about breakfast time. My clothes were now threadbear and thin.
I was near Minerva in Bracken County, Kentucky. I had on cotton
pantaloons, the last gift of my mother. At early dawn I went out to
pray. When I knelt down, my pantaloons split open on the knee. I had
no others. What was I to do? I had an appointment to preach that
day. I must meet it. I returned to the house, and too diffident to
ask any one to mend the rent, I got a needle and thread and sewed it
up, and went on to my meeting.
The coming winter I
spent in Fleming and Mason Counties, speaking on Lord's days and
reading through the week. Early in the spring I made a visit to
Servise County, {Ohio} and spoke at Canbincreek. A brother then took
me to one side and after looking all around to satisfy himself that
no one saw him, while bidding me farewell, slipped 25 cents into in
hand. This he did that the scripture might he fulfilled. ''Let not
your left hand know what your right hand doeth." Until then I did
not have one cent of money. I was enabled to pay my ferriage across
the Ohio river; and I was anxious to get over to attend a meeting in
Highland County, Ohio.
On walking out into
the woods one day some distance from the meeting place, I noticed a
great many tracks of barefeet. For some, time I could not understand
this, as all, as far as I could see, had on shoes at the meeting.
But one day I happened to see some ladies, going from the meeting,
some distance from the place, pulling off their shoes and stockings.
The mystery was explained. They would walk from home barefooted,
carrying their shoes and stockings in their hands until they got
near the meeting place, then they would put them on; and take them
off at the same place returning from the meeting.
From Highland, I went
to Minerva, Kentucky. I gave the ferryman my hymn book to cross me
over the river. At Minerva I met brother John Rogers on his way to a
meeting in Ohio. He requested me to accompany him. I told him I had
no money to pay my ferriage. He proposed to pay it for me. The first
night we stayed with Matthew Gardner, publisher of a hymnbook. On
brother R's telling him I had none, and why; he, in the exuberance
of his charity, proposed to make me a present of one on condition
that I would sell a dozen copies for him without charge. The bargain
was soon struck. He gave me the book; I took a dozen which I sold,
and on my {way} back, paid him the money.
Travelling on one day
through Ohio, I fell behind brother Rogers, and became absorbed in
meditation. I thought of my trials; the difficulties I lead to
contend with; my discouragements; the fact that not a brother had
ever spoken to me a word of encouragement or comfort; my utter
destitution of resources; the rusty and ragged condition of my
clothes; the fact that, though worse dressed than any preacher, many
called me proud—said I was too proud for a preacher. Providence, it
seemed, had hedged up my way. What was to become of me? What could I
do? For the first time in my life, I almost despaired of ever making
a preacher. In this state of mind, I rode up to the side of brother
Rogers and told him I was fearful I would not succeed; and
enumerated my difficulties. By way of comfort(?) he replied that he
did not think I would ever make much of a preacher, but that, as
brother K once told a desponding brother, some one must be the
poorest preacher, and I might as well be that one as any body else.
This waked me up, nerved me, touched my pride, excited my ambition,
gave me resolution to suffer any thing, to endure every thing for
the time being, to brave everything. I felt as I had never felt
before; I was aroused as I had never before been aroused to dare and
do. I straightened myself in my saddle. I erected my head; I lifted
up my right hand, and said: Brother Rogers, from this moment I
resolve to make a preacher, or to die trying!" The Rubicon was
passed. The great struggle was over: the clouds dispersed. Hope took
wing. I determined to succeed. And having formed the resolution,
"Richard was himself again." From that day to this, I have never
been discouraged. Opposition gives me resolution. My motto is: "Hope on; hope ever." Don't give up the ship. My opinion is, with my
example before me, that a man can accomplish almost any thing he
determines to do; and a young man, without an education, without a
dollar, and without friend, but with ordinary capacity and a
tolerable constitution, can make of himself almost any thing that he
resolves to be, by energy and perseverance. And one such who has not
the nerve to undertake it of himself, deserves no assistance, and
would be of no account, if assisted. I like to see one resolve to be
a man.
While in Ohio, I
would retire to the woods to pray and preach to the trees and
brushes. My auditors kept very quiet; they were not restless; they
did not grow weary of hearing me; nor did they smile at my
ignorance, or laugh at my stammering. Speaking aloud in the dense
forests, I learned to modulate my voice and to speak without
stammering. I was at first a rapid speaker. Many words I could not
pronounce without pausing an instant before speaking them. When I
hurried on rapidly, I always stammered at these words and stumbled
over them. By this training I became a deliberate speaker, and was
able to articulate distinctly.
I neglected to
mention in the proper place that the Conference at its meeting this
year gave me license to preach, as the Conference of the preceding
year had given me authority to exhort.
In the fall, I
returned to Kentucky and early in the winter I went to Crawford
County, In., on a visit to my oldest brother, Cornelius. Among other
plans, I visited Bloomington, then in the woods; and Indianapolis,
where the timber had been felled and was still lying on the ground.
A few log cabins with mud chimnies, constituted the town.
While living with my
father I had bought a colt which was now grown. This I rode to Ind.
and near Indianapolis traded it off for a lot in the contemplated
town. Early in the spring, just before the ice broke up, I started a
foot for Kentucky, carrying my overcoat and saddlebags. For a few
days, I got along tolerable well, but my boots were soon torn to
pieces on the rough frozen ground. This made it bad to travel. But
the worst was yet to come. The weather moderated; it rained, and the
snow and the ice began to melt. I had to wade through mud. I crossed
rivers and creeks on the brittle ice while the water, once in
particular, was six inches over the ice. At length I reached the
Ohio river, at the North bend, near where General Harrison then
lived. The ice was running in the river at a terrible rate. The
ferry man refused to cross me over unless I would pay him, I think
it was $5.00. I agreed to give it, although I had not a dollar left.
With much difficulty, and after encountering great danger, I was
safely landed on the Kentucky shore. It was about the middle of the
afternoon. After walking several miles, I asked to stay all night at
a good-looking house, but was refused because I had told them I was
out of money, or nearly so. I went on to the next house and told the
same sad story. I received a hearty welcome; they gave me a good,
warm supper—the first I had eaten since morning. During the evening
I learned that they were members of the Christian Church. I showed
them my license to preach. Next morning the brother directed me
where I could stay all night with a brother. I reached the place,
told the same tale, and was invited in with tons of welcome. I told
who I was. They were glad to see me; said I must stay the next day
and preach at night. The brother said if I would do so, he would
have my boots mended. I stayed, of course and preached. The next day
I reached the house of a brother I had before known in Harrison. I
had acquaintances then all the way to my father's.
On reaching home, I
learned there was a Conference soon to be held in Bath County, on
big flat creek, I think was the name of the stream. The weather was
now comfortable but the roads were muddy. When the time for the
meeting arrived, I expressed a determination to attend it; but I had
no horse to ride. My father, however, had a number—more than he
needed for immediate use. I asked him for the loan of one to
ride to the meeting, and told him I would return early the next
week. But he refused to let we have a horse, telling me I had better
go to work and make an honest living instead of running over the
country living on other people. I resolved to go, nevertheless.
Accordingly the next morning I threw my saddlebags across my
shoulder, rolled up my pantaloons and plunged out in the mud. I got
along pretty well in my mended boots.
A good many preachers
were at the meeting. I participated in singing and public prayer,
but was not asked to preach. On Monday the Conference met in secret
session—I, at least, was not asked to be present. I was at the stand
engaged with others in singing and praying. Just before the
preaching was to begin, an old preacher, John Mavity, took me aside
and requested me to go home with him to the upper end of Montgomery
County, and preach to his neighbors. This to me was a strange event.
I had seldom been asked to preach before then, and never by an old
and popular preacher. I told him I had no horse. He informed me he
had an extra horse and saddle which I could ride. But how was I to
get back? He proposed to furnish me a horse to ride home. Taking
this as an opening of providence, I accepted the invitation. An
appointment was sent up in advance. The next evening I preached at a
private house to a fine audience. For the first time in my life, my
tongue was loosed; words flowed in a regular and continuous stream;
my ideas were better than I had ever had; my feelings became
excited, and, here and there, one was beginning to weep. Soon the
house was in tears, the speaker with the rest. Gradually my voice
mellowed. The effect was electrical; the excitement was
intense. Brother Mavity sprang to his feet, and rushing
towards me, threw his arms about my neck, and amid tears and sobs,
said: ''Go on, brother Hall. You are called to preach. Give yourself
wholly to the work, and God will crown your labors with success!”
When he had concluded, I resumed my discourse, under great
excitement. He interrupted me again, telling me to call for
mourners. I did so instantly; and they rushed forward in great
numbers. We prayed for them, and concluded the exercises with a
song.
On our way to brother
Mavity's after the meeting that night, he revealed to me the mystery
about his inviting me home with him. He told me that, on Monday the
Conference met in secret session on my case. I had been licensed to
preach. Many of the preachers did not think I was called to preach,
and the question was about taking from me my license. He told the
Conference he had never heard me, and was not prepared to vote on
the question; but if they would postpone the case till the next
meeting of Conference, so as to give him an opportunity to hear me,
he would be prepared to vote on the question of withdrawing from me
license to preach. This was the last I ever heard about taking away
my preaching license.
Brother Mavity was
about to start to Indiana on a tour of preaching; and, now that he
was satisfied I was called to the work of the ministry, he was
anxious for me to accompany him. I was very willing to go, but had
not horse to ride. Brother M. had promised to furnish me a horse to
go to my father’s. If I remember, his son came that far with us and
took the horse back. On reaching my father’s we found him inclined
to aid me in procuring a horse. I purchased one from one of the
neighbors on time at low figures. I gave my not for the money with
my father as security. I paid the note when due with the proceeds of
the horse I had sold at Indianapolis.
We held several
successful meetings in Indiana. I preached almost every day, and,
apparently, to the satisfaction of people generally, and to the
delight of brother Mavity. I feel greatly indebted to the venerable
brother. He was a sensible and good man, and took especial aim to
give me all the instruction in his power. He was useful in his day,
but has long since gone to his reward. He had, and yet has, some
sons engaged in preaching the word.
Having fulfilled our
mission in Indiana, we returned, late in autumn to Kentucky. I spent
the winter reading the Scriptures and preaching on Lord’s Days.
Late in the winter, I
received a letter from the venerable B.W. Stone, then living at
Georgetown, Kentucky informing me that the brethren in the upper
Green river country desired him to send them a young preacher to
ride that season with brother Isaac Mayfield in that county. Sever
had been solicited to go, but declined. I seemed to be the only
chance. I consented to go. Accordingly early in the spring I set out
for that wide field of labor. I went by way of Georgetown, and,
receiving from father Stone letters of introduction and
recommendation, and his parting blessing, I pursued on my journey.
After some five or six days travel through the mud, and over hills
and along hollows, I arrived, safely at the house of brother John
Jones on the East fork of Green river. Here I received a hearty
greeting and a cordial welcome. Brother Stone had advised them of my
coming; hence they were expecting me. A circuit had been formed
embracing the Counties of Casey, Adair, Russell (it is now), Wayne,
Pulaski and Lincoln. Some parts of the above Counties were rich but
broken, but the most of the country is poor.
After preaching at
Purgamus near brother Jones’, brother Mayfield and I started around
our big circuit. We were to complete the circuit once in every
month. To accomplish this, we had to travel hard, and preach only a
few times at one place. We had but one rest-day in the month, and
that was at brother Jones! We had but few clothes, and these we
scattered around the circuit so as to have clean garments to put on
about once a week. Altogether some of that circuit embraced some of
the roughest country and people I have even seen, and I have seen a
good many of both. We had to encounter extreme poverty, ignorance,
filth, ticks and bed-bugs, and other vermin. We had to lodge on
boards, shucks, straw, and, which on many accounts, the best of all,
on the floor. Our diet was at some places the poorest, the most
meager, and the worst prepared that l had ever seen. At other places
it was good. One night, in one of the most out-of-the-way places I
had ever seen, I selected as my theme the words: "Go into the high
ways and hedges, and compell{sic} them to come in." Brother Mayfield
remarked afterwards that he thought the subject quite appropriate.
During that season
quite a number were converted and immersed into the Christian
Church. l, of course, received almost no compensation for my labors.
Early in the fall I
was taken sick of fever, and was confined at brother Jones' several
weeks before I was able to travel. Wishing to go to school that
winter, I traded off a good horse for an inferior one for the sake
of the "boot" with which I wished to pay for my tuition. Soon as I
was able to travel, I started with my pony and my money for home.
Then I learned there was an excellent school taught in Carliste
{Carlisle}, by one Mr. McCabe, a graduate of Washington College, PA.
I went down to see what arrangements I could make if any, about
going a session to that institution. Brother John Rogers was then
married and living there. I told him my desire and my means. He took
the matter in hand and soon made arrangements with the brethren to
board one week about for one term. So I procured books, principally
of the Teacher, paid for my tuition in advance, and set in to
school. During the session I studied English Grammar, Logic,
Rhetoric, and Algebra, and commenced the Greek. When my time and
money were exhausted, I quit the school and the place, feeling under
many obligations to the brethren, especially Brother Rogers, and
also to my gentlemanly and accomplished teacher; and being
solicited to labor that season in Middle Tennessee, I started for
that field of labor. At a brother Carnohan's in Rutherford County I
met with the pious and intelligent and amicable brother Abner Hill,
and two young men just starting out to preach—Levi Nichols and
William D. Jourdan. They had made their debut with brother Hill.
Brother Jourdan was somewhat older than l. He had been a school
teacher, and was a very good English scholar. He was a man of fine
memory, quick perception, and ready utterance, somewhat pugnacious,
but not very hopeful, and was occasionally seized with fits of
hypercondria, he was, nevertheless, a companionable man, and zealous
for what he believed to be the truth.
Our circuit embraced
a part of Wilson, Rutherford, and Smith Counties, and what is now
Cannon. We did a great deal of preaching in that country during the
time we travelled on that circuit, and saw many turn to the Lord.
Brother Jourdan was a
great student of the Bible. We were mutual aids to each other, and
each stimulated the other to the study of the Scriptures. We read
the Bible to the exclusion of almost all other books. Hence we
became quite conversant with it, and loved it far more than all
other writings. We also memorized large portions of the Scriptures,
and knew where to find almost any passage that might be called for.
All around that
circuit, I was called "the proud preacher", and brother Jourdan was
known by the appellation of the "fighting preacher," on account of
his supposed love of controversy.
I spent a part of two
seasons traveling and preaching, having at different times for my
companion, besides brother Jourdan, P. E. Harris and W. D. Cains
{Carnes}. This was the time of his first setting out to preach.
Asbury Stone also traveled with me a few months, just beginning to
preach.
Beside our daily
preaching, galloping around the circuit, we attended many
camp-meetings during the two autumns we spent in middle Tennessee.
We preached a great deal in the open air. We were very zealous, and
frequently spoke at the top of our voice, and sometimes screaming at
such a rate as almost to split our throat. We substituted sound for
sense, indeed, figuratively speaking, we supposed that the power was
in the thunder instead of the lightning; hence we thundered more
than we lightened or enlightened, for, in truth, we had not much
light to emit.
We differed very
little in those days from the Sects in our views of spiritual
influence, getting religion, the evidence of remission, and kindred
subjects. Hence we practiced the mourners' bench or anxious-seat
system throughout. Our views on these and other subjects were dark
and confused, nor can it be expected that it could have been
otherwise, considering the gross darkness that covered the land. In
many things, however, we were, even then, greatly in advance of the
Sects.
The Old Christian
brethren, with Elder B. W. Stone in the lead, about the beginning of
the present century, introduced a great reformation. They started
right. They resolved to take the Bible and the Bible alone for their
creed, and resolved to follow wherever it lead them, giving all
human creeds and Confessions of Faith, to the mobs and bats. It is
not to be supposed they could reach the ultimatum of the teachings
of the Bible at a single bound. From the position they had assumed,
they were prepared, however, to abandon error when they discovered
it by the Scriptures to be such, and to embrace the volume. The
taking the holy scriptures for their only guide, was a grand
achievement, and could not but lead to important results. They thus
pledged themselves to believe all the Bible says, and to practice as
they discovered it whatever it commands; and, as a consequence, to
repudiate and abandon, as any part of their theory and practice, all
not taught in the Scriptures, either in express words or necessary
inference. Taking the word of God alone as their rule of faith and
practice, implied, as they understood it; required, either a plain
"Thus saith the Lord" or inspired example. Hence, whatever might be
taught and practiced by others not included in the above rule of
their faith and practice, they very properly rejected as making any
part of Christianity.
It is scarcely to be
presumed, however, that they should have avoided falling into some
errors; for, starting as they did, post-haste out of Bablyon, they
were in danger of running past Jerusalem. They, however, did better
than might have been expected.
Thrown, as I
Providentially was; on the borders of "our Zion," with no one to
direct my studies and investigations of the Word of God, and no
books to read, and ardently in search of truth, and surrounded by
opponents, and my teachings publicly and privately tracked; I was
driven to the necessity of searching the Scriptures de nova, for
myself, and of depending on my own resources.
I was naturally
skeptical, so far at least, as to take nothing upon trust—to accept
no proposition without what I conceived to be adequate evidence of
its truth. Hence, I was frequently led to question some of the
teachings of my own brethren as well as those of the Sects.
Consequently, I was often charged with bringing strange things to
the peoples' ears—with introducing new-fangled notions. I had made
the discovery that we were not under Moses, but under Christ—not
under the law, but under the dispensation of the Gospel. This
discovery led me to inquire into the difference between the two
economies, and to draw the contrast between the law and the
gospel—between the law of Moses and the law of liberty. I had
studied this subject for a long time, and had digested and arranged
my thoughts so as to mark distinctly the points of contrast between
the two. On Saturday morning, at a Camp meeting on Globe creek, I
delivered a long discourse on the points of difference between the
law of Moses and the gospel of Christ. A number of preachers were
present. They generally rejected the views presented. At the head of
the list of opposes {opposers} was brother Jourdan. After dinner, I
was invited into the preachers' tent and called to account for my
heresay {heresy?}. I defended my positions as well as I was able.
Some were very severe in their expressions of censure. A brother
Robert Randolph, a modest, sensible and good man had as yet said
nothing. He was asked his opinion of my sermon. He modestly
answered, that, he thought I had preached a great deal more truth
than error. On being further interrogated, he said he had never
heard the ideas advanced before, but that I had convinced him of the
truth of every thing I had advanced except one. He was requested to
state that one thing. He replied: "Brother Hall said he was, he
presumed, as anxious as any one to have the good opinion of his
brethren, and to avoid giving offense to any. “In this," said he, "I
think he is mistaken; for I believe he would preach what he believes
to be the truth even if he knew it would cause every friend he has
on earth to forsake him." This created a laugh, which closed the
discussion.
At the close of the
meeting, I parted with most of the preachers, Brother Jourdan
returned to his field of labor; and the next I heard of him, he was
preaching the abolition of the law of Moses.
After the Globe creek
meeting, I went further south to attend some camp meetings in North
Alabama: one in Gandies' cove, in Morgan County; another in Honey
Comb valley, and another at McNutty town in Madison County. As my
resources were about exhausted and my clothes well worn; and as I
had received but little if any remuneration for my labors; I taught
a three-months school in the winter, and occupied my leisure time
studying medicine.
An incident occurred
in Alabama, which I will here relate. I, at a meeting above
Miridianville, delivered a discourse on the design of baptism and
invited persons to confess the Lord. One young lady came forward,
and desired to be immersed forthwith. Her mother was dead. Her
father, had been a Baptist preacher, but had become an apostate and
a wicked man. As we were yet talking about the best place to immense
in a stream nearby, the old man came up to me, and shaking a large
hickory cane in my face, told me I must not baptize his daughter. I
inquired: "Why not?" He answered huffishly: “That is none of
your business; but"—shaking his cane again at me, his eyes looking
daggers—"you had better not attempt to baptize her''—and his large
frame shook with rage. Turning to the young lady, who sat weeping, I
asked her if she still desired to be baptized? She said she did.
"Then I will baptize you at all hazzards." I said, and, turning to
the audience, designated the place where we would administer the
rite. The old man, turning to his daughter, said: "If you are
baptized, you shall never enter my house again while you live." The
poor girl, looking up at me through her tears, said: "I want to be
baptized." An old brother Griffin, a man well to do in the world,
who stood near by, walked up to the agonized girl, and said: "My
daughter, you shall have a home at my house." We repaired to the
water, and I baptized her, the, old man offering no resistance. The
young lady got into mister Griffin's carriage, and went home with
her. A few days afterwards, her father sent for her to return home.
She sent him word she would not go then; but if he would bring a
horse and saddle the next Friday, and take her down to a meeting to
be held at McNuttytown, she would go home with him after the close
of the meeting.
Accordingly, on the
day designated the old gentleman rode up to brother Griffin's,
leading a horse with a lady's saddle. The young lady was soon in the
saddle, and she and her father were on their way to the meeting.
The next day I
preached and gave the usual invitation to penitent believers to
confess the Lord. The old gentleman who was sitting directly in
front of the stand, arose instantly and came forward weeping,
holding the same big cane in his hand. His daughter sprang to her
feet, and uttering an exclamation of joy, rushed forward, and threw
her arms around her father's neck and sunk down upon her knees by
his side! It was a touching scene to see the father and his
motherless daughter clasped in each other's arms weeping—the one
shedding tears of bitter grief and penitence; the other tears of
joy.
Had not the young
lady resolutely obeyed the Lord, brooking the bitter opposition of
her wicked father, both would doubtless have gone to perdition
together; but now, hand in hand, they were treading the pilgrims
pathway to the city and home of God. It is always right for one to
do his duty—to obey God. In such cases, all results well.
The religion of those
days consisted principally of feeling; and those who shouted the
loudest and made the greatest ado, were looked upon as the best
Christians. Hence our preaching, our prayers, and songs we adapted
to excite the emotions. We would clap and rub our hands, stamp with
our feet, slain down and tear up the Bible, speak as loud as
possible and scream at the top of our voice, to get up an
excitement. I often blistered my hands by clapping and rubbing them
together; and my feet were made sore by repeated stamping. My voice
was clear, and its tones silvery. I could sing for hours without
being tired or becoming hoarse. I was excitable, and dealt much in
the pathetic. I was considered good at exhortation. Death, the
judgment, heaven and hell, were my favorite themes. Here fancy had
ample room for play; and on such themes the feelings of the masses
could be reached. Knowing my forte, the brethren were want to have
me to bring up the rear on occasions when an excitement was desired.
I frequently spoke when, on account of the loud shouting of
christians, and the screams of sinners, I could scarcely hear my own
voice. Then was the time, after a short pause to call for mourners,
and it was seldom they failed to come. I have known them to come in
such numbers and crowd so closely around me as I stood before the
stand, in the midst of the audience, that, when we were about to
pray for them, I had not room to kneel down. Sometimes the
excitement would be so great—so many brethren all praying aloud at
once, and mourners screaming and begging for mercy, that no single
voice could be distinguished from the rest. I have spent whole
nights singing, praying and trying to instruct weeping,
broken-hearted sinners how to "get religion," and, now and then
rejoicing with one who had Just "got through".
At one camp-meeting
in Middle Tennessee in the fall of 1825, there were upwards of
fifty, who, during the meeting, came forward to be prayed for. I
was greatly interested in their behalf. I was up with them the whole
night. Some "professed religion" but many did not. The meeting
closed with the greater number of them uncomforted. A brother James
G. Green proposed that a song be sung, and the brethren and sisters
first, and then the mourners, such as were resolved to strive to
meet us in heaven, be invited to take leave of the preachers. We all
stood in a row before the stand, and a long line of saints gave us
the parting hand. Then came the mourners, weeping as if their hearts
would break, and reached us their hand. It was too much for me to
endure. I cried aloud, and wept like a child. My sympathies had
overcome me.
Going on from that
meeting to another, I began to reflect upon the scene I had
witnessed. I asked myself why it was those dear people did not
receive pardon? They appeared to be sincere and in good earnest.
They seemed to be deeply penitent. They wept and prayed and begged
for mercy. They mourned; and why were they not comforted? God is
certainly willing to pardon them, and to do it now. They earnestly
desire pardon: True, they have sinned. They know and confess this.
They are sorry they have sinned. And they have promised to the Lord,
if he will only forgive the past, they will strive to do better in
the future. Why, then, does not God in mercy forgive them? Maybe,
after all, I said mentally, our preaching may be at fault. Can it be
that the wrong is in us? I then thought of the Apostles, their
preaching, and the result. Some of sin-convinced, conscious-smitten
hearers went away from hearing them, uncomforted. Still, strange to
say, I could not perceive where the mistake was; wherein our
preaching and practice differed from that of the apostles—in what
consisted the difference.
A year before this,
one day after I had called up mourners and prayed that God would
pardon their sins, a brother, a private member of the church had
asked me for my authority for calling persons forward to the anxious
seat, and praying that God would then and there pardon their sins? I
answered: "The Bible is my authority for this practice." "What part
of the Bible?" he inquired, "The whole of it." I answered. "I would
like to see the plan," said he. I told him to read the Bible, and he
would find it, He answered, he had done so very carefully, and had
not been able to find any authority for the practice. "But," said
he, "I find authority for baptizing penitents for remission of sins;
but none for praying for their pardon before they are baptized,"
Much more was said on this subject by both of us—by him on the one
side, and by myself on the other. But what he said made but little
impression on my memory. Years elapsed; and I one day, in 1832, met
this same brother in Memphis, and he reminded me of the interview. I
was then fully committed to the teaching of baptism for remission of
sins.
During the fall of
1825 and the winter of '25,6, I was perplexed and troubled about our
preaching and the results; but for the life of me I could not find
out where the mistake lay, I became convinced there was a great
wrong somewhere, but could not find where it was, or wherein it
consisted. In this state of perplexity I started for Kentucky in the
spring of 1826. On my way I stopped at the house of a brother Gess
on Line creek, on the line between Tennessee and Kentucky. It was
late in the afternoon, and I was fatigued, having travelled hard all
day. Brother Gess took my horse and I walked into the house. Sister
Gess had gone to see a sick neighbor. No one was in the house when I
entered. Before taking my seat, I looked around for a book. My eye
caught sight of a little bookcase in one corner of the house. I rose
and walked up to it. My eye soon rested upon a book with "Debate on
Baptism," printed on the back. I found it to be the debate between
A. Campbell and William MaCalla. I had heard it was published, but
had never seen it till then. I knew I would not have time to read it
then, and began to turn over the leaves. Mr. Campbell's speech, in
which he introduced the "design of baptism," arrested my notice. I
began to read it with fixed attention. The interest deepened as I
proceeded. The light began to dawn, nay, it flashed upon my mind;
and ere I had concluded the argument, I was a full convert to the
teaching of baptism for remission of sins. I sprang to my feet in an
ecstacy and cried out, "Eureka! Eureka!" "I have found it; I have
found it:; And I had found it. I had found the key-stone in the
gospel arch, which had been set aside and ignored by the builders. I
had found the key-stone in the gospel arch, which had been set aside
and ignored by the builders. I had found the long-lost link in the
chain of gospel obedience. I was converted anew—thoroughly, and as I
believe, soundly converted. I was happy, transported with joy;
happier than when I was first converted, and my conversion was more
sudden, and more satisfactory. I saw now the evidence of remission,
which I had never seen before. When brother Gess came in, I took him
by the hand, and told him I was converted over, and explained to him
all about (it). Soon Sister Gess returned and I told her about my
conversion. I loved to tell it, I felt so happy; and I yet love to
tell it. Had I not found this grand truth, I should have died
unhappy; my sun would have gone down under, a cloud, a dire dark
cloud. I would have died disappointed in my faith, and hope, and
expectation of the power of the gospel of Christ. Now I can
understand it, see it, feel it all, and with confidence, preach it
as God's power to save all who believe it.
Next morning I
resumed my journey a new man, and happier than I had ever been
before. I now had a message to every body, the gospel-message—the
whole gospel. O how sweet, how precious it "the glorious gospel of
the blessed God!” It is sweeter than honey in the honeycomb. I prize
it above rubies. It is more precious than gold, yea, than fine gold.
Thanks be to God for his unspeakable gift!
Two days travel
brought me to a brother Luper's. I told him all about my new
discovery. In two days more I was at brother John Jones. His son, S.
E. Jones was then quite a young man and a member of the church. With
him I had a long conversation on baptism for remission of sins. He
rejected it at first, and told me I was frequently making
discoveries that no one else had ever heard of, and preaching
new-fangled notions calculated to disturb the minds of brethren, and
administered a prudent caution to me not to be carried away by
heresay, but finally, he agreed to give the subject an
investigation. The next time I heard of him, he was a preacher of
the ancient gospel.
A few days further
travel brought me to my brother Levi Hall's, some eight miles from
my father's. My brother had married a second wife during my absence.
I had never known her, but found her to be a noble woman. She was
brought up a Baptist of the strictest sort. She had often tried to
"get religion"; had been frequently at the "anxious seat," but could
never "get through." She was piously inclined, and desired to be a
Christian. She concluded to go with me to my father's. On the way I
preached to her the gospel. She received it, and requested me to
make an appointment at their house a few days thereafter, and
baptise her. I did so; and as she came up out of the water, she
clasped her hands together, and said; "Thank the Lord!" This pleased
me greatly. It was the first time I had immersed any one for
remission of sins, and I was delighted that she experienced such
joy. It increased my confidence in the truth.
It was now about a
year since I had been ordained at a Conference at Old Union, in
Fayette County, Kentucky by brother B, W. Stone and others, by
recommendation of the churches in Tennessee and Alabama. Brother T.
M. Allen of Missouri was ordained at the same time. The intervening
years I had spent preaching in Southern Kentucky, Middle Tennessee
and Northern Alabama, and baptized quite a number of persons. I had
also taken a young man of the name of Mansel W. Matthews to travel
with me. His venerable father gave him to me saying: "Take Mansel
and make a preacher of him, if you can; and if you cannot, send him
back home to me." He became a useful, popular and influential
preacher; but has removed about so much that he has "wasted his
fragrance on the desert air."
In the summer of 1826
I visited Georgetown, and conversed with father Stone resputing
baptism for remission of sins. He said it would not do; that he had
introduced it early in the present century, that it was like
throwing ice water on the people; that it froze all their warmth
out, and came well nigh driving vital religion out of the country,
and would have done it, if he had not resisted from preaching it. He
said he had preached it at different places and to different
congregations, and that the same results followed. Finally he
abandoned it altogether, I asked him why he had preached it at all?
He answered, because he found it in the Scriptures, he was an old
man, a father in the ministry, and the reputed founder of the
Christian Church. He was a preacher before I was born—many years
before, and was in his prime, and in the midst of his usefulness,
and in the midst of the great revival in 1803, the year I was born,
I could not find it in my heart to argue the question with him as
with an equal in years. I ventured to tell him, however, that if it
was in the Bible, as he admitted it was, it was certainly right to
preach it; and that I could not see how one could declare the "whole
counsel of God" without preaching it. Moreover, I stated that I
could not understand how preaching what was taught in Scripture
could destroy vital religion; and cautiously intimated that what
some considered "vital religion" might, after all, turn out to
enthusiasm, if not wild fanaticism, and not christianity at all; and
if this should happen to be the case, the sooner it died out the
better. Much more was said by both of us, but without any favorable
result. I gave him, however, to distinctly understand that I fully
believed it to be the truth, and that I was resolved to preach it;
and that, if any of the brethren rejected it, I would tell them
"brother Stone says it is taught in the Scriptures." This made him
laugh. He then pleasantly remarked I was so hardheaded that he could
not do anything with me, and he saw I was determined to have my own
way. He afterwards requested me in a serious tone not to broach that
idea in Georgetown. But I did not promise, for my soul was full of
it.
On the 4th day of
July brother Stone preached in Georgetown in the morning on Civil
and Religious Liberty; I preached at night on the Parable of the
Great Supper. I spoke with freedom and effect. Many were effected
and wept bitterly. Brother Stone told me to call for mourners. I did
so—for I had not, as yet, gotten fully out of that notion. Many came
forward, among whom, if memory is not at fault, was John A. Gano,
long known among the brethren as the Apollos of Kentucky. Brother
Stone took him under his tuition, and I saw him no more until I met
him as an eloquent, zealous and efficient preacher.
A few days after this
I went with brother Stone and others to a two-days meeting near the
Sulphur Well, some eight miles from Georgetown. Brother Stone and I
were to preach Lord's day morning. I had prepared a discourse on the
2nd Chapter of Acts, and informed brother Stone that I desired to
deliver it that morning in his hearing; and that if I did not preach
the truth, he could correct me in his discourse which was to follow.
He, however, pleaded with me not to preach the doctrine of baptism
for remission of sins; that, it would chill him and prevent his
preaching to any purpose. He said he would return home after dinner,
and that, if nothing else would do me, I could preach my "chilling
and religion-killing doctrine at night." Unwilling to offend him, I
yielded to his request. That night, however, some one else preached;
but during the discourse a tremendous rain began to fall, and
continued till after midnight. As the people could not leave, the
now venerable Samuel Rogers and myself occupied the time singing,
praying and speaking with those who appeared to be serious. That
night before the rain ceased several persons were persuaded to take
the Lord at his word, and to be baptized for remission of sins.
Early next morning we repaired to the water, where I took their
confessions, and buried them with the Lord in baptism. To the honor
of the head and heart of brother Samuel Rogers, I have to say, he
made no opposition to my preaching to the people that night the
doctrine of faith, repentance and baptism for remission of sins;
although he did then avow his belief of the teaching. But when I
next met him, he was a warm advocate of, the sentiment and was
earnestly teaching it.
Soon after this, I
started on a tour of preaching through Southern Kentucky, Tennessee
and Alabama. The first protracted meeting I attended was at Mill
Creek, in Monroe County, Kentucky in the neighborhood of brother
John Mulkey's. On Saturday night a brother DeWit preached.
Everything seemed dead and cold. While he was speaking, I requested
brother Mulkey to follow in exhortation in which he excelled, and
wake up the people. He said he could not do it; that he was not in
the right mood to succeed, and urged me to follow. I did so, and so
spoke that multitudes wept. I invited the serious forward to the
front seat, which was soon filled. I then designated another, which
was directly filled; then a third, and fourth. Some fifty persons in
all came forward. Some knelt down and began to pray; some wept and
sobbed aloud. At length they became composed somewhat, and I
proceeded to preach to them baptism for remission of sins. Having
concluded, I designated still another seat, directly before the
pulpit, and requested that all who felt willing to take Jesus at his
word, and to trust his promise for remission of sins, to take that
seat. Some four or five, I think, took that seat. I heard their
confession, and asked them when they wished to be baptized? One and
another answered, "Now." "Tonight?" I asked. "Yes," they said,
"tonight—just as soon as possible."
It was now near
mid-night, and it was some four hundred yards to the water, and
through a dense forest. Besides, there was no moon. But lamps and
torches were soon prepared, and the long procession, silent and
solemn, moved off down the long slope towards the water. The lights
gleamed and flashed among the trees. The measured tread of the large
procession was like the solemn march to the city of the dead.
Scarcely a word was spoken above a whisper, and only the occasional
melancholy host of the gloomy night-owl broke in upon the solemn
stillness of the scene. It was a grand occasion. At length the
gurgling stream was reached. The lights gleamed and flashed upon the
clear waters. A brief prayer was offered, and the penitents were
buried and raised again in baptism; and after receiving the
congratulations of their friends, the procession moved slowly up the
hill. A sweet, melodious song arose and swelled on which the wing of
devotion poised itself for heaven. It was a camp-meeting. The large
assembly was soon dispersed among the tents, and slept until the
trumpet-blast at early dawn arosed{aroused} them from their sweet
and quiet slumbers.
This was the first
time the ancient gospel had been preached in that section, and the
first time it had been heard by the venerable John Mulkey. He was a
good man, and an able and efficient preacher. The next time I met
him, he was preaching the gospel with marked success. He has long
since been called home. He has, however, several sons ably
advocating the same cause.
The next meeting that
I attended, as I now remember, was on Crow Creek, among the hills,
bordering on the line between Tennessee and Alabama. I delivered a
discourse on Romans 10:1-10, in which I presented the elements of
the gospel—its facts, commands and promises, and urged immediate
compliance with its provisions in order to remission of sins. I
invited persons forward to confess with their lips what in their
hearts they believed. Several came, and among them a venerable
gentleman with a good face and fine broad, high-retreating forehead.
He arose almost instantly the invitation was given. He supported
with a cane his tottering frame, bent under the weight of many
years, and stepped forward, and reached me his bony hand, the tears
coursing down his furrowed cheeks. At the conclusion of the song, he
asked if he might be permitted to say a few words. He was told to
speak on. He arose, and standing nearly halfbent, supported by his
cane spoke to the following effect: "Friends, I have asked
permission to say a few words. You see I am an old man. I am upwards
of seventy years of age. From my youth, I have been anxious to be a
Christian. I have always attended religious meetings, and listened
attentively to the preaching, anxious to learn what I must do to be
saved. When I heard of this meeting, my first impulse was to attend
it. But then I thought of my age and infirmity, and the distance,
about seventy miles, and I remembered that I had never heard
anything that I could understand that I must do to be saved, and it
was not likely I would be more fortunate, should I come to this
meeting, and I almost abandoned the idea of making the attempt. Then
again, I remembered my great age and declining life, and knew I
could not live much longer, and the thought of dying without
religion was horrible. These reflections armed me with resolution to
undertake the long and fatiguing journey, with the faint hope that
maybe, I shall hear something that will give me hope and comfort in
death. I devoutly thank God that I am here, and that I have been
permitted to hear the sermon today. It is the first time in life
that I have heard, so that I could understand, what I must do to
become a Christian. Young friends, if I had, when I was of your age,
heard the discourse to which you have just listened, I would have
then become a Christian." At this sad story of the poor old man many
wept, and no wonder, it was enough to move a heart of stone.
We heard the
confession of the weeping penitents, and instantly repaired to the
water but a few paces from the stand, when they were all immersed
into Christ Jesus. As the old gentleman emerged from the liquid
grave a smile played over his features, blending with his tears; he
clapped together his thin hands, and said, "Thanks be to God for the
assurance I now feel that my sins are forgiven! I have believed his
word, and, as I trust, have from the heart complied with his
prescribed conditions of pardon, and, confiding in his word of
promise, I rejoice to be assured of my acceptance with my adorable
Savior. I can now return home contented and happy, and occupy the
few remaining days I may yet live on earth in making ready for the
life to come. Friends, one and all, farewell. Our next meeting will
be at the judgment. May I hope to see you all in heaven?" At this
affecting talk of the old man many wept. It was the last day of the
meeting. The congregation soon dispersed. I assisted the old man on
his horse, and bade him a final adieu, and never heard of him
afterwards, but hope to meet him in heaven. O what meetings and
greetings, and joyful recognitions there will be in the spirit
world!
Our next meeting was
in the upper edge of Jackson County, Ala. in what was called the
Price neighborhood. Here again I preached the ancient gospel and
immersed for remission of sins some twenty-three persons, among them
a James C. Anderson and a brother Russell. They had both been
Methodists. Brother Anderson soon became a preacher; and for many
years labored through both Ala. and Tenn. He was an efficient
preacher, and won many souls to God. He was blind in one eye. He now
rests from his labors.
On the approach of
winter I retired from active field service, and resumed the study of
Medicine, and preached on Lord's days. We had in those days but few
meeting houses. When the weather would allow, we worshiped in groves
and under sheds. But, as such plans were not suitable for preaching
in the winter, we had to occupy private houses. No one now can have
any idea of the sacrifices which were made by the Netrian pioneers
of the present great religious movement; of the excessive labors
which they performed, and the difficulties with which they had to
contend. They had to meet bitter, wicked, malignant opposition at
every turn. The teaching was new, and the prejudice against it was
tremendous. The truth had but few adherants, and they were generally
of the poorer class, and without great personal influence. The
preachers too were poor, and received but little pecuniary aid. They
had, consequently, to resort to some secular pursuit in order to
make a living. They were a different class of men from the kid-glove
gentry, who frequent the well-furnished houses of rich brethren
flipping gold watch-keys, flourishing gold-headed rattans, pulling Havannas, dressed in fine broad cloth, reclining on velvet-cushioned
sofas, reading light literature, sprouting Greek; waiting for a loud
call to some, rich city church. Some of this class of men, who put
on such airs, were born and brought up in poverty. As apparently
humble and pious young men, they were sought out and found among the
hills, or pining in the shade of apulence; they were recommended to
the liberality of the brotherhood, by some of the old pioneer
preachers; were sent to school and colleges and educated at public
expense. They have advanced so rapidly and travelled so far from
their former condition and surroundings as to have lost sight of the
men who connected them and recommended them to the notice and
liberality of the brotherhood. Some, indeed, have lost sight of
their humble, pious mothers, and ignore their worthy sisters! Poor
servants these of the sick and lowly! Musical messengers to herald
his glad tidings to the poor! They are undeserving the name of
ministers of Christ! O tempora! O mores!
An incident was
related to me by the brother Rogers above mentioned, and of which he
was an eye and Car witness, being at the time a Methodist, and
present in the tent when it occurred.
A Methodist minister
of the name of Mr. XXXX had been sent among the Cherokee Indians who
lived at that time [1825] just across the Tennessee river from
Jackson County, Ala. for the purpose of distributing Bibles
and Testaments among them. Seeing an intelligent looking young wan
who could read English, he made him a present of a new Testament,
requesting him at the same time to read it and to do as it told him.
The Indian accepted the present and promised to comply with the
preacher's request. This was early in the spring of 1825. In the
autumn of the same year the Methodists held a camp meeting in
Jackson County, Ala. near Bellfront. The young Indian hearing of the
meeting, went over to it. On reaching the camp-ground, he inquired
for Col. U., the preacher above mentioned. He was informed that he
was in the Preacher's tent, which was pointed out to him, He was at
once admitted, and, recognizing the preacher, offered him his hand,
telling him at the same time he was the man to whom he had given the
New Testament; and he added: "I have done as you requested. I have
read the book, and have come to get you to go with me to the river."
"Why?" the preacher inquired, "Do you want me to go with you to the
river?" "I want you to baptise me," was the answer of the red man.
"I can baptise you without going to the river," responded the
preacher. "How?" the Indian asked. The preacher proceeded to tell
him; he "would take some water in a tumble and pour it on his head."
This information took the Indian all aback. He paused a moment in
evident perplexity and doubt, his eyes resting on the ground. Then
raising his head and fixing his keen dark eyes on the preacher, he
asked: "Is that baptism?" "Yes," responded the preacher, "that is
the way we baptize." The Indian stood a moment as if in deep
thought; then raising his head and fixing his eyes again on the
preacher, he said, "Col. it that is baptism, you gave me the wrong
book!" This terminated the interview. The disappointed Indian
instantly left the place, and returned to his home.
The above incident I
related to brother A. Campbell in Baltimore, in the winter of
1833-4, and it was published in the Millennial Harbinger sometime
afterwards. Many missions have been given of the case since, and the
circumstances variously represented. But the above is the correct
version of the affair as reported to me by brother Rogers, who
stated he was present and saw and heard it all. It had considerable
influence in calling his attention to the New Testament account of
baptism.
Early in the Spring
of 1826, I paid a short visit to Ky. and returned to Tenn. taking
with me my youngest brother, B. W. Hall, a youth of 18, when {whom}
I immersed that summer for remission of sins.
In Sept. of that
year, I attended a camp-meeting on Cypress, in Lauderdale County, Ala. On Sunday night the brethren put me on a
table under a large Arbour, in the middle of a large audience. I
discoursed on baptism for remission of sins. In the conclusion I
invited forward penitents to confess Christ preparatory to their
being immersed for remission of sins. Several presented themselves,
and among them was Gilbert {Tolbert} Fanning, then a youth. They
were immersed the next morning in Cypress Creek by Bro. James. E.
Matthews. I will remember the tall form, and the awkward, gangling
appearance of G. F. {T.F.} as he appeared at the water, with neithe |