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*The Autobiography of
B.F. Hall, M.D. and D.D.S.

It is no agreeable
task for one to undertake to write the history of his own life. I
nerve myself to the task, not from any feeling of vanity, or to transmit
my humble name to posterity, but, if possible, to do good after I am
dead; with the hope that my example may stimulate and incourage(sic) some
poor young man to break the shackles that fetter him, and rise above
his early surroundings.
I was born in
Nicholas County, Kentucky, the 15th day of June 1803. My father
was a Virginian by birth, and lost his father of Smallpox when he
was but a boy. His mother, being poor, and having but two
children—both sons—put the younger out to learn the tanning
business, and the elder, my father, to the shoe-making business. As
soon, however, as he was of mature age, not liking his trade, he
turned farmer. He first became an overseer for some gentleman in Fauquire
(sic) County. Being sober and economical, he acquired some
property, and purchased a farm and went to work on his own account.
My mother on her
mother's side was French, and descended from the Huguenots. Her
ancestors were among the few Protestants who escaped massacre on the
fatal night of St. Bartholomew, when so many thousands fell martyrs
to the persecuting hate of Romanists in France. I have set for hours
and heard my dear old grandmother tell of the scenes of that
dreadful night, and the manner of escape of her ancestors from the
massacre. Those recitals created in me a dislike to Romanists which
I have not wholly conquered to this day.
My father was a
Revolutionary soldier, and was in several battles. He was afterwards
with General Wayne against the Indians. When a boy I used to sit and
hear my father and his old fellow soldiers talk over those scenes of
war and bloodshed. From that Lime to the present I have not been
especially fond of the British or Indians. So much for early
impressions and prejudices.
My mother, whose name
was Martha Foster, was born in New Jersey but when quite small, her
parents removed to Virginia and settled in the neighborhood of my
father. Her parents were rigid Presbyterians of the blue-stocking
order. Hence she was brought up in that faith, but could never be a
Calvinist, My father's mother was a Baptist. My father, though a
strictly moral man, and lived to be almost 80 years old, never made
a profession of religion.
My mother, when quite
young, was converted under preaching of the Wallers, the Craigs and
Samuel Harris, the Baptist "Apostle;" and, against the wishes of all
her friends joined the Baptists. I have frequently heard her say she
was seven years "under conviction," and was all that time "seeking
religion," and anxiously inquiring what she must do to be saved. She
was a woman of good judgment, fine memory, large conscientiousness
and remarkable decision of character.
She had profound
reverence for the word of God, and could repeat whole chapters, in
both the Old and New Testament, by memory. She loved the Psalms of
David. She was a great admirer of Watts and Rippons' hymns, and
could repeat, perhaps, more than one hundred of them by memory. She
was possessed of a strong faith in the God of the Bible and
Providence. She could see God in everything. Altogether she was a
great and noble woman. Her influence had more to do in moulding my
character than all others together. I cherish her memory yet with
the fondest, tenderest emotions. Though dead, she still speaks to me
and many others. I thank the Lord for giving me such a mother. She
has gone to her high reward.
When "Continental
money" was yet, my father sold his real estate, consisting of two
farms in Virginia and such personal property as he could not take
with him, and with two loaded wagons started to Wheeling in company
with a Mr. Metcalf and family (the father of the late Governor
Thomas Metcalf) where they purchased two flat boats, and having
wythed them together, started down the Ohio river, destined for
Limestone (now Maysville) Kentucky. They frequently saw Indians on
the Ohio side but were not, at any time attacked by them. They
reached their destination in due time, and all well. Maysville then
consisted of a few log cabins. There was but one house then between
them and Lexington, which was at that time an insignificant little
town of log buildings. The whole country was covered with switch
cane. As Indians made frequent, raids into Kentucky, and no place
was considered free from their incursions, they did, for several
year, go into the interior', but lived in Lee's Station, a few miles
from Maysville. The people in the Station—and there was a number of
them—went to work and enclosed ground enough to raise sufficient
grain to bread all their families. Some worked, while others, guns
in their hands, kept a lookout for Indians.
A few years after
this, the lndians became less troublesome, and people left the
Station and began to open farms in the interior of Kentucky. My
Father purchased land on the North fork of Leiking{Licking}, where
he remained for a few years, when he sold out and purchased still
further in the interior, where Morefield now is in Nicholas County,
where he remained till his death about the year 1833.
My parents had some
four or five children when they came to Kentucky, but lived until
they had eleven, eight sons and three daughters, all married, save
one!, my youngest brother, Dr. B.W. Hall of Nashville, Tennessee.
Out of the eleven only four are now living, three brothers and one
sister.
The neighborhood in
which my father lived was almost entirely Presbyterian, and most of
the family became members of that church. My father's house was the
preacher's home—not only Presbyterian, but those of other
denominations. I attended that church generally, and their Sunday
School, where I learned the whole "Shorter Catechism," and memorized
many of the Psalms and numerous chapters in the New Testament, which
I can repeat my memory at this time. I have never forgotten them.
Youth is the period to store the mind with knowledge to be used in
riper years.
The rudiments
of my
education were acquired, first in
a log School house, and after in a frame building, some two miles
from father’s on the road, which was frequently muddy in winter.
Here I learned to read and write and “cypher” through Gutherie’s and
Pike’s Arithmetic.
After I became large
enough to work in the crop, I went to School only in the winter, and
worked the farm the rest of the year. I never had to be persuaded,
nor scolded to go to school; on the contrary, I often cried when I
was told I had to stay from school. I was often whipped for mischief
at school, but never because I did not learn my lessons. I was fond
of learning.
My parents were very
strict with their children; and frequently chastized us for
"breaking the Sabbath," so called. I continued to go to school in
winter and work on the farm in summer until I was not far from
seventeen years of age. Sometime before this I was encouraged by Gen. T. Fletcher, a friend of my father's, to study law, and had read
Blackstone, and a few other elementary works and studied them pretty
thoroughly for a boy of my age, and wits occasionally
examined by Gen. F., who encouraged me by saying I was learning rapidly. My reading law, however, was carefully
concealed from my father, who had quite a repugnance to the
profession.
When I was about
Seventeen years of age, an incident occurred, which changed the
whole tenor of my life.
My brother next older
than myself were {sic} quite volatile and fond of fun, even though
it should be at the expense, and to the injury of others. In the
spring, when the corn was fully up, we attended a muster in the
neighborhood. A good deal of whiskey was sold and drank on such
occasions. Towards evening it began to rain. We bought whiskey, pint
after pint, and induced quite a number of my father's neighbors,
heads of families and others, to drink. They agreed to drink as long
as we would buy and give them. They drank until several of them were
becoming drunk. One of them, a good liver, feeling quite rich just
then, invited the crowd to his house for supper. We all went; my
brother and I to see the fun; for we had drank none whatever. By the
time we got to the house, some were too drunk to eat, or to go home;
and they fell on the floor and rolled, and cursed and swore, and
some were very sick. Some would sing and pray and use profane
language, by turns. Thus the night wore away, and the morning was
drawing near, when my brother and I had to be at home to begin our
day's work. So we set out and reached home about day break. That day
my brother harrowed the young corn and I re-planted. How my
brother's mind had been employed through the day, I had no means of
knowing, but mine had been painful occupied with the scenes of the
past day and night. I thought how sinfully we had acted, and how
much sin we had been the occasion of others' committing. The
recollection of these stung the heart. I began to awake to a sense
of my sinful condition. The sins of my life rushed, thick and fast,
into my mind. I grew sick at heart, and tears, bitter, burning,
blinding tears, rolled down my cheeks. I felt that I was a sinner; a
great sinner; a hell-deserving sinner. The guilt of my many and
heignous{heinous} sins came careering up before my mind, and a sense
of guilt settled, with a leaden weight upon my heart. I was opprest;
my heart was crushed with grief. Then and there, in the field, I
resolved, for the first time in my life, to change my course, and to
seek the Lord, and never to give over {to} the struggle until I had
the evidence of pardon. I had been brought up to say my prayers; and
often had my dear old mother taken me with her into the closet, and
knealt{knelt} down with me by her side upon my knees, and, putting
her blessed hand upon my head, prayed for her poor, sinful boy.
Still, I had never prayed. My heart had never gone out after God. I
had never, until now, been burdened. oppressed, crushed beneath the
weight of conscious sins. I had never known before what repentance
meant. But now I felt it all, painfully poignantly. Every breath was
a prayer for mercy. But my lips moved not, except with quivering
emotions. For the first time in my life I resolved to seek a retired
spot to pray—to pour out my burdened soul before God.
The sun was almost
down. Our day's work was done. My brother started towards the house,
and I went of a secret place to pray. Back of the field, near a
hollow, in a briar thicket, I found a shot suited to my purpose.
After looking all around to be assured that no one saw me, I dropped
upon my knees, my head and hands upon a log, I made my first effort
to pray. I knealt{knelt} for some moments in silence, for words came
not to my lips. I could think of nothing to say. My pent-up grief
was intense. It seemed that my heart would break. Tears gushed
unbidden from my eyes. I sobbed aloud. A wail of agony welled up
from the deep fountain of my heart. Amid sobs and groans I
instinctively, and half unconsciously, ejaculated, "God, have mercy
on my poor soul!" but I could think of nothing else to say. My agony
of soul was too intense for utterance. I fell prostrate, my face
upon the ground, and wept, and sobbed, and groaned with agony of
soul. I had, somehow, imbibed the idea that God of stern
inflexibility, of rigid justice, but without mercy, and that Christ
was full of mercy and compassion. These ideas now rushed upon my
mind, and under their influence, I instantly turned my thoughts to
Jesus, and cried out, "0 thou compassionate Savior, have mercy upon
my poor sinful, miserable soul!" How long I wept and prayed, I know
not; but when I bethought myself it was night. I arose and started
for the house. On the way, I dried up my tears, and composed myself
as much as possible to prevent anyone from knowing my state of mind.
Supper was announced; I went to the table, but could not eat. My
countenance must have looked haggard, for my mother asked me if I
was sick: I told her I did not feel well; and, lest I should be
interrogated further, and something should be said that would reveal
the state of my mind, I left the table, and retired to my room. I
went to bed early; and though I had slept none for more than
twenty-four hours, I could not sleep. For a long time I wept, until
my pillow was wet with tears; finally, exhausted, I sunk into a
troubled sleep. I dreamed the day of judgment had come, I thought
one at a time was called into a church-house, that was in the
neighborhood, to give an account of his past conduct. All the people
of the neighborhood, I thought, were out of doors, and one by one,
they were called into the house. The aisle was in the middle of the
house, directly before the pulpit, which was at the further end of
the house from the door; and I thought that, as each one was judged,
he was assigned a place in the house, either on the right or
left-hand of the Judge, according as he was either acquitted or
condemned. The righteous were placed on the right, and the wicked on
the left hand of the Judge.
My mother's name
at length was called. She quietly arose and walked calmly and alone
into the house. My heart beat terribly, but I had no difficulty in
dividing in my own mind what her doom would be, and I as readily
decided what would be my fate—the very opposite of my mother's. I
waited in silence and in dreadful apprehensions, and with deep
emotion, to be summoned before the throne. I knew that justice would
be done me, for Jesus was the Judge; but justice was the very thing
that I feared. But I had not to wait long, for soon my name was
called, and I arose, trembling, and went in. As I entered the
door, looking to the right hand of the Judge, I saw my mother. I
caught her eye. She was weeping. I knew it was in anticipation of my
doom. Her lips quivered, as I had seen them quiver a thousand times
before when she was burdened with grief too deep for utterance. She
spoke not, but turned away her head and wept. I cast my eyes towards
Jesus as he sat upon his throne with the Bible open before him. He
cast one look upon me. It was full of tenderness, but I read in his
countenance my fearful doom. He gently called me to draw near before
him. I started down the isle, but before I had reached the spot his
eye had indicated for me to come, I awoke, and, to my infinite
relief, behold, it was a dream! It would, nevertheless, have been a
reality, as resputed my destiny, had I at that time been summoned
before the judgment seat of Christ.
The next day was
Saturday, and I had an appointment with a young man to visit, that
evening, some young ladies in the neighborhood. But now I did not
wish to make the visit. In my state of mind I could not engage in
frivolous conversation, and any other sort would not likely interest
them. Then, I did not wish to my condition of mind. I had resolved
to live a new life, and did not wish my attention to be diverted
from it. What was I to do; Would it be right to ignore my promise to
the young man? This, I thought, would not be honorable. Should I
meet him, he might insist on my filling my engagement, which I now
resolved not to do. After revaluing the subject, as I supposed,
fully in my mind, I determined to meet him at the time and place
agreed upon, and frankly tell him all, and ask him to release me
from the engagement. I went accordingly, and on the way I decided on
the manner in which I should broach the subject. We met. Our
greeting was, as usual, cordial. I soon summoned resolution to open
my case fully before him, and in conclusion, asked to release me
from the engagement. What was my delight and joy, when he not only
released me, but added, as I had resolved to set out for heaven, he
would become my companion on the journey.
There was no
religious excitement at this time in the neighborhood; indeed
religion seemed to be at low ebb. The next day the people who called
themselves Christians had a meeting in the neighborhood. I had a
sister, younger than myself, who, next to my mother, was the idol of
my heart. I asked her to accompany me to the meeting. She readily
consented. On the way I revealed to her the state of my mind, and
asked her to join me in seeking the Lord. She was a sweet girl and
religiously inclined. She wept, and promised to go with me to
heaven. We sat that day some distance apart, but so that I could see
her face, and I loved to look at her, for to me she was very
precious. During the sermon I noticed that she wept, and the
preacher too noticed it; and in the conclusion of the discourse he
invited persons forward to the anxious seat. I thought that, likely,
my sister would like to go forward, and I wished her to go. When the
congregation commenced singing, I went to my sister and asked her if
she wished to go up to be prayed for? She said she did, but could
not get through the crowd. I told her I would go with her. We both
arose from our seat, she took my arm, and I led her through the
press near to the minister where I sat down, and my sweet sister
knelt, resting her head upon my knee. The audience appeared to be
astonished, both at my sister and myself. We had taken them by
surprise, for no one, except the young man alluded to above, knew
anything of my feelings, and until then, he was ignorant of my
sister's purpose and feelings. My conduct was inexplicable. When
they saw me go to my sister, they supposed my purpose was to prevent
her going up to be prayed for, perhaps, to take her out of the
house—for all had seen her emotions; but I was stern, and had not
shed a tear. They had seen me looking at her. And when they saw me
lead her forward, weeping, and me unmoved, they were greatly
perplexed. They did not understand. My concern was not about myself,
but her. And when, after prayer, the minister commenced talking to
me, I told him to talk to my sister. After dismission, my sister
took my arm, and we started home. On the way I encouraged her all I
could, and exhorted her never to give over till she had found her
Savior. She promised to hold on faithfully, and try to meet me in
heaven. Shortly afterwards she joined the Baptist church with her
mother, and in relating her experience, dated her conviction from
my conversation to her. The young man, a few weeks afterward, joined
the Christian Church, and stated that the first concern he had felt
about his soul was occasioned by my speaking to him on the subject
of religion.
As yet, I had not
"got through." I continued to go to meetings, whenever opportunity
offered, day and night, far and near.
One afternoon Elder
John Rogers preached at a private house in the neighborhood. Many
were there, and I among the rest. At the close of his discourse, he
invited "mourners'' forward to be prayed for. I sat and wept, but
moved not. A lady seeing my agitation, pressed through the crowd,
and asked me if I did not wish to go forward? I answered, I did, but
could not get through the press. She told me to follow her, that she
would open the way for me. I went forward and, kneeling down, began
to beg for mercy. This was the first time I had ever asked God's
people to pray for me; but after that, I went forward at every
meeting when mourners were called for.
I neglected to state,
at the proper place, that, the day after I had resolved to change my
life, and after my dreadful dream of the judgment, my mother sought
an opportunity to speak with me privately; and, suspecting the real
cause of my want of appetite and haggard appearance, she asked what
was the matter with me; and in a way that none but a mother, a
Christian mother, can do, desired me to be candid with her. I told
her all, and found relief in the disclosure. During the recital,
tears came in to her eyes; when I had concluded my brief but sad
story, tears gushed from her eyes. She wept aloud, and threw hear
blessed arms about my neck, and I threw my arms around her neck,
and, clasped in each other's embraces, we wept. My mother wept from
joy, and I wept from mingled emotions of joy and grief. For a long
Lime we thus stood, our hearts beating and our tears mingling
together. It was a scene wholly new to me. It was the beginning of
joy and happiness.
Time wore on, still
no relief came to my troubled mind, my burdened heart. True, my
mental agony was gradually becoming less intense; but this increased
my grief, for I was beginning to fear my convictions were leaving
me, and this caused me great sorrow. Still, I resolved never to give
up the struggle. I prayed regularly night and morning, and as often
through the day as I could find a secret place in which to beg God
for mercy. Away in the night I would retire to a grove not very
distant from the house, and pray for mercy, and beg the Lord to show
me some token of my acceptance with him. I would close my eyes and
desire to a light like that which Paul saw, or to hear a voice, like
to that which he heard, I wanted to hear him tell me in an audible
voice that my sins were forgiven. I had frequently heard professors
speak of having had such manifestations, and of hearing God thus
speak peace to their souls. I had been always taught that this was
the evidence which God afforded a person of the remission of his
sins. And what less could I reasonably expect! I waited long for
such a manifestation, and anxiously expected it whenever God saw
proper to forgive my sins.
This was the
condition of my mind when, one day a preacher came by to get me to
go to meeting with him. Soon alter we started, he asked me how I was
getting on seeking religion, and whether I had yet found the Lord in
the remission of my sins? I replied that I was getting on badly;
that, instead of having heard the voice of the Lord telling me my
sins were forgiven, I feared I was losing my convictions; that the
burden of my sins was not then as oppressive as it had been, which
caused me great alarm. At this the preacher smiled. I thought it
cruel of him to smile at my grief, occasioned too, by the fear that
I was growing worse instead of better. He saw I was hurt, and
observed I was mistaken. I replied that I feared I was not mistaken.
He proposed to ask me some questions, to which I assented. He
proceeded to ask me if I loved the Lord? The question brought me to
reflection; to earnest thinking; and I inquired mentally, what is
God? what are His attributes, his character? Do I know what he is?
If not, how can I be assured that I love him? I knew I loved
something which I supposed to be God. But then, I might be deceived;
that might not be the true God, but a creation of my own fancy.
Hence I answered: "If I know what God really is, I love him; but I
may be mistaken in his character. Still I love what I suppose to be
God," "I will ask you another question, one that I know you can
answer. Do you love the people of God?" "Yes, I answered, "I
do; and I love them because they are his people, and because I
suppose they love God." "Then," said he, "you are a Christian; your
sins are pardoned, for the Scripture says, 'we know we have passed
from death unto life because we love the brethren.' " "No." I
responded; my sins are not pardoned. God has not spoken peace to my
soul; he has never told me my sins are pardoned." "Benjamin," said
the preacher, "God does not now speak to us audibly, by a voice from
heaven, as he used to speak to the people before the cannon of
scripture was completed. The written word is to us the same as the
spoken word was to the people then." This was a new idea to me, and
contrary to what I had been always taught; and I told him I had
heard many persons say they had heard God speak to them audibly from
heaven," "That is all imagination," said the preacher. "The
preachers must believe the people do have such new revelations now;
and that God does tell them by a voice directly from heaven, that
their sins are forgiven; because they receive them into the Church
on the relation of such experiences." What he said to this, I do not
now remember; but I recalled that he said, among other things that
the word of God is our only source of information now, and that God
there addresses us as characters; that he then describes the
character of those on whom he will have mercy, those whose sins he
will pardon, and that when we are assured of being that character,
we are authorized to believe that our sins are pardoned. "I am
satisfied," said he, "from what I know of you, and from what you
have told me that your sins are pardoned, and that you are a
Christian, and that you ought to join the Church and be baptized
this very day." I told him I did not believe my sins were pardoned,
and that I intended never to join the Church until I had assurance
that my sins were remitted.
We had now reached
the place of meeting; and just as I was taking my seat in the
congregation, and before my companion had entered the pulpit, an
elderly minister arose to preach. In the progress of his discourse
he detailed the travels of a soul from sin to holiness. He described
my experience from the beginning to the point which I had reached,
and further. Had I not known that the preacher who went with me had
not had an opportunity to say a word to him, and that no other human
had heard me detail my religious exercises; I would have supposed
the venerable speaker was speaking of me personally, and of my
soul-travels. Several were that day immersed; and I stood on the
bank alone, observing with deep interest the solemn scene, my eyes
suffused with tears. Just as the last one emerged from the stream, I
felt a hand laid gently on my shoulder; as I turned to look, my eyes
met the tender gaze of a deacon of the church, who asked me
affectionately if I did not desire to follow the humble and pious
example of those dear young persons who had been just buried with
the Lord in baptism? I answered, "I wish I was worthy to do so," and
burst into tears. He said soothingly: "Do not be discouraged. I
trust the day is not distant when I shall have the happiness of
seeing you buried in the liquid grave and rise to walk a new life in
Christ Jesus. God bless you, and give you consolation and good hope
through grace! I wish you to go home with me," he added. I told him
I was compelled to go home that evening, and obtain leave of my
parents to return to the meeting on the morrow. "Then," said he, go
home with me tomorrow to dinner." I promised him I would ask my
parents' consent to do so.
I attended the
meeting next day, and went home with the deacon. After dinner he
asked me to take a walk with him. We went some distance from the
house talking about Jesus and religion. That was the only theme in
which I took any delight. After we had gone out of sight and hearing
of the house, he proposed, if I had no objection, he would join in
prayer. I gladly acceded to his proposition. We knelt, and he led in
prayer. I have often thought it was one of the most earnest,
heart-felt, importunate prayers I had ever heard. He plead
beseechingly in my behalf.
After a long
conversation with me, he expressed himself satisfied of my
acceptance with God, and requested that I would join the Church that
night. I did not promise him that I would do so, but told if, in the
course of the meeting, I became satisfied with my state of mind, I
would.
Before the meeting
some of the ministers conversed with me and expressed themselves
fully satisfied with my experience, and urged me to unite with the
Church at once, assuring me I had experienced all that they
themselves had, or any others known to them. I was still undecided,
and so told them. Elder John Rogers preached that night, and "opened
the door of the church" for the reception of members. I concluded to
go forward, and did, to the joy of many hearts. I was asked to
relate my experiences. Many of the members had heard it before—had
heard it all—in its details. They so stated to the church. They,
therefore, requested me to relate the substance. I did so in about
the following language: "Reflecting upon my past life, I became
convinced I was a great sinner. I endeavored to give myself to the
Lord, and trust I have found him to be my Savior." With this
experience the Church was satisfied, and gave me the right hand of
fellowship accordingly.
As the meeting closed
that night and I had to be at home at work on the farm, my
baptism—which was not deemed of much importance anyway—was postponed
till the next meeting, to be held a few weeks hence at a stand near
old brother Nesbit's about a mile below Carlisle. To that meeting I
went, and was immersed by brother William Morrow, in a small stream
that heads a short distance above the town. The place where I was
buried in baptism is now dry land.
I was now just 17
years old. I had set out for heaven, determined, by God's help to be
faithful till death. I had many outward difficulties to encounter.
My neighbors generally and my relations all were opposed to my
joining the Christian church all except my mother. She would have
preferred that I had joined the Baptists to be with her and my young
sister. But she was so rejoiced to think I was a christian that she
was reconciled. My other relations were Presbyterians. They could
hardly endure the Baptists; but the "New Lights," as they called
them--they could not tolerate.
The day that I joined
the Christian Church my father went to Carlisle to hear Walter
Warder, a Baptist, preach. He told him of my mental state, and asked
him to come to see me. Next morning brother Warder was there to
breakfast. No one present, not even my mother, knew at the time that
I had joined the Christian Church the night previous. At the table
brother W. requested me to relate my experience. I did so. When I
had concluded brother W. said he was satisfied with my experience
and believed I had found peace with God; and asked my mother how she
felt about it. I looked and saw that my mother was weeping. As well
as I remember she answered brother W. question in about in these
words: "It appears all well enough except one thing. I cannot
understand how Benjamin got through so soon. He was only about four
weeks under conviction; and it was seven years before I obtained
comfort, and I was all the while earnestly seeking the Lord."
Brother Waller told her we had more light now than was enjoyed then;
and referred to some cases in Arts, where some found comfort, and
were baptized the same day. My mother interposed no further
objection. Brother Waller then turned and asked me when it would
suit me to be baptized? This led me to inform him that I had united
with the Christian Church. He said no more, arose from the table,
and soon took his leave.
Besides the
difficulties without, I had now to contend those against within. I
was naturally volatile, fond of mirth and amusements, and had a
passion for dancing. Although I was 14 years old before I was ever
at a dancing party or ball, I soon became fond of the amusement. The
first time I ever danced, I was solicited to do so by a young lady.
I told her I did not know how to dance; did not understand anything
about it. She generously (?) offered to become my teacher. I told
her they would all laugh at my awkwardness. She promised, and got
the company to promise they would not. At length I consented. The
set was made up, and she was to be my partner. We walked out upon
the floor. The fiddle was tuned, and the bow drawn a time or two
over the strings. The music struck up, and our feet and limbs and
all began to keep time with the instrument. I soon made a bobble;
directly I lost my place; and before we were through I made half a
dozen blunders. Some turned away their heads to prevent my seeing
them laugh; my partner crammed her handkerchief into her mouth. All
were amused except myself. The ice was now broken, and I determined
to succeed--to excell those of my own sex who had amused themselves
at my expense, and I accomplished my object. Then I would dance to
show how much I could beat them.
I had been in the
habit of using profane language. This I overcame at once. I was also
fond of plays at weddings and parties. To avoid being drawn into
these, I went to no gatherings where I supposed they would be
indulged in. In order to avoid being drawn into any improprieties, I
carefully avoided all had company. Even at religious meetings,
instead of associating with the gay and frivolous, I associated with
the venerable and pious members of the Church; and would generally
engage in singing, or ask questions by which I could gain some
useful information. This course I continued to pursue until I lost
all-relish for loud laughing, frivolity and amusements. In matters
of doubtful propriety, I consulted the old and pious members of the
church, and was governed by their judgment.
Some twelve months
after I had joined the Church I imagined I was called to preach. I
loved sinners and felt an ardent desire for their salvation. As far
as I was able at the time to do so, I counted the cost, and felt
prepared to make the sacrifice, to perform the toil and to endure
the consequences. The idea of becoming a minister of the gospel
presented an array of new difficulties, greater and more numerous
than I had as yet been called to encounter. First of all, I had an
impediment in my speech, and stammered badly, especially when
agitated or embarrassed. I had read of Demosthenes and learned how
he overcame the impediment in his speech. What the Athenian Orator
had accomplished for worldly advantage and renown, I felt could be
accomplished for the good of souls and the glory of God. I
was, at least willing to make the effort, persuaded that, I could
ultimately succeed. Then again, my constitution was frail, and many
thought predisposed to pulmonary consumption. This I determined to
invigorate by physical discipline, proper exercise and diet. My
voice was weak and without volume. This I determined to remedy, and
did, by proper instruction and culture.
But I was without
sufficient education—did not even understand the Grammar of my own
language. Then, again, I was poor. But I was young and could learn,
provided another great difficulty was removed. My father's will was
law in our family. Could his consent be obtained for me to prepare
for ministry in a church with which he had no sympathy? This was to
be tested, and I resolved to make the trial. But how was it to be
done? In one way only; that was through my mother. Suppose he should
consent, what then? How was I to proceed to acquire an education? A
thought struck me. I had a brother-in-law, the husband of my eldest
sister, with no children, and he a Yankey and an elder in the
Presbyterian Church and in good circumstances, and loved education.
Maybe he will assist me. Then I had a brother who taught me my
letters, and loved education. Both lived in Flemingsburgh, some 16
miles away. My brother might be able to render me some aid. I
revolved I would write to them and ascertain what they would do for
me, if anything. I wrote. Both answered promptly. My brother would
board me, and my brother-in-law would furnish me with books and pay
my tuition at a Latin school, taught in Flemingsburgh by Mr. Peter
Acres, then a lawyer, and afterwards a Methodist minister. So far,
all right. The next thing was to gain my father's consent to let me
go. I opened the case to my mother. Told her of my desire to preach,
and committed to her good sense and management the affair with my
Father. She agreed to undertake the mission, but with little hope of
succeeding. But she would try. She tried, and failed. I urged
her to try again, and to tell him I did not ask him to pay my
tuition or board. She made the second effort, and used her own sweet
eloquence to induce him to consent. But he was inexorable. He could
not spare me; he needed my labor on the farm. The case seemed
settled; and one less determined than myself would have given it up
as hopeless. But I was not discouraged; I resolved to make another
effort--through my mother. Wearied, out of patience, exasperated at
our importunity, and evidently to put a full end to our intreaties
and any further annoyance to him, he told my mother to say to me
there was one condition, and one only, on which he would consent to
give me up, and that was, that, henceforth and forever, I should not
have a dollar of his money, nor any of his property, nor any
assistance from him in any manner whatever. The question was
settled, for he was a man of strong will and fixedness of purpose.
From this decision he could not he moved, and my mother knew it.
Neither she nor my father had any idea that I would accept his
conditions and leave. What could I do? I was young, and poor,
uneducated, in rather feeble health, and, more than all, friendless.
Neither as yet knew the propositions made me by my brother-in-law
and brother. My mother came into the room weeping, and told me my
father's decision, and begged me to give up the matter, at least for
the present, and wait the openings of Providence. I then told her,
smiling, that Providence had already opened the way before me, and
that I should walk in it. I told her all, and we rejoiced together.
I hastened to my father and accepted his terms, asking him only to
let me have a horse to ride to Flemingsburgh. He was astounded at my
acceptance of his terms, and asked me how I expected to obtain an
education? I told him I would try to do my duty and trust in God for
aid. After a short pause, he told me I should have a horse to ride
to Flemingsburgh.
Some time prior to
this my brother who was with me at the muster, had made a profession
of religion and united with the Christian Church. And he and myself,
by our father's consent, hold worship in the family.
There was not,
perhaps, in all Kentucky, a more harmonious united and happy family
than ours. We all loved and were beloved by each other. We were
noted for our love of books and music, and were generally good
singers. We would spend our winter evenings singing. Mother would
sit in one corner knitting, and father in the other listening to the
singing of their children, and they would occasionally join in a
song with us. But the household is broken; and nearly all have gone
to the spirit world. But few of us are on this side of the Jordan,
and we shall soon pass over to join those who are gone before, we
trust not again to be severed.
Having obtained my
father's consent to leave him, my mother and sister set about
fixing; up my clothes ready for me to go.
In a few days I was
pleasantly situated as an inmate of my brother's family. My
brother-in-law, having procured for me books, as directed by my
future teacher, took me down to the school-room, and introduced me
to Mr. Acres, who, at once put me to memorizing the Latin Grammar.
In due time I recited my first lesson; and the older pupils were no
little amused at my pronunciation of the words Nominative,
Genative,{Genitive} Dative, Accusative, etc. My teacher bit his lips
to avoid laughing outright. My queer pronunciation had quite upset
his gravity. After looking for a moment disapprovingly at his other
pupils for laughing at my awkwardness and uncouth pronunciation, he
composed himself somewhat, and observed: "We are accustomed here to
pronounce these words thus"; and proceeded through the list of cases
to pronounce each one correctly and distinctly. I was no little
mortified at first, but soon recovered from my embarrassment. That
one correction was sufficient; I never made the same blunder again.
I was progressing
finely in my studies, overtaking class after class that had been in
advance of me until some time in the next year some time before the
Presbytery was to meet in Flemingsburg. My brother, who was not a
professor of any religion, hinted to me one day that it might be to
any advantage to join the Presbyterians, intimating that it might
contribute to my obtaining an education. But as I did not entertain
the proposition for a single instant, but rather gave him to
understand distinctly that I could not conscientiously do so; he
dropped the subject, and never said any thing more to me about it. A
few days afterwards, however, my mother's brother, Uncle N. P.
Foster, an elder in the Presbyterian church, broached the subject to
me, and labored hard and long to convince me that it would greatly
promote my interests, and was, therefore my duty to join the
Presbyterian Church and also the Presbytery when it should meet
there. I chose, however, to be governed by principle and let
interest take care of itself. The time came for the Presbytery to
meet. My brother-in-law authorized my sister, as she informed me, to
say to me, if I would join the Presbytery, and become a candidate
for the ministry, he would send me to Princeton College, N.J. and
pay all my expenses there until I graduated in both the Literary and
Theological Departments. I was anxious for an education, not,
however, to preach Presbyterianism, which I did not believe, but to
preach what I understood at that time to be the Gospel. I could not
sacrifice principle to policy. Nor could I do such violence to my
conscience for worldly honor and renown.
Men of policy rather
than principle suggested to we that I might acquire the education,
and then leave the Presbyterian Church. But to this course I had
serious objections—insurmountable difficulties. 1. I could
not do it, I told them and he an honest man. None but an arrant
hypocrite could be guilty of such duplicity. I could not do it and
be an honest man; of course, I could not be a Christian. 2. I could
not do it and be a truthful man. None but a base, unscrupulous liar
could pretend to what he was not. I would have to avow my belief in
the doctrines of Con. of Faith, and at the same time not believe
them. 3. It would have been wrong to deceive my brother-in-law, and
obtain his money under false pretences. These were a few of the many
reasons I gave for not acting so basely. I resolved I would not do
it if I never acquired an education. When I made profession of
religion, I promised, among other things, to be an honest,
honorable, and truthful man. Besides, I knew that the way to avoid
doing wrong was to keep out of temptation. Had I joined the
Presbyterians, where would I have been today? Not a preacher of the
gospel, certainly. I would rather be right, however obscure, than to
be the Pope of Rome. I would rather be the humblest member of the
Church of Christ than to occupy the loftiest position on earth in
any other society.
When my
brother-in-law learned from my sister that there was no hope of my
becoming a Presbyterian, he directed her to inform me—I use the very
words she told me he employed—that he could not place a club in my
hands for me to beat his brains out. That is, he would not
educate me to oppose Presbyterianism. This was certainly taking a
practical or business-like view of the matter. His original
agreement, however, with my brother was that he would furnish me
books and pay my tuition; and this was not to be done on condition
that I would join the Presbyterians. This was an after-thought, or,
at least, an after-suggestion.
Being, perhaps,
somewhat sensitive anyhow, especially in my destitute and dependent
situation, I began to feel that my condition was an unpleasant one.
What should I do? My tuition for the full session had been paid; so
that my continuing at school the whole term could make no pecuniary
difference with him. Should I continue? While revolving this
question in my mind—while I had it under consideration—other
circumstances occurred which made it necessary to come to an
immediate decision; among which I mention the following:
My clothes furnished
by my dear old mother, were becoming thread-bear; I had no money.
What was I to do? To remain at school appeared next to impossible.
But what should I do? What could I do, if I left? Where could I go?
I could not return to my father's. I was not qualified to teach
school even. I was without a home, without money, and without
friends;
I had set out under
the impression that I was called to preach; but it was my duty to
qualify myself for the work. God does nothing for man that man can
do for himself. Like the Israelites at the Red Sea, I had gone as
far as the way seemed opened before me. What could I do more but to
wait and watch the indications of providence, As I said to my
father, I meant to trust God; and, like Job, I intended still to
trust him; though he should slay me. I thought of Abraham whose
trust in God's promise led him to forsake his father's house, and
his native land; and God provided for him. Every man's faith needs
to be tested, and now was the time to try mine. It was a severe
trial for one of my age and experience. My way seemed to be hedged
up. All around was dark and gloomy. All I could do was to wait and
watch.
My relations all,
save my mother, were opposed to my course. They were not willing for
me to be a preacher. They did not think I could succeed, and they
were, moreover, hostile to my sentiments. Hence, those who were
able, would render me no assistance. Even my mother expressed
doubts, whether I would ever make a preacher. Still she would have
assisted me, but that my father had forbidden her to do so. My
brethren gave me no encouragement and afforded me no assistance.
They did not support the aged, talented and useful ministers. Of
course they would not assist me.
In this condition of
affairs, I waited, and prayed, and watched the indications of
Providence. About this time a Christian preacher of the name of
Harrison Osburn, a young and popular minister, sent an appointment
to preach in the court-house in Flemingsburg. I went to the meeting
and introduced myself to him. He seemed glad to make my
acquaintance, and invited me to call at his stopping place the next
morning. I did so. He had heard of me, and something of my trials.
He told me if I was called to preach, I ought to be at the work. He
advised me to quit school and travel with him around his circuit
through Fleming, Lewis, Mason and Bracken Counties. I told him I had
no horse. He proposed to procure one for me, if I would go with him.
I agreed to do so. He borrowed a horse for me to ride of a brother
Richard Hart of Fleming County. I borrowed an outfit of my brother,
and we set out. Brother Osburn's first appointment was in the
country, some 8 or 10 miles from Flemingsburg.
I had been for some
time in the habit of praying in public, indeed, almost from the time
I joined the church. I was considered a good singer, and delighted
in music, and was frequently called on to lead the singing in the
congregation. I was familiar with most of the airs sung in those
days, and knew most of the hymns by memory, and could learn a tune
or hymn by hearing it sung a few times. After singing a few songs,
brother O. requested me to open meeting with prayer. I did so. He
then asked me to speak to the people. This I had never attempted to
do, and asked him to excuse me at that time, promising that I would
do so at the next appointment. I wanted time for reflection and to
prepare some thing to say; but he would not let me off, telling me
as I had to make a beginning. I might as well do it then as any
other time. I accordingly made to effort, and a poor effort it was!
In less than five minutes my resources were exhausted. I could think
of nothing to say. I became embarrassed I stammered. The young
people smiled and tittered. This increased my confusion, and caused
me to stutter worse than ever. In this state of confusion, I sat
down, deeply mortified, but not discouraged. Brother O. arose and,
as I thought, delivered a fine discourse.
After dinner we
started on to his next appointment. We were scarcely in our saddles
when brother O. said he was anxious to hear me speak that he might
decide whether I was called to preach. He said he was convinced I
had mistaken my calling; that he did not believe I would ever
succeed as a preacher; that my stammering would always prevent my
being a public speaker of any kind; and that he did not think I
could ever make myself useful as a minister; and advised me to
return home and rescind the bargain I had made with my father, and
ask him to take me back as a farmboy; that he thought I could
succeed better as a farmer than at any thing else; and much more he
said to the same effect—all calculated to discourage and drive from
the field almost any other young man. But it did not have this
effect upon me. I related to him my first and several succeeding
efforts in the ballroom, and of the final result. This made him
laugh outright. He said there was quite a difference between one's
heels and his head; that it did not require much sense to learn how
to dance; that some of the most expert dancers he ever knew did not
have sense enough to fit a dress, to cut a coat—(he had himself been
a tailor) or scarcely (sense) to knit a pair of stockings; but that
it required brains to make a preacher! All this I admitted might be
true, but it did not follow that I would not make a preacher. I told
him he might drive me away from him, if he did not wish me to go,
but that He could not keep me from trying to preach. I informed him
that I had not yet had a fair trial, and that it would be shameful,
if nothing worse, to give up such a cause upon such an experiment;
and that I never intended to abandon the work, involving
consequences so momentous, without a fair trial. Seeing I was
resolute and determined, and that I was not to be moved by his
judgment, formed prematurely, he advised me to continue with him
around the circuit. Before the month was out, he changed his opinion
somewhat, revised his decision and reversed his former judgment.
It was my practice to
pray morning and evening in secret. I would retire early in the
morning to some secret place to pray, and would then read my Bible
till about breakfast time. My clothes were now threadbear and thin.
I was near Minerva in Bracken County, Kentucky. I had on cotton
pantaloons, the last gift of my mother. At early dawn I went out to
pray. When I knelt down, my pantaloons split open on the knee. I had
no others. What was I to do? I had an appointment to preach that
day. I must meet it. I returned to the house, and too diffident to
ask any one to mend the rent, I got a needle and thread and sewed it
up, and went on to my meeting.
The coming winter I
spent in Fleming and Mason Counties, speaking on Lord's days and
reading through the week. Early in the spring I made a visit to
Servise County, {Ohio} and spoke at Canbincreek. A brother then took
me to one side and after looking all around to satisfy himself that
no one saw him, while bidding me farewell, slipped 25 cents into in
hand. This he did that the scripture might he fulfilled. ''Let not
your left hand know what your right hand doeth." Until then I did
not have one cent of money. I was enabled to pay my ferriage across
the Ohio river; and I was anxious to get over to attend a meeting in
Highland County, Ohio.
On walking out into
the woods one day some distance from the meeting place, I noticed a
great many tracks of barefeet. For some, time I could not understand
this, as all, as far as I could see, had on shoes at the meeting.
But one day I happened to see some ladies, going from the meeting,
some distance from the place, pulling off their shoes and stockings.
The mystery was explained. They would walk from home barefooted,
carrying their shoes and stockings in their hands until they got
near the meeting place, then they would put them on; and take them
off at the same place returning from the meeting.
From Highland, I went
to Minerva, Kentucky. I gave the ferryman my hymn book to cross me
over the river. At Minerva I met brother John Rogers on his way to a
meeting in Ohio. He requested me to accompany him. I told him I had
no money to pay my ferriage. He proposed to pay it for me. The first
night we stayed with Matthew Gardner, publisher of a hymnbook. On
brother R's telling him I had none, and why; he, in the exuberance
of his charity, proposed to make me a present of one on condition
that I would sell a dozen copies for him without charge. The bargain
was soon struck. He gave me the book; I took a dozen which I sold,
and on my {way} back, paid him the money.
Travelling on one day
through Ohio, I fell behind brother Rogers, and became absorbed in
meditation. I thought of my trials; the difficulties I lead to
contend with; my discouragements; the fact that not a brother had
ever spoken to me a word of encouragement or comfort; my utter
destitution of resources; the rusty and ragged condition of my
clothes; the fact that, though worse dressed than any preacher, many
called me proud—said I was too proud for a preacher. Providence, it
seemed, had hedged up my way. What was to become of me? What could I
do? For the first time in my life, I almost despaired of ever making
a preacher. In this state of mind, I rode up to the side of brother
Rogers and told him I was fearful I would not succeed; and
enumerated my difficulties. By way of comfort(?) he replied that he
did not think I would ever make much of a preacher, but that, as
brother K once told a desponding brother, some one must be the
poorest preacher, and I might as well be that one as any body else.
This waked me up, nerved me, touched my pride, excited my ambition,
gave me resolution to suffer any thing, to endure every thing for
the time being, to brave everything. I felt as I had never felt
before; I was aroused as I had never before been aroused to dare and
do. I straightened myself in my saddle. I erected my head; I lifted
up my right hand, and said: Brother Rogers, from this moment I
resolve to make a preacher, or to die trying!" The Rubicon was
passed. The great struggle was over: the clouds dispersed. Hope took
wing. I determined to succeed. And having formed the resolution,
"Richard was himself again." From that day to this, I have never
been discouraged. Opposition gives me resolution. My motto is: "Hope on; hope ever." Don't give up the ship. My opinion is, with my
example before me, that a man can accomplish almost any thing he
determines to do; and a young man, without an education, without a
dollar, and without friend, but with ordinary capacity and a
tolerable constitution, can make of himself almost any thing that he
resolves to be, by energy and perseverance. And one such who has not
the nerve to undertake it of himself, deserves no assistance, and
would be of no account, if assisted. I like to see one resolve to be
a man.
While in Ohio, I
would retire to the woods to pray and preach to the trees and
brushes. My auditors kept very quiet; they were not restless; they
did not grow weary of hearing me; nor did they smile at my
ignorance, or laugh at my stammering. Speaking aloud in the dense
forests, I learned to modulate my voice and to speak without
stammering. I was at first a rapid speaker. Many words I could not
pronounce without pausing an instant before speaking them. When I
hurried on rapidly, I always stammered at these words and stumbled
over them. By this training I became a deliberate speaker, and was
able to articulate distinctly.
I neglected to
mention in the proper place that the Conference at its meeting this
year gave me license to preach, as the Conference of the preceding
year had given me authority to exhort.
In the fall, I
returned to Kentucky and early in the winter I went to Crawford
County, In., on a visit to my oldest brother, Cornelius. Among other
plans, I visited Bloomington, then in the woods; and Indianapolis,
where the timber had been felled and was still lying on the ground.
A few log cabins with mud chimnies, constituted the town.
While living with my
father I had bought a colt which was now grown. This I rode to Ind.
and near Indianapolis traded it off for a lot in the contemplated
town. Early in the spring, just before the ice broke up, I started a
foot for Kentucky, carrying my overcoat and saddlebags. For a few
days, I got along tolerable well, but my boots were soon torn to
pieces on the rough frozen ground. This made it bad to travel. But
the worst was yet to come. The weather moderated; it rained, and the
snow and the ice began to melt. I had to wade through mud. I crossed
rivers and creeks on the brittle ice while the water, once in
particular, was six inches over the ice. At length I reached the
Ohio river, at the North bend, near where General Harrison then
lived. The ice was running in the river at a terrible rate. The
ferry man refused to cross me over unless I would pay him, I think
it was $5.00. I agreed to give it, although I had not a dollar left.
With much difficulty, and after encountering great danger, I was
safely landed on the Kentucky shore. It was about the middle of the
afternoon. After walking several miles, I asked to stay all night at
a good-looking house, but was refused because I had told them I was
out of money, or nearly so. I went on to the next house and told the
same sad story. I received a hearty welcome; they gave me a good,
warm supper—the first I had eaten since morning. During the evening
I learned that they were members of the Christian Church. I showed
them my license to preach. Next morning the brother directed me
where I could stay all night with a brother. I reached the place,
told the same tale, and was invited in with tons of welcome. I told
who I was. They were glad to see me; said I must stay the next day
and preach at night. The brother said if I would do so, he would
have my boots mended. I stayed, of course and preached. The next day
I reached the house of a brother I had before known in Harrison. I
had acquaintances then all the way to my father's.
On reaching home, I
learned there was a Conference soon to be held in Bath County, on
big flat creek, I think was the name of the stream. The weather was
now comfortable but the roads were muddy. When the time for the
meeting arrived, I expressed a determination to attend it; but I had
no horse to ride. My father, however, had a number—more than he
needed for immediate use. I asked him for the loan of one to
ride to the meeting, and told him I would return early the next
week. But he refused to let we have a horse, telling me I had better
go to work and make an honest living instead of running over the
country living on other people. I resolved to go, nevertheless.
Accordingly the next morning I threw my saddlebags across my
shoulder, rolled up my pantaloons and plunged out in the mud. I got
along pretty well in my mended boots.
A good many preachers
were at the meeting. I participated in singing and public prayer,
but was not asked to preach. On Monday the Conference met in secret
session—I, at least, was not asked to be present. I was at the stand
engaged with others in singing and praying. Just before the
preaching was to begin, an old preacher, John Mavity, took me aside
and requested me to go home with him to the upper end of Montgomery
County, and preach to his neighbors. This to me was a strange event.
I had seldom been asked to preach before then, and never by an old
and popular preacher. I told him I had no horse. He informed me he
had an extra horse and saddle which I could ride. But how was I to
get back? He proposed to furnish me a horse to ride home. Taking
this as an opening of providence, I accepted the invitation. An
appointment was sent up in advance. The next evening I preached at a
private house to a fine audience. For the first time in my life, my
tongue was loosed; words flowed in a regular and continuous stream;
my ideas were better than I had ever had; my feelings became
excited, and, here and there, one was beginning to weep. Soon the
house was in tears, the speaker with the rest. Gradually my voice
mellowed. The effect was electrical; the excitement was
intense. Brother Mavity sprang to his feet, and rushing
towards me, threw his arms about my neck, and amid tears and sobs,
said: ''Go on, brother Hall. You are called to preach. Give yourself
wholly to the work, and God will crown your labors with success!”
When he had concluded, I resumed my discourse, under great
excitement. He interrupted me again, telling me to call for
mourners. I did so instantly; and they rushed forward in great
numbers. We prayed for them, and concluded the exercises with a
song.
On our way to brother
Mavity's after the meeting that night, he revealed to me the mystery
about his inviting me home with him. He told me that, on Monday the
Conference met in secret session on my case. I had been licensed to
preach. Many of the preachers did not think I was called to preach,
and the question was about taking from me my license. He told the
Conference he had never heard me, and was not prepared to vote on
the question; but if they would postpone the case till the next
meeting of Conference, so as to give him an opportunity to hear me,
he would be prepared to vote on the question of withdrawing from me
license to preach. This was the last I ever heard about taking away
my preaching license.
Brother Mavity was
about to start to Indiana on a tour of preaching; and, now that he
was satisfied I was called to the work of the ministry, he was
anxious for me to accompany him. I was very willing to go, but had
not horse to ride. Brother M. had promised to furnish me a horse to
go to my father’s. If I remember, his son came that far with us and
took the horse back. On reaching my father’s we found him inclined
to aid me in procuring a horse. I purchased one from one of the
neighbors on time at low figures. I gave my not for the money with
my father as security. I paid the note when due with the proceeds of
the horse I had sold at Indianapolis.
We held several
successful meetings in Indiana. I preached almost every day, and,
apparently, to the satisfaction of people generally, and to the
delight of brother Mavity. I feel greatly indebted to the venerable
brother. He was a sensible and good man, and took especial aim to
give me all the instruction in his power. He was useful in his day,
but has long since gone to his reward. He had, and yet has, some
sons engaged in preaching the word.
Having fulfilled our
mission in Indiana, we returned, late in autumn to Kentucky. I spent
the winter reading the Scriptures and preaching on Lord’s Days.
Late in the winter, I
received a letter from the venerable B.W. Stone, then living at
Georgetown, Kentucky informing me that the brethren in the upper
Green river country desired him to send them a young preacher to
ride that season with brother Isaac Mayfield in that county. Sever
had been solicited to go, but declined. I seemed to be the only
chance. I consented to go. Accordingly early in the spring I set out
for that wide field of labor. I went by way of Georgetown, and,
receiving from father Stone letters of introduction and
recommendation, and his parting blessing, I pursued on my journey.
After some five or six days travel through the mud, and over hills
and along hollows, I arrived, safely at the house of brother John
Jones on the East fork of Green river. Here I received a hearty
greeting and a cordial welcome. Brother Stone had advised them of my
coming; hence they were expecting me. A circuit had been formed
embracing the Counties of Casey, Adair, Russell (it is now), Wayne,
Pulaski and Lincoln. Some parts of the above Counties were rich but
broken, but the most of the country is poor.
After preaching at
Purgamus near brother Jones’, brother Mayfield and I started around
our big circuit. We were to complete the circuit once in every
month. To accomplish this, we had to travel hard, and preach only a
few times at one place. We had but one rest-day in the month, and
that was at brother Jones! We had but few clothes, and these we
scattered around the circuit so as to have clean garments to put on
about once a week. Altogether some of that circuit embraced some of
the roughest country and people I have even seen, and I have seen a
good many of both. We had to encounter extreme poverty, ignorance,
filth, ticks and bed-bugs, and other vermin. We had to lodge on
boards, shucks, straw, and, which on many accounts, the best of all,
on the floor. Our diet was at some places the poorest, the most
meager, and the worst prepared that l had ever seen. At other places
it was good. One night, in one of the most out-of-the-way places I
had ever seen, I selected as my theme the words: "Go into the high
ways and hedges, and compell{sic} them to come in." Brother Mayfield
remarked afterwards that he thought the subject quite appropriate.
During that season
quite a number were converted and immersed into the Christian
Church. l, of course, received almost no compensation for my labors.
Early in the fall I
was taken sick of fever, and was confined at brother Jones' several
weeks before I was able to travel. Wishing to go to school that
winter, I traded off a good horse for an inferior one for the sake
of the "boot" with which I wished to pay for my tuition. Soon as I
was able to travel, I started with my pony and my money for home.
Then I learned there was an excellent school taught in Carliste
{Carlisle}, by one Mr. McCabe, a graduate of Washington College, PA.
I went down to see what arrangements I could make if any, about
going a session to that institution. Brother John Rogers was then
married and living there. I told him my desire and my means. He took
the matter in hand and soon made arrangements with the brethren to
board one week about for one term. So I procured books, principally
of the Teacher, paid for my tuition in advance, and set in to
school. During the session I studied English Grammar, Logic,
Rhetoric, and Algebra, and commenced the Greek. When my time and
money were exhausted, I quit the school and the place, feeling under
many obligations to the brethren, especially Brother Rogers, and
also to my gentlemanly and accomplished teacher; and being
solicited to labor that season in Middle Tennessee, I started for
that field of labor. At a brother Carnohan's in Rutherford County I
met with the pious and intelligent and amicable brother Abner Hill,
and two young men just starting out to preach—Levi Nichols and
William D. Jourdan. They had made their debut with brother Hill.
Brother Jourdan was somewhat older than l. He had been a school
teacher, and was a very good English scholar. He was a man of fine
memory, quick perception, and ready utterance, somewhat pugnacious,
but not very hopeful, and was occasionally seized with fits of
hypercondria, he was, nevertheless, a companionable man, and zealous
for what he believed to be the truth.
Our circuit embraced
a part of Wilson, Rutherford, and Smith Counties, and what is now
Cannon. We did a great deal of preaching in that country during the
time we travelled on that circuit, and saw many turn to the Lord.
Brother Jourdan was a
great student of the Bible. We were mutual aids to each other, and
each stimulated the other to the study of the Scriptures. We read
the Bible to the exclusion of almost all other books. Hence we
became quite conversant with it, and loved it far more than all
other writings. We also memorized large portions of the Scriptures,
and knew where to find almost any passage that might be called for.
All around that
circuit, I was called "the proud preacher", and brother Jourdan was
known by the appellation of the "fighting preacher," on account of
his supposed love of controversy.
I spent a part of two
seasons traveling and preaching, having at different times for my
companion, besides brother Jourdan, P. E. Harris and W. D. Cains
{Carnes}. This was the time of his first setting out to preach.
Asbury Stone also traveled with me a few months, just beginning to
preach.
Beside our daily
preaching, galloping around the circuit, we attended many
camp-meetings during the two autumns we spent in middle Tennessee.
We preached a great deal in the open air. We were very zealous, and
frequently spoke at the top of our voice, and sometimes screaming at
such a rate as almost to split our throat. We substituted sound for
sense, indeed, figuratively speaking, we supposed that the power was
in the thunder instead of the lightning; hence we thundered more
than we lightened or enlightened, for, in truth, we had not much
light to emit.
We differed very
little in those days from the Sects in our views of spiritual
influence, getting religion, the evidence of remission, and kindred
subjects. Hence we practiced the mourners' bench or anxious-seat
system throughout. Our views on these and other subjects were dark
and confused, nor can it be expected that it could have been
otherwise, considering the gross darkness that covered the land. In
many things, however, we were, even then, greatly in advance of the
Sects.
The Old Christian
brethren, with Elder B. W. Stone in the lead, about the beginning of
the present century, introduced a great reformation. They started
right. They resolved to take the Bible and the Bible alone for their
creed, and resolved to follow wherever it lead them, giving all
human creeds and Confessions of Faith, to the mobs and bats. It is
not to be supposed they could reach the ultimatum of the teachings
of the Bible at a single bound. From the position they had assumed,
they were prepared, however, to abandon error when they discovered
it by the Scriptures to be such, and to embrace the volume. The
taking the holy scriptures for their only guide, was a grand
achievement, and could not but lead to important results. They thus
pledged themselves to believe all the Bible says, and to practice as
they discovered it whatever it commands; and, as a consequence, to
repudiate and abandon, as any part of their theory and practice, all
not taught in the Scriptures, either in express words or necessary
inference. Taking the word of God alone as their rule of faith and
practice, implied, as they understood it; required, either a plain
"Thus saith the Lord" or inspired example. Hence, whatever might be
taught and practiced by others not included in the above rule of
their faith and practice, they very properly rejected as making any
part of Christianity.
It is scarcely to be
presumed, however, that they should have avoided falling into some
errors; for, starting as they did, post-haste out of Bablyon, they
were in danger of running past Jerusalem. They, however, did better
than might have been expected.
Thrown, as I
Providentially was; on the borders of "our Zion," with no one to
direct my studies and investigations of the Word of God, and no
books to read, and ardently in search of truth, and surrounded by
opponents, and my teachings publicly and privately tracked; I was
driven to the necessity of searching the Scriptures de nova, for
myself, and of depending on my own resources.
I was naturally
skeptical, so far at least, as to take nothing upon trust—to accept
no proposition without what I conceived to be adequate evidence of
its truth. Hence, I was frequently led to question some of the
teachings of my own brethren as well as those of the Sects.
Consequently, I was often charged with bringing strange things to
the peoples' ears—with introducing new-fangled notions. I had made
the discovery that we were not under Moses, but under Christ—not
under the law, but under the dispensation of the Gospel. This
discovery led me to inquire into the difference between the two
economies, and to draw the contrast between the law and the
gospel—between the law of Moses and the law of liberty. I had
studied this subject for a long time, and had digested and arranged
my thoughts so as to mark distinctly the points of contrast between
the two. On Saturday morning, at a Camp meeting on Globe creek, I
delivered a long discourse on the points of difference between the
law of Moses and the gospel of Christ. A number of preachers were
present. They generally rejected the views presented. At the head of
the list of opposes {opposers} was brother Jourdan. After dinner, I
was invited into the preachers' tent and called to account for my
heresay {heresy?}. I defended my positions as well as I was able.
Some were very severe in their expressions of censure. A brother
Robert Randolph, a modest, sensible and good man had as yet said
nothing. He was asked his opinion of my sermon. He modestly
answered, that, he thought I had preached a great deal more truth
than error. On being further interrogated, he said he had never
heard the ideas advanced before, but that I had convinced him of the
truth of every thing I had advanced except one. He was requested to
state that one thing. He replied: "Brother Hall said he was, he
presumed, as anxious as any one to have the good opinion of his
brethren, and to avoid giving offense to any. “In this," said he, "I
think he is mistaken; for I believe he would preach what he believes
to be the truth even if he knew it would cause every friend he has
on earth to forsake him." This created a laugh, which closed the
discussion.
At the close of the
meeting, I parted with most of the preachers, Brother Jourdan
returned to his field of labor; and the next I heard of him, he was
preaching the abolition of the law of Moses.
After the Globe creek
meeting, I went further south to attend some camp meetings in North
Alabama: one in Gandies' cove, in Morgan County; another in Honey
Comb valley, and another at McNutty town in Madison County. As my
resources were about exhausted and my clothes well worn; and as I
had received but little if any remuneration for my labors; I taught
a three-months school in the winter, and occupied my leisure time
studying medicine.
An incident occurred
in Alabama, which I will here relate. I, at a meeting above
Miridianville, delivered a discourse on the design of baptism and
invited persons to confess the Lord. One young lady came forward,
and desired to be immersed forthwith. Her mother was dead. Her
father, had been a Baptist preacher, but had become an apostate and
a wicked man. As we were yet talking about the best place to immense
in a stream nearby, the old man came up to me, and shaking a large
hickory cane in my face, told me I must not baptize his daughter. I
inquired: "Why not?" He answered huffishly: “That is none of
your business; but"—shaking his cane again at me, his eyes looking
daggers—"you had better not attempt to baptize her''—and his large
frame shook with rage. Turning to the young lady, who sat weeping, I
asked her if she still desired to be baptized? She said she did.
"Then I will baptize you at all hazzards." I said, and, turning to
the audience, designated the place where we would administer the
rite. The old man, turning to his daughter, said: "If you are
baptized, you shall never enter my house again while you live." The
poor girl, looking up at me through her tears, said: "I want to be
baptized." An old brother Griffin, a man well to do in the world,
who stood near by, walked up to the agonized girl, and said: "My
daughter, you shall have a home at my house." We repaired to the
water, and I baptized her, the, old man offering no resistance. The
young lady got into mister Griffin's carriage, and went home with
her. A few days afterwards, her father sent for her to return home.
She sent him word she would not go then; but if he would bring a
horse and saddle the next Friday, and take her down to a meeting to
be held at McNuttytown, she would go home with him after the close
of the meeting.
Accordingly, on the
day designated the old gentleman rode up to brother Griffin's,
leading a horse with a lady's saddle. The young lady was soon in the
saddle, and she and her father were on their way to the meeting.
The next day I
preached and gave the usual invitation to penitent believers to
confess the Lord. The old gentleman who was sitting directly in
front of the stand, arose instantly and came forward weeping,
holding the same big cane in his hand. His daughter sprang to her
feet, and uttering an exclamation of joy, rushed forward, and threw
her arms around her father's neck and sunk down upon her knees by
his side! It was a touching scene to see the father and his
motherless daughter clasped in each other's arms weeping—the one
shedding tears of bitter grief and penitence; the other tears of
joy.
Had not the young
lady resolutely obeyed the Lord, brooking the bitter opposition of
her wicked father, both would doubtless have gone to perdition
together; but now, hand in hand, they were treading the pilgrims
pathway to the city and home of God. It is always right for one to
do his duty—to obey God. In such cases, all results well.
The religion of those
days consisted principally of feeling; and those who shouted the
loudest and made the greatest ado, were looked upon as the best
Christians. Hence our preaching, our prayers, and songs we adapted
to excite the emotions. We would clap and rub our hands, stamp with
our feet, slain down and tear up the Bible, speak as loud as
possible and scream at the top of our voice, to get up an
excitement. I often blistered my hands by clapping and rubbing them
together; and my feet were made sore by repeated stamping. My voice
was clear, and its tones silvery. I could sing for hours without
being tired or becoming hoarse. I was excitable, and dealt much in
the pathetic. I was considered good at exhortation. Death, the
judgment, heaven and hell, were my favorite themes. Here fancy had
ample room for play; and on such themes the feelings of the masses
could be reached. Knowing my forte, the brethren were want to have
me to bring up the rear on occasions when an excitement was desired.
I frequently spoke when, on account of the loud shouting of
christians, and the screams of sinners, I could scarcely hear my own
voice. Then was the time, after a short pause to call for mourners,
and it was seldom they failed to come. I have known them to come in
such numbers and crowd so closely around me as I stood before the
stand, in the midst of the audience, that, when we were about to
pray for them, I had not room to kneel down. Sometimes the
excitement would be so great—so many brethren all praying aloud at
once, and mourners screaming and begging for mercy, that no single
voice could be distinguished from the rest. I have spent whole
nights singing, praying and trying to instruct weeping,
broken-hearted sinners how to "get religion," and, now and then
rejoicing with one who had Just "got through".
At one camp-meeting
in Middle Tennessee in the fall of 1825, there were upwards of
fifty, who, during the meeting, came forward to be prayed for. I
was greatly interested in their behalf. I was up with them the whole
night. Some "professed religion" but many did not. The meeting
closed with the greater number of them uncomforted. A brother James
G. Green proposed that a song be sung, and the brethren and sisters
first, and then the mourners, such as were resolved to strive to
meet us in heaven, be invited to take leave of the preachers. We all
stood in a row before the stand, and a long line of saints gave us
the parting hand. Then came the mourners, weeping as if their hearts
would break, and reached us their hand. It was too much for me to
endure. I cried aloud, and wept like a child. My sympathies had
overcome me.
Going on from that
meeting to another, I began to reflect upon the scene I had
witnessed. I asked myself why it was those dear people did not
receive pardon? They appeared to be sincere and in good earnest.
They seemed to be deeply penitent. They wept and prayed and begged
for mercy. They mourned; and why were they not comforted? God is
certainly willing to pardon them, and to do it now. They earnestly
desire pardon: True, they have sinned. They know and confess this.
They are sorry they have sinned. And they have promised to the Lord,
if he will only forgive the past, they will strive to do better in
the future. Why, then, does not God in mercy forgive them? Maybe,
after all, I said mentally, our preaching may be at fault. Can it be
that the wrong is in us? I then thought of the Apostles, their
preaching, and the result. Some of sin-convinced, conscious-smitten
hearers went away from hearing them, uncomforted. Still, strange to
say, I could not perceive where the mistake was; wherein our
preaching and practice differed from that of the apostles—in what
consisted the difference.
A year before this,
one day after I had called up mourners and prayed that God would
pardon their sins, a brother, a private member of the church had
asked me for my authority for calling persons forward to the anxious
seat, and praying that God would then and there pardon their sins? I
answered: "The Bible is my authority for this practice." "What part
of the Bible?" he inquired, "The whole of it." I answered. "I would
like to see the plan," said he. I told him to read the Bible, and he
would find it, He answered, he had done so very carefully, and had
not been able to find any authority for the practice. "But," said
he, "I find authority for baptizing penitents for remission of sins;
but none for praying for their pardon before they are baptized,"
Much more was said on this subject by both of us—by him on the one
side, and by myself on the other. But what he said made but little
impression on my memory. Years elapsed; and I one day, in 1832, met
this same brother in Memphis, and he reminded me of the interview. I
was then fully committed to the teaching of baptism for remission of
sins.
During the fall of
1825 and the winter of '25,6, I was perplexed and troubled about our
preaching and the results; but for the life of me I could not find
out where the mistake lay, I became convinced there was a great
wrong somewhere, but could not find where it was, or wherein it
consisted. In this state of perplexity I started for Kentucky in the
spring of 1826. On my way I stopped at the house of a brother Gess
on Line creek, on the line between Tennessee and Kentucky. It was
late in the afternoon, and I was fatigued, having travelled hard all
day. Brother Gess took my horse and I walked into the house. Sister
Gess had gone to see a sick neighbor. No one was in the house when I
entered. Before taking my seat, I looked around for a book. My eye
caught sight of a little bookcase in one corner of the house. I rose
and walked up to it. My eye soon rested upon a book with "Debate on
Baptism," printed on the back. I found it to be the debate between
A. Campbell and William MaCalla. I had heard it was published, but
had never seen it till then. I knew I would not have time to read it
then, and began to turn over the leaves. Mr. Campbell's speech, in
which he introduced the "design of baptism," arrested my notice. I
began to read it with fixed attention. The interest deepened as I
proceeded. The light began to dawn, nay, it flashed upon my mind;
and ere I had concluded the argument, I was a full convert to the
teaching of baptism for remission of sins. I sprang to my feet in an
ecstacy and cried out, "Eureka! Eureka!" "I have found it; I have
found it:; And I had found it. I had found the key-stone in the
gospel arch, which had been set aside and ignored by the builders. I
had found the key-stone in the gospel arch, which had been set aside
and ignored by the builders. I had found the long-lost link in the
chain of gospel obedience. I was converted anew—thoroughly, and as I
believe, soundly converted. I was happy, transported with joy;
happier than when I was first converted, and my conversion was more
sudden, and more satisfactory. I saw now the evidence of remission,
which I had never seen before. When brother Gess came in, I took him
by the hand, and told him I was converted over, and explained to him
all about (it). Soon Sister Gess returned and I told her about my
conversion. I loved to tell it, I felt so happy; and I yet love to
tell it. Had I not found this grand truth, I should have died
unhappy; my sun would have gone down under, a cloud, a dire dark
cloud. I would have died disappointed in my faith, and hope, and
expectation of the power of the gospel of Christ. Now I can
understand it, see it, feel it all, and with confidence, preach it
as God's power to save all who believe it.
Next morning I
resumed my journey a new man, and happier than I had ever been
before. I now had a message to every body, the gospel-message—the
whole gospel. O how sweet, how precious it "the glorious gospel of
the blessed God!” It is sweeter than honey in the honeycomb. I prize
it above rubies. It is more precious than gold, yea, than fine gold.
Thanks be to God for his unspeakable gift!
Two days travel
brought me to a brother Luper's. I told him all about my new
discovery. In two days more I was at brother John Jones. His son, S.
E. Jones was then quite a young man and a member of the church. With
him I had a long conversation on baptism for remission of sins. He
rejected it at first, and told me I was frequently making
discoveries that no one else had ever heard of, and preaching
new-fangled notions calculated to disturb the minds of brethren, and
administered a prudent caution to me not to be carried away by
heresay, but finally, he agreed to give the subject an
investigation. The next time I heard of him, he was a preacher of
the ancient gospel.
A few days further
travel brought me to my brother Levi Hall's, some eight miles from
my father's. My brother had married a second wife during my absence.
I had never known her, but found her to be a noble woman. She was
brought up a Baptist of the strictest sort. She had often tried to
"get religion"; had been frequently at the "anxious seat," but could
never "get through." She was piously inclined, and desired to be a
Christian. She concluded to go with me to my father's. On the way I
preached to her the gospel. She received it, and requested me to
make an appointment at their house a few days thereafter, and
baptise her. I did so; and as she came up out of the water, she
clasped her hands together, and said; "Thank the Lord!" This pleased
me greatly. It was the first time I had immersed any one for
remission of sins, and I was delighted that she experienced such
joy. It increased my confidence in the truth.
It was now about a
year since I had been ordained at a Conference at Old Union, in
Fayette County, Kentucky by brother B, W. Stone and others, by
recommendation of the churches in Tennessee and Alabama. Brother T.
M. Allen of Missouri was ordained at the same time. The intervening
years I had spent preaching in Southern Kentucky, Middle Tennessee
and Northern Alabama, and baptized quite a number of persons. I had
also taken a young man of the name of Mansel W. Matthews to travel
with me. His venerable father gave him to me saying: "Take Mansel
and make a preacher of him, if you can; and if you cannot, send him
back home to me." He became a useful, popular and influential
preacher; but has removed about so much that he has "wasted his
fragrance on the desert air."
In the summer of 1826
I visited Georgetown, and conversed with father Stone resputing
baptism for remission of sins. He said it would not do; that he had
introduced it early in the present century, that it was like
throwing ice water on the people; that it froze all their warmth
out, and came well nigh driving vital religion out of the country,
and would have done it, if he had not resisted from preaching it. He
said he had preached it at different places and to different
congregations, and that the same results followed. Finally he
abandoned it altogether, I asked him why he had preached it at all?
He answered, because he found it in the Scriptures, he was an old
man, a father in the ministry, and the reputed founder of the
Christian Church. He was a preacher before I was born—many years
before, and was in his prime, and in the midst of his usefulness,
and in the midst of the great revival in 1803, the year I was born,
I could not find it in my heart to argue the question with him as
with an equal in years. I ventured to tell him, however, that if it
was in the Bible, as he admitted it was, it was certainly right to
preach it; and that I could not see how one could declare the "whole
counsel of God" without preaching it. Moreover, I stated that I
could not understand how preaching what was taught in Scripture
could destroy vital religion; and cautiously intimated that what
some considered "vital religion" might, after all, turn out to
enthusiasm, if not wild fanaticism, and not christianity at all; and
if this should happen to be the case, the sooner it died out the
better. Much more was said by both of us, but without any favorable
result. I gave him, however, to distinctly understand that I fully
believed it to be the truth, and that I was resolved to preach it;
and that, if any of the brethren rejected it, I would tell them
"brother Stone says it is taught in the Scriptures." This made him
laugh. He then pleasantly remarked I was so hardheaded that he could
not do anything with me, and he saw I was determined to have my own
way. He afterwards requested me in a serious tone not to broach that
idea in Georgetown. But I did not promise, for my soul was full of
it.
On the 4th day of
July brother Stone preached in Georgetown in the morning on Civil
and Religious Liberty; I preached at night on the Parable of the
Great Supper. I spoke with freedom and effect. Many were effected
and wept bitterly. Brother Stone told me to call for mourners. I did
so—for I had not, as yet, gotten fully out of that notion. Many came
forward, among whom, if memory is not at fault, was John A. Gano,
long known among the brethren as the Apollos of Kentucky. Brother
Stone took him under his tuition, and I saw him no more until I met
him as an eloquent, zealous and efficient preacher.
A few days after this
I went with brother Stone and others to a two-days meeting near the
Sulphur Well, some eight miles from Georgetown. Brother Stone and I
were to preach Lord's day morning. I had prepared a discourse on the
2nd Chapter of Acts, and informed brother Stone that I desired to
deliver it that morning in his hearing; and that if I did not preach
the truth, he could correct me in his discourse which was to follow.
He, however, pleaded with me not to preach the doctrine of baptism
for remission of sins; that, it would chill him and prevent his
preaching to any purpose. He said he would return home after dinner,
and that, if nothing else would do me, I could preach my "chilling
and religion-killing doctrine at night." Unwilling to offend him, I
yielded to his request. That night, however, some one else preached;
but during the discourse a tremendous rain began to fall, and
continued till after midnight. As the people could not leave, the
now venerable Samuel Rogers and myself occupied the time singing,
praying and speaking with those who appeared to be serious. That
night before the rain ceased several persons were persuaded to take
the Lord at his word, and to be baptized for remission of sins.
Early next morning we repaired to the water, where I took their
confessions, and buried them with the Lord in baptism. To the honor
of the head and heart of brother Samuel Rogers, I have to say, he
made no opposition to my preaching to the people that night the
doctrine of faith, repentance and baptism for remission of sins;
although he did then avow his belief of the teaching. But when I
next met him, he was a warm advocate of, the sentiment and was
earnestly teaching it.
Soon after this, I
started on a tour of preaching through Southern Kentucky, Tennessee
and Alabama. The first protracted meeting I attended was at Mill
Creek, in Monroe County, Kentucky in the neighborhood of brother
John Mulkey's. On Saturday night a brother DeWit preached.
Everything seemed dead and cold. While he was speaking, I requested
brother Mulkey to follow in exhortation in which he excelled, and
wake up the people. He said he could not do it; that he was not in
the right mood to succeed, and urged me to follow. I did so, and so
spoke that multitudes wept. I invited the serious forward to the
front seat, which was soon filled. I then designated another, which
was directly filled; then a third, and fourth. Some fifty persons in
all came forward. Some knelt down and began to pray; some wept and
sobbed aloud. At length they became composed somewhat, and I
proceeded to preach to them baptism for remission of sins. Having
concluded, I designated still another seat, directly before the
pulpit, and requested that all who felt willing to take Jesus at his
word, and to trust his promise for remission of sins, to take that
seat. Some four or five, I think, took that seat. I heard their
confession, and asked them when they wished to be baptized? One and
another answered, "Now." "Tonight?" I asked. "Yes," they said,
"tonight—just as soon as possible."
It was now near
mid-night, and it was some four hundred yards to the water, and
through a dense forest. Besides, there was no moon. But lamps and
torches were soon prepared, and the long procession, silent and
solemn, moved off down the long slope towards the water. The lights
gleamed and flashed among the trees. The measured tread of the large
procession was like the solemn march to the city of the dead.
Scarcely a word was spoken above a whisper, and only the occasional
melancholy host of the gloomy night-owl broke in upon the solemn
stillness of the scene. It was a grand occasion. At length the
gurgling stream was reached. The lights gleamed and flashed upon the
clear waters. A brief prayer was offered, and the penitents were
buried and raised again in baptism; and after receiving the
congratulations of their friends, the procession moved slowly up the
hill. A sweet, melodious song arose and swelled on which the wing of
devotion poised itself for heaven. It was a camp-meeting. The large
assembly was soon dispersed among the tents, and slept until the
trumpet-blast at early dawn arosed{aroused} them from their sweet
and quiet slumbers.
This was the first
time the ancient gospel had been preached in that section, and the
first time it had been heard by the venerable John Mulkey. He was a
good man, and an able and efficient preacher. The next time I met
him, he was preaching the gospel with marked success. He has long
since been called home. He has, however, several sons ably
advocating the same cause.
The next meeting that
I attended, as I now remember, was on Crow Creek, among the hills,
bordering on the line between Tennessee and Alabama. I delivered a
discourse on Romans 10:1-10, in which I presented the elements of
the gospel—its facts, commands and promises, and urged immediate
compliance with its provisions in order to remission of sins. I
invited persons forward to confess with their lips what in their
hearts they believed. Several came, and among them a venerable
gentleman with a good face and fine broad, high-retreating forehead.
He arose almost instantly the invitation was given. He supported
with a cane his tottering frame, bent under the weight of many
years, and stepped forward, and reached me his bony hand, the tears
coursing down his furrowed cheeks. At the conclusion of the song, he
asked if he might be permitted to say a few words. He was told to
speak on. He arose, and standing nearly halfbent, supported by his
cane spoke to the following effect: "Friends, I have asked
permission to say a few words. You see I am an old man. I am upwards
of seventy years of age. From my youth, I have been anxious to be a
Christian. I have always attended religious meetings, and listened
attentively to the preaching, anxious to learn what I must do to be
saved. When I heard of this meeting, my first impulse was to attend
it. But then I thought of my age and infirmity, and the distance,
about seventy miles, and I remembered that I had never heard
anything that I could understand that I must do to be saved, and it
was not likely I would be more fortunate, should I come to this
meeting, and I almost abandoned the idea of making the attempt. Then
again, I remembered my great age and declining life, and knew I
could not live much longer, and the thought of dying without
religion was horrible. These reflections armed me with resolution to
undertake the long and fatiguing journey, with the faint hope that
maybe, I shall hear something that will give me hope and comfort in
death. I devoutly thank God that I am here, and that I have been
permitted to hear the sermon today. It is the first time in life
that I have heard, so that I could understand, what I must do to
become a Christian. Young friends, if I had, when I was of your age,
heard the discourse to which you have just listened, I would have
then become a Christian." At this sad story of the poor old man many
wept, and no wonder, it was enough to move a heart of stone.
We heard the
confession of the weeping penitents, and instantly repaired to the
water but a few paces from the stand, when they were all immersed
into Christ Jesus. As the old gentleman emerged from the liquid
grave a smile played over his features, blending with his tears; he
clapped together his thin hands, and said, "Thanks be to God for the
assurance I now feel that my sins are forgiven! I have believed his
word, and, as I trust, have from the heart complied with his
prescribed conditions of pardon, and, confiding in his word of
promise, I rejoice to be assured of my acceptance with my adorable
Savior. I can now return home contented and happy, and occupy the
few remaining days I may yet live on earth in making ready for the
life to come. Friends, one and all, farewell. Our next meeting will
be at the judgment. May I hope to see you all in heaven?" At this
affecting talk of the old man many wept. It was the last day of the
meeting. The congregation soon dispersed. I assisted the old man on
his horse, and bade him a final adieu, and never heard of him
afterwards, but hope to meet him in heaven. O what meetings and
greetings, and joyful recognitions there will be in the spirit
world!
Our next meeting was
in the upper edge of Jackson County, Ala. in what was called the
Price neighborhood. Here again I preached the ancient gospel and
immersed for remission of sins some twenty-three persons, among them
a James C. Anderson and a brother Russell. They had both been
Methodists. Brother Anderson soon became a preacher; and for many
years labored through both Ala. and Tenn. He was an efficient
preacher, and won many souls to God. He was blind in one eye. He now
rests from his labors.
On the approach of
winter I retired from active field service, and resumed the study of
Medicine, and preached on Lord's days. We had in those days but few
meeting houses. When the weather would allow, we worshiped in groves
and under sheds. But, as such plans were not suitable for preaching
in the winter, we had to occupy private houses. No one now can have
any idea of the sacrifices which were made by the Netrian pioneers
of the present great religious movement; of the excessive labors
which they performed, and the difficulties with which they had to
contend. They had to meet bitter, wicked, malignant opposition at
every turn. The teaching was new, and the prejudice against it was
tremendous. The truth had but few adherants, and they were generally
of the poorer class, and without great personal influence. The
preachers too were poor, and received but little pecuniary aid. They
had, consequently, to resort to some secular pursuit in order to
make a living. They were a different class of men from the kid-glove
gentry, who frequent the well-furnished houses of rich brethren
flipping gold watch-keys, flourishing gold-headed rattans, pulling Havannas, dressed in fine broad cloth, reclining on velvet-cushioned
sofas, reading light literature, sprouting Greek; waiting for a loud
call to some, rich city church. Some of this class of men, who put
on such airs, were born and brought up in poverty. As apparently
humble and pious young men, they were sought out and found among the
hills, or pining in the shade of apulence; they were recommended to
the liberality of the brotherhood, by some of the old pioneer
preachers; were sent to school and colleges and educated at public
expense. They have advanced so rapidly and travelled so far from
their former condition and surroundings as to have lost sight of the
men who connected them and recommended them to the notice and
liberality of the brotherhood. Some, indeed, have lost sight of
their humble, pious mothers, and ignore their worthy sisters! Poor
servants these of the sick and lowly! Musical messengers to herald
his glad tidings to the poor! They are undeserving the name of
ministers of Christ! O tempora! O mores!
An incident was
related to me by the brother Rogers above mentioned, and of which he
was an eye and Car witness, being at the time a Methodist, and
present in the tent when it occurred.
A Methodist minister
of the name of Mr. XXXX had been sent among the Cherokee Indians who
lived at that time [1825] just across the Tennessee river from
Jackson County, Ala. for the purpose of distributing Bibles
and Testaments among them. Seeing an intelligent looking young wan
who could read English, he made him a present of a new Testament,
requesting him at the same time to read it and to do as it told him.
The Indian accepted the present and promised to comply with the
preacher's request. This was early in the spring of 1825. In the
autumn of the same year the Methodists held a camp meeting in
Jackson County, Ala. near Bellfront. The young Indian hearing of the
meeting, went over to it. On reaching the camp-ground, he inquired
for Col. U., the preacher above mentioned. He was informed that he
was in the Preacher's tent, which was pointed out to him, He was at
once admitted, and, recognizing the preacher, offered him his hand,
telling him at the same time he was the man to whom he had given the
New Testament; and he added: "I have done as you requested. I have
read the book, and have come to get you to go with me to the river."
"Why?" the preacher inquired, "Do you want me to go with you to the
river?" "I want you to baptise me," was the answer of the red man.
"I can baptise you without going to the river," responded the
preacher. "How?" the Indian asked. The preacher proceeded to tell
him; he "would take some water in a tumble and pour it on his head."
This information took the Indian all aback. He paused a moment in
evident perplexity and doubt, his eyes resting on the ground. Then
raising his head and fixing his keen dark eyes on the preacher, he
asked: "Is that baptism?" "Yes," responded the preacher, "that is
the way we baptize." The Indian stood a moment as if in deep
thought; then raising his head and fixing his eyes again on the
preacher, he said, "Col. it that is baptism, you gave me the wrong
book!" This terminated the interview. The disappointed Indian
instantly left the place, and returned to his home.
The above incident I
related to brother A. Campbell in Baltimore, in the winter of
1833-4, and it was published in the Millennial Harbinger sometime
afterwards. Many missions have been given of the case since, and the
circumstances variously represented. But the above is the correct
version of the affair as reported to me by brother Rogers, who
stated he was present and saw and heard it all. It had considerable
influence in calling his attention to the New Testament account of
baptism.
Early in the Spring
of 1826, I paid a short visit to Ky. and returned to Tenn. taking
with me my youngest brother, B. W. Hall, a youth of 18, when {whom}
I immersed that summer for remission of sins.
In Sept. of that
year, I attended a camp-meeting on Cypress, in Lauderdale County, Ala. On Sunday night the brethren put me on a
table under a large Arbour, in the middle of a large audience. I
discoursed on baptism for remission of sins. In the conclusion I
invited forward penitents to confess Christ preparatory to their
being immersed for remission of sins. Several presented themselves,
and among them was Gilbert {Tolbert} Fanning, then a youth. They
were immersed the next morning in Cypress Creek by Bro. James. E.
Matthews. I will remember the tall form, and the awkward, gangling
appearance of G. F. {T.F.} as he appeared at the water, with neither
shoes, coat nor vest. See the garments he had on were shirt,
pantaloons and socks, and his socks and pantaloons did not, meet by
some inches. I thought he was about as uncouth a looking youth as I
had seen in many aday. But under the influence of Christianity and
proper training, and educational advantages, he has become a man of
distinction, eminence and usefulness.
Someone in the brief
biography of Pres. G.{T.} Fanning, in the Servicing Pulpit,
represents that bro. Fanning was converted as well as baptized, by
brother James E. Matthews in the year.
This is a mistake.
At the time alluded to, bro. Matthews was not even a believer in
baptism for remission of sins. The sermon that converted bro.
Fanning convinced bro. Matthews. Being an honest man, and possessed
of fine sense, he gave the subject a thorough investigation; and at
my request and by my assistance, wrote several articles on the
subject for publication in the Christian Messenger published and
edited by brother Stone. I myself took them to brother Stone, on my
return to Ky. the following spring, and had no little difficulty in
inducing him to insert then in his paper. The articles created quite
a sensation among the brotherhood at the time, and called forth
several reviews of his articles. This was the time the subject of
baptism for remission of sins had been discussed in the Christian
Messenger; and these articles opened the way for a full discussion
of the whole subject in all its phases, and was the means of
convincing many. After the publication of brother Matthews'
articles, brother Stone and others fell into line, and others
gradually came over to the side of truth.
Brother A. Campbell
was the first man, who in our day, fully, and understandably,
preached baptism for remission of sins, and who, correctly
discriminated between baptism for remission of sins and baptismal
regeneration. He contended for the former but utterly repudiated the
latter. He, as already seen, pretty freely developed the subject in
his debate with Macalla from which I learned it, and soon began to
preach it; and as far as known to me, was the only one who did
preach it until December 1827. Where bro. Walter Scott commenced to
preach it in the Western Reserve in the State of Ohio. But I had
been preaching almost eighteen months when Bro. Scott began, and had
preached it in Ky., Tenn., and Ala., and converted and immersed over
one hundred persons for remission of sins, before brother Scott
first opened his lips and lifted up his noble voice in pleading the
ancient Gospel. I dwell on this subject only because there appears
among some to overlook and wholly to ignore my early struggles and
first labors in the cause of Christ, and especially the part that I
am the first one to preach the ancient gospel and to urge instant
obedience to it, in the present century. I desire simply to
vindicate the truth of history. Let justice he done.
The following winter
I held a debate in Williamson County with a Mr. A. S. Andrews, a
Methodist Minister, on the subjects and action of baptism. He was a
gentleman, and an honorable debater. The discussion was conducted
with good feelings throughout. He was a fluent speaker, and
possessed fine logical powers. He deported himself well, considering
the cause he advocated. But public sentiment, I learned, was against
him, as to the result. This was my first public discussion.
In the early part of
this winter, I taught a Grammar School at Cypress meeting
house, Lauderdale Co. Ala., and early in the following January I
married Dorinda C., daughter of John Chisholm, Esq. of
that County.
I continued to
prosecute the study of medicine under the instruction of Dr. Rucker
of Florence, Ala.
In the spring I took
my young wife on a visit to my relations in Ky. and in the fall
settled in Werner County, KY. with the view of preaching to some
congregations in that county, and one in Washington Co. at
Hillsborough.
At a meeting at
Hillsboro, I invited persons forward to confess the Savior. Several
presented themselves; among them were two men who had been some
times at enmity, and were then carrying weapons for each other. They
came from different parts of the house, and happened to come about
the same time. Neither knew the other was in the house until they
met before the pulpit. Their recognition was mutual, and each
offered his hand to the other. So their hands joined, each threw his
arm around the other's neck, and there they stood for some moments
in each others' embrace, weeping. Their difficulty was settled, and
the tomahawk buried forever. They were good friends afterwards, and
brethren. O the power of the gospel. It turns a raven to a dove, a
lion to a lamb.
I continued my
medical studies through the winter, and in the spring removed to
Stanford, and entered into partnership with Drs. Heuff and Leoffe,
in the practice of medicine.
Shortly after
settling in Stanford, I was visited by brethren Sterman, Matters and
Paston, all Baptist ministers who were readers of the Christian
Baptist, and were favorably inclined towards the views presented by
Mr. Campbell.
Up to this time I had
read but few numbers of the C-Baptist, but was pleased and profitted by what I had read. This article "On the Word" satisfied
me of the divinity of Christ. This debate with Macalla I had
procured and read to profit. I was fully committed to the truth, and
felt myself identified with "The Reformation."
The brethren, named
above, desired that I should join the Baptist Church at Rushbrance
near Torrero, and aid in pushing on the work in that section. They
had, as yet, no organization. I agreed to do so, provided the Church
would agree to adapt the title Church of Christ instead of the name
Baptist, and would agree to take the Scriptures as their only rule
of faith and practice. These they unanimously agreed to do. I then
united with the Church, and was immediately appointed a messenger to
the church association, as well as to write the letter to that body.
I wrote 27 pages fool's cap. but overing my practice. I could not
bear the letter. Only a few pages of it was read, as I was informed
afterwards by a bro. Elijah Dawson, a messenger from another
congregation, who bore our letter for us.
The next year,
however, I attended the Association, which met Mcleocmack's meeting
house. Great effort was made to prevent me from taking my seat as a
messenger on the ground that I was not the bearer of the letter
which was in the hands of the other messenger, Dr. Heum, who had not
yet reached the meeting; this was done, not-withstanding they were
assured by members of the Rushbranch then present, that I was
appointed a messenger. After considerable discussion, I was voted to
a seat. The first business, after organizing, was to select
preachers to occupy the stand Lord's day morning. Owing to the
effort that had been made to keep me from my seat, there was a
reaction in my favor, and the largest vote was cast for me. I was,
therefore, to speak at 11:00 o'clock. Brother Jacob Warrinner, whose
church had been dropped from the association the year before to get
him out on account of his alledged Campbellism, received the next
highest vote! Hence he followed me on Acts 2:38. Before he
closed, some of the very brethren who but a year before had voted
him out of the Association drew near, bathed in tears, and asked
him, while yet speaking, to come down out of the stand, that they
wanted to give him the right hand of fellowship. At their request he
went down and gave them his hand. They were completely overcome and
when the decision was subsequently made, they were on the side of
the reformation.
Sometime in the
autumn after I first lived in Stanford, we learned that old brother
Thomas Chilton came into that section at the request of certain
enemies to the reformation, for the purpose of opposing us. Bro.
Sterman came to my house on his way down to meet him at Heurrican
Church on one of the head branches of Eun river, And insisted that I
should accompany him; as there was not much sickness, by consent of
Drs. Heuff and Goffe, I went. On our way we fell in with brethren
Pastor and Waters on their way to the same meeting. It was agreed
that I should enter the arena with our veteran opponent. In reaching
the place, we had an interview with bro. Chilton, and informed him
of the arrangement between us. He protested he had not intention to
oppose us; and said he had come only to see his old friends and
preach to them. He delivered a discourse on the 2nd Chap. of Acts
down to the 35th. When he had done I arose and commenced where he
had left off, and preached the gospel. As far as I heard, he made no
attack on our sentiments during his tour.
Soon afterward his
Son, the younger Chilton, came into the Larne section with the
intention, as we were informed of "demolishing" us at a blow. He was
met by all the same brethren, except myself. He denied to them that
he had any such design, nor did he attack us until his last
discourse when he opened his batteries upon us. He fired one round
and precipetately (sic) from the field, and left the country. I was
immediately advised of his attack, and was furnished with notes of
his discourse taken by bro. John Jennings. I sent an appointment to
the same place and reviewed his discourse the next Lord's day. That
country now belongs principally to our brethren.
At the solicitations
of a church some six miles southwest from Columbia, Ky., that
proposed to sustain me as a preacher and also as a physician, and
them being too many of us together in Stanford, I concluded to
remove to Adair County. The support they gave me was so meager, and
the country so healthy, that I removed to Columbia, and devoted
myself to my profession, preaching occasionally-only. But after
remaining there a year, and not much liking the country, and having,
what I supposed from unpresentation, to be a good offer, I removed
to Madisonville, Hopkins County. I was disappointed in the place and
surrounding country, and resolved not to make that my permanent
home.
While living here, I
paid a visit to Christian County, and preached a few times. Allen
Wooldridgr {Wooldridge}, member of the Baptist Church came several
miles to hear me one Lord's day, and took me almost biet armes
to his house to preach that night, informing me the appointment was
made and circulated through the neighborhood. I could understand his
motive for wishing me to go particularly that night, and he did not
tell me until we reached the place, and he introduced me to brethren
William Davenport and Isaiah Boan. These brethren were readers of
the writings of A. Campbell, and were favorable to his views, but
had never ventured to preach baptism for remission of sins. This was
the point on which they wished to hear me discourse. I complied with
their request. They sat together during the discourse. They became
pleased, delighted as I entered into the merits of our theme. They
first wept and shook hands; then embraced; then cried out and
thanked God for the truth. They returned home and both began to
preach the gospel in earnest.
A good deal of the
time I lived in Madisonville, I occupied in the study of law with
Mr. Gleenly S. Bennett, afterwards for many years Judge of a
District in Miss.
While I still lived
in Madisonville, a Dr. John Hearris, Dentist, visited the place and
proposed to teach me the science and art of the profession for a
specific sum. I agreed to become his pupil. From there he went to
Princeton, and remained some time. I took my wife and little twin
daughters to a friend's in the country, and joined Dr. H. When there
I preached frequently of nights and on Lord's days. Considerable
interest was excited. Several were immersed, among them some of the
students of Cumberland College. This created alarm in the ranks of
sutraianism {sectarianism}; and a Mr. Lowry, Cumberlaw, opened an
attack upon me. I replied one night to his discourse the previous
night. Finally, he withdrew from the arena, and gave me the field
until I should get through with a series of discourses which I had
commenced, promising to review them forthwith so as to give me time
to reply before I should leave the place. I concluded my series on
Lord's day afternoon, and announced my intention to leave the next
Saturday, to meet a distant appointment the next day. Mr. Lowrey
arose, and stated, he would commence his review of my discourse a
month from that day! Nothing could induce him to reply to me at an
earlier time. By that time I had publicly stated, I expected to be
in Ala. He had no intention that I should hear his review. It too
turned out that, owing to the sickness of my wife, I did not get
off; and to the chagrin of Mr. Lowry, but the delight of many
others, on Saturday before he was to open his batteries upon me, I
drove into Princeton, and instantly announced that I would speak at
three o'clock the next day in reply to Mr. L's morning discourse.
The intelligence flew through all the country. Next morning the town
was alive with people who came to hear the discussion.
The morrow dawned
beautifully and the sun arose in cloudless glory, and shooting his
rays across the earth, and in his golden chariot, mounted the hill
of heaven. About 10:00 o'clock, Mr. Lowrey entered the spacious and
densely filled house, pale and agitated, followed by two wheelbarrow
loads of books. The people grunted, or groaned or sighed at the
sight of his documents. To read a scrap from each would occupy the
day. He commenced to speak at 10, and continued until 1 o'clock, and
before dismissing the audience, announced his intention to resume at
3 o'clock, and to speak again at night. A murmur of disapproval
spread throughout the house. An old Baptist brother cried out, "We
over here wish to hear Dr. Hall. Let him proceed at one." Mr. Lowrey
interfered saying, “The people are tired and want their dinner.”
“Take the vote! Take the Vote!” cried a dozen voices. The excitement
was becoming intense. "Dr. Hall! Dr. Hall!" cried a hundred voices.
“Take the vote!" was repeated by as many. I quietly arose, and after
stating the circumstances as they had occurred, as the apparent
determination of Mr. L. to prevent my being heard. I
proposed that who disued me to proved (sic) at once and occupy to
time until 3 o'clock to hold up their hand. A boust {host} of hands
was stretched high up in an instant. The negative was proposed, and
seven hands were poked up, but were soon dropped. They were called
for again by several, that they might be counted. So I provided. Mr.
Lowery took his hat to leave, but Pres. Coit requested him not to
go, and he sat down.
I spoke one hour. I
literally played my opponent, for he deserved no quarters in the
estimation at his friends even. When I was done, he looked
lightning-seathed and thunder riven. So I concluded, the people
simultanious arose and rushed for the doors. The house was soon
empty. Mr. L. cried out as the people scrambled out; that he would
resume the discussion at night.
In the mean time,
owing to the pressure of public sentiment, his brethren induced Mr.
L. to give me night about with him. (sic)
During the entire
discussion, which continued several nights. Mr. L. came loaded with
books. I had two—my Bible and Hymn book. I foundered for no others.
"Truth crushed to
earth, will rise again.
The eternal years of
God are hers;
But error, wounded,
writhes with pain.
And dies amid her
worshipers."
When I was through
with Mr. L. I went down to Eddieville and took water for Florence,
Ala. and, with my little family reached my wife's father's in due
time, although I was taken sick on the way, and so continued for
several weeks after reaching Ala.
Just as I was able to
be up a little, my wife was taken ill; and after a sickness of six
weeks to a day, she fell asleep in Jesus just as the setting sun
kissed adieu to our hemisphere.
To dwell on the sad
scene would be painful to me, and unprofitable to my readers.
Suffice it. Suffice it to say, she was baptized for remission of her
sins shortly after our marriage, and from that time till the day of
her death exemplified in her walk the power of the gospel, and the
purity, benevolence, and excellence of the religion of Christ. She
committed the caring and training of her babes just two years old to
two of her sisters, who performed well the task enjoined upon them
by their dying sister. When they were about twelve years old the
sworn time-of water and the Spirit into the kingdom of God. With my
own hands I buried them with Christ in baptism. From that day onward
they imitated the example of their sainted mother. One of them has
gone to rejoin her in the heavens. The other is still holding her
steady course towards her heavenly home. Thanks be to God for his
goodness.
As the result,
visible, of our labors in Princeton, I may mention the obedience of
some of the College Students and others, among whom I name Smith
Doolin and bro. Boggs. Brother Strut of Christian County, now a
distinguished minister of Christ, and the late Judge Maddel, of
Texas, and other students were convinced of the truth, but did not
at the time obey the gospel, but did so subsequently.
A few weeks after the
death of my wife I set out on horseback for West Tenn. to practice
Dentistry and to preach the gospel. I visited Purdu, Denmark,
Brownsville, Corrington, and Randolph. I was quite successful in my
profession, and did a good deal of preaching. At some points I hired
a house and {??} ton, purchased candles and preached—all at my own
expense. I sowed broad-cast the seeds of truth.
In the fall I
returned to see my children, and after spending a few days with
them, set out for Pulaski, Tenn., where I remained through the
winter practicing my profession and preaching when occasion offered.
I returned in the spring to see my children and friends; and after a
brief stay with them, took the stage at Florence for Memphis, where
I remained a few weeks, and then took a boat for the mouth of White
river, on my way to Little Rock, Ark. After a travel from there
sometimes in a yak, sometimes on horseback, and in a miserable hack,
I reached Little Rock, in safely and in good health, and soon
commenced the practice of Dentistry, and did well as long as I chose
to practice there.
In Little Rock I
found a small Baptist Church of the Eillite stripe, governed by the
Philleion Faith. They overseared a meeting house, the only one at
that time in the place. They requested me to preach for them. I
cheerfully consented to do. After a few discourses, the crowds that
came to hear were great. An interest was created-such, I was
informed, as had not before been experienced. Presbyterians,
Methodists, Baptist, and all, spoke of my corning as providential.
I was on the eve of leaving. A boat was at the wharf; my trunk was
packed; my tavern bill paid, and all ready for me to leave. I
stopped into the parlor to trace leave of a few lady friends. When
sister Leal, a Baptist, began to plead with me not to go, saying I
had the ears of that people as no one ever had before; that the way
was open for me to be eminently useful, and that she thought it
would be wrong for me to leave. She followed up her arguments with
soft persuasion, such as none but a pious mother in Israel can use,
accompanied with a gush of tears. I was completely overcome,
convinced, persuaded, and yielded to her solicitations. I consented
to remain, however, on condition that I should be allowed, and free
to preach my sentiments freely. Several of the more prominent
members of the church present yielded their hearty consent for me to
do so. I then took boarding at the house of a W. W. Stevenson, a
Cumberland Presbyterian preacher and whose wife was a worthy and
prominent member of the Baptist Church. I locked up my dental
instruments, and went to work in earnest preaching almost every
night in the week and twice on Lord's day.
The 4th of July was
at hand. I announced that I would preach on that day on Christian
Union. The day arrived, and the hour for preaching had come. I
reached the house and found it literally packed from the door to the
pulpit, lower floor and gallery. I wormed my way to the pulpit.
Expectation was on tiptoe; but no one present had any idea of the
terms I would propose for the union of all Christians. Ministers of
all the denominations were present-Methodist, Old and Cumberland
Presbyterian, and Baptist. After surging and prayer, I read the
133rd Psalm "behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to
dwell together in unity." I spoke near two hours, acid the audience
listened, from the beginning to the close, with fixed attention, and
apparently with the deepest interest. I then walked down out of the
pulpit, and taking a position on the floor, and holding up the
Bible, inquired how many were willing to unite on that precious
book, and together battle for the truth of God, for the Scriptural
union of Christians, and for the conversion of the world? The crowd
being too dense for any material change of position, it was
suggested that those favorable to such a union and were willing,
there and then to go into the organization, should hold up their
hand. Every Baptist in the house and several Presbyterians and
Methodists raised their hand. Their names were taken. We met again
in the afternoon, when an opportunity was given for any who might
wish to make the good confession. Several came forward, when we took
their confession and the confession of those who had given their
names in the morning, who had not been immersed. We then repaired to
the river Arkansas just below the town, and in presence of a large
concourse, they were buried with their Lord in baptism.
Up to this time all
parties had been friendly, and the preacher of all parties had stood
by me and incouraged{sic} my efforts. No one had as yet expressed
any dissent or uttered a word in opposition. But this new
movement-this union on the Bible created alarm in the ranks of
sectarianism, and was the signal for attack. The cry of
"Campbellism" was raised; the remaining fragments of each party
moved off under their respective file-leaders, and war was fully
inaugurated. I continued to preach, and at almost every meeting we
had accessions from the world and the sects, until nearly every
Methodist and Presbyterian in the place united with the Church of
Christ. Their organizations were completely broken up. No party had
members enough to form even a nucleous. Their meetings were sparcely
attended, so completely had they lost cause with the people.
But as yet, brother
Stevenson had not taken his stand with us, although fully convinced
of the truth and correctness of our position. Several of his friends
were ready to unite, but were waiting for him. Everything was ripe,
as I assured him, but he could not see it. He was waiting to get
them all. Finally, when the tide was beginning to ebb, he perceiving
it, united with us. But not one followed him at the time. He was
disappointed and mortified. He then saw his error and confessed it;
but it was too late to repair it.
Still, however, the
work went on, until 49 nine {sic} were immersed, and many who had
been immersed among the sects united, making in all some 85 members.
In the meantime, at
the salutations of numerous brethren and friends, my discourse on
Christian Union had been written out and published, and was being
extensively circulated.
About this time, a
brother Clark, who was the pastor of the Church at the time I came
to the place, and who had joined the opposition after the 4th of
July Discourse, came to inform me that he was "converted." He had
investigated the subject, and had become convinced we were right. He
was then living on the Saline and preaching to a Baptist Church
there some 33 miles from the Rock. He now entered, heartily into the
work and became an efficient preacher, but died soon afterwards.
A David Orr, a
Baptist preacher, who had been a member of the Legislature, and who
lived some distance away, heard of the work going on in and around
Little Rock, came to see after the little flock. He came to Judge
Caldwell's where he had boarded the winter before, when in the
Legislature. Sister C. had long been a Baptist, and the Judge had
become a Christian. He sent for me to come to see him. Scarcely was
I seated when he informed me he had heard of the strange work in
Little Rock, and had come about 60 miles to see about it; and either
to oppose or assist, he did not then know which; and requested me to
give him all the particulars of our position. I proceeded to do so.
He was silent. I asked him to say what he thought of it? He
answered: "I want to hear you preach before I can give an answer." I
had an appointment for that night and the next morning and evening.
For the sake of bro. Orr., I went back and passed briefly over the
ground of difference between us and the Baptists. When I had done I
asked bro. O. to speak. "Not now, I am not ready yet," was his
prompt and brief reply. I told him I would give him his own time.
After we had had several interviews and much conversation; or
rather, after he had asked me a hundred and one questions, which I
endeavored to answer, without his answering me once, or in any way
committing himself, or even expressing an opinion even, he let we
know he was ready to preach; but utterly refused to intimate to me
or anyone else, that I could hear of, the course he intended to
adopt, or what position to assume—whether that of a coadjutor, or
opponent. The appointment was made, and large audience was
convinced. I was there with paper and pencil to take notes. All
appeared to know the attitude of things and were eager to hear.
He began by giving a
statement of his previous position, and a brief history of matters
from the time he had heard of my {????} Little Rock until that hour;
and stated the points on which he had elicited my views and
position, and proceeded to say he would now tell what he thought of
it all. Here he paused for some moments, and threw his eye over the
audience. Preachers of all the denominations were before him. He
seemed to be considerably agitated; the muscles of his face
quivered; he opened his lips, his mouth, and drew a long breath, and
said; "I believe Dr. Hall is right. I am with him; and, henceforth,
I intend to battle by his side!" This announcement thrilled the
whole house, and was like the sudden shock of an earthquake. He was
fully committed to the Reformation of the 19th Century.
The following week we
went to the assistance of bro. Clark on Saline, and fully organized
the Church of Christ there. The next week I was to go with him to
Batesville to open the cause before the Baptist Association that was
to meet there at that time; but was prevented by a sudden and severe
attack of billious fever from which I did not fully recover until
about the middle of December, and which came well nigh terminating
my earthly existence, and would have done, no doubt but for good
nursing and medical. Brethren Clark and Orr, however, went and
sowed much good seed in that part of Ark. They took with {them} a
number of copies of my Discourse. Some twenty five years afterwards
I met a bro. Stuckland in Texas, who informed me that that Discourse
converted him from Baptistism to Christianity. He was a noble man,
an able preacher, and did much good. He has finished his labors, and
now sleeps in Jesus.
Being still in a
feeble, lingering condition, unable to regain my strength, I
concluded to visit Cuba. I had, during the time I was in Little
Rock, over-taxed my strength. I preached almost constantly day and
night, either in the town or in the country. During the hot summer,
I preached nearly every night; and would go, wet with perspiration,
and exhausted, from the pulpit into the water to immerse new
converts to the truth. And the congregations were generally so large
that the colored people were quite crowded out. There was a gallery
to the house, but it was too small to contain over a tythe of those
who desired to hear. So that, at their request, I set apart one
night in each week to preach to them. From the first a few white
people attended on those occasions; but the number continued to
increase, until the colored people, after filling the gallery, were
quite crowded out of the house. One night I complained of this, and
that I preached to them five or six nights in the week and only one
to the colored people: and that, if they would come on that night,
they must go to the gallery. After meeting a gentleman asked me if I
knew why so many white people came to hear me when I preached to the
blacks? I told him I did not, and was surprised that they did so. "I
will explain it," he continued. "You preach better to the negroes
than you do to us. Your illustrations are more simple and pointed,
and your language more familiar." This suggested to me a new idea
about preaching—to aim low—, and I resolved that, henceforth, I
would use more simple language, and would illustrate by common-place
figures, and aim more directly at the heart. I have continued to do
so ever since and found it to be the more successful course. I
endeavor to speak to the understanding of children. No one, of
ordinary capacity now, as far as I know, complains that he cannot
understand me.
About the third
Lord's day in December 1832. I delivered in a sitting posture, being
unable to stand, my farewell discourse to the Church and people of
Little Rock, and took a boat for New Orleans; and after spending a
few days in the cressent {sic} City, I set sail, in a Spanish
Schooner for Cuba, and in a few days entered the port of Havanna
under the frowning height and threatening cannon of Mora{Moro?}
Castle. Heaving came from a city where it was supposed there was
Colera {Cholera}, we anchored out in the bay, under a tropical sun,
where we lay in quarantine{sic} for several days, when we were
permitted to approach the bay. After some delay and much trouble,
the passengers were allowed to go ashore and enter the city. This
was the first time I had ever been to sea, and was deathly sick
during the voyage, and ate nothing of consequence the whole time. I
was rejoiced and delighted to get on land once more, but found it
difficult to walk erect and steady for some time. I took lodgings at
Mrs. Howard's. A fashionable American boarding house in the city,
where we had fine, accommodations, and had an opportunity of meeting
with naval officers of all nations-generally, as intelligent,
affable, and courteous gentlemen, as a class, as I had ever met
with.
I spent the winter in
Havana and vicinity, and had an opportunity of visiting all places
of note and interest in and about the city. Here we saw Romanism
without any disquise {sic}, or restraint, on the garb it wears in
Protestant countries, Yes, I saw it in its nudity. I visited the
great Cathedral. I was through the public garden, and saw the
tropical fruits hanging on the trees and shrobs{sic}-coffee,
oranges, bananas, cocoa nuts, plantain, etc. etc.
Next spring (1833) I
returned to the U. S. and landed at Wilmington, N. C. where I found
a small Baptist Church, ministered to by an old preacher of the
name of Gregg. I remained here a short time; gave Elder Gregg a copy
of the discourse preached in Little Rock, which he read; and was so
much pleased with it that he took around and read it to his
brethren, and induced the church to abandon their human creed, and
to be governed henceforth by the Scriptures alone. Here I delivered
only a few discourses. On Lord's day morning after I landed I went
to the Baptist Church, and after hearing bro G. deliver a sensible
discourse, I introduced myself to him and showed him a number of
letters from Baptist ministers, recommending me as a minister. On my
consenting to speak, he announced to the audience that I would
preach that night, and stated that I was from Ky. Returning from the
meeting in the morning in company with a Dr. ---- whose acquaintance
I had made, he asked me if he correctly understood Mr. G., to say I
was from Ky.?" I told him I was from Ky. "Why, I thought," said he,
"that the Kentuckians were all flatboatmen and hog-drovers!" I did
not know that any of them were preachers!" He manifested about as
much intelligence, and knowledge the much as did an Episcopalian
lady a few days afterwards. She asked me where the Mississippi
Valley was! I told her it embraced a large scope of country, several
states and territories, and enumerated some of them, and among
others named Ky. "My," said she, "I thought the people of the
Mississippi Valley were heathens; and I have been contributing money
every year to Christianize the heathen of that country." I told her
I lived in that country, and was a pretty fair specimen of its
inhabitants. "Well! well!" she responded, "If you are a specimen of
the people who live in that country, they will get no more of my
money to send the gospel there: for I learned more about
Christianity from the discourse I heard you preach last night than I
have learned from our minister in the last twelve months."
The novelty of a
preacher from Ky. brought out more than could get into the Baptist
church house; and I was politely invited to occupy the much larger
Presbyterian house. It was here this lady heard me. Nothing special
resulted from my preaching here, however. Indeed, I did not remain
long enough to make an effort, although I had crowded houses when I
did speak.
Auburn was the next
point that l made. Here I became acquainted with Elder Armstrong,
Pastor of the Baptist Church, who was favorably disposed towards Mr.
Campbell's teachings. At his request wrote for the C. Baptist and M.
Harbinger to be sent to him, he afterward removed to Miss. and I
understood became a great enemy to what he was pleased to call
C-ism. I spoke a few times in his church, but without any especial
result.
My next stopping
place was Washington, D, C., where I remained some weeks, preaching
and practicing my profession. There were a few Baptists here, but no
church. They however, had a house where I preached with considerable
success; baptized a number of persons, and organized a church on
the Bible.
During my stay at
this place, I was visited by Gen. Clark, a Baptist minister of some
distinction; a man of wealth, who had been for sometime a reader of
A. B's{C’s} writings, and was favorably disposed towards their
teaching. He had, however, never heard the ancient gospel, and asked
me to preach on the 2nd Chap. of Acts and 13th N. I did so. He told
me afterwards he preached the same all around a long list of
appointments he then had with some success. He afterwards removed to
Miss, and executed a good influence in the city of Jackson and
vicinity. He was a good man; lived many years, but time since passed
away to his rest.
I next went to
Edenton on the Albemail sound, where I made the acquaintance of
Elder Thomas Meredith, who had been seven years of the Baptist
Church there. Here I fully presented the gospel, and preached
baptism for remission of sins. Quite a number believed it and were
immersed for remission. Bro. M. told me he had often preached the
same things there, as others also informed me; but so as not to
create any interest, because he never called on the people to accept
it and at once to obey the gospel. As his last year had just
expired, the Church had the impudence, against my protestations, to
choose me for their Pastor, for I told them I could not accept the
position and it was the cause, as I assured them would be the case,
of their losing their preacher. He, accordingly left them, and
removed to Roughigh, where, for many years, he edited the {???} in which he published several articles in favor of baptism in order
to remission of sins.
I next {went} to
Norfolk, VA. where I became acquainted with the late Dr. Howell,
then Pastor of the church in that city. After showing some letters
speaking favorably of me as a Baptist minister, I frankly told him
I agreed with Mr. A. Campbell in all his teachings in which he
differed from the Baptists. After asking me what I believed on
certain points and receiving my answers; he said my views differed
but little from his own; and that, if I would preach them without
saying anything about Mr. C. there would be but little, if any
exception taken to my teaching. I, of course, told him I would do
so. He then requested me to preach, which I did; after which by his
request and the concurrence of the Church, I held a meeting of days
with the Church. The result was the addition of some 20 or more to
the church by baptism.
It happened that his
year was just closed with the Church, and the Deacons and others
consulted me in regard to my becoming their Pastor. I told them I
could not consent to do so. They continued to urge me to accept. I
still persisted, and requested them to drop the subject at once,
else they would lose their preacher as the Church at Edenton had
done. The matter, however, came to the ears of Mr. Howell, at which
he took offence, and went to Nashville, Tenn. I was the innocent
cause of his removing, which I regretted; for I did not think they
could find a man to suit them better. I often met with him
afterwards during his abode in Nashville. Our relations were
friendly, although he wrote some pretty severe things against me
after I left Norfolk, and stated that I had deceived him; which,
however, was a mistake. I hope he was a good man, notwithstanding,
and I desire to meet him in heaven, where all mistakes will be
rectified and our differences forgotten.
From Norfolk I went
to Washington City, where I preached some time to the Savy Ward
Baptist Church, and added some thirty to their number. This church
was without a pastor. They called me to take charge of the Church,
offering one a living salary. But I declined, and went to Baltimore,
where I stopped only a few days, when I set out to see Bro. Campbell
at his Bethany home. I stopped off the stage at Clayvillage some ten
miles from Bethany, and sent a request to bro. C. to send me a horse
to go to his house, he sent me a horse with a note requesting me to
meet him at his brother-in-law's near Middleburg, Pa. wishing me to
accompany him the next day to Pittsburgh, and thence to Braddock's
field where he had an appointment. I cheerfully complied with his
request, and was conducted, through a heavy rain, by bro. Bryant on
to bro. McMuner's, where we arrived that night. But owing to the
rain bro. C. did not get there that night. This was a great
disappointment to me, as I had never met him, and was anxious to
enjoy that pleasure. The time, however, passed agreeably with that
intelligent, pious and pleasant family. The night wore away; the day
dawned, and the sun arose unclouded; breakfast-time came and
passed, and bro. C, had not arrived, but was momently expected. An
agreeable conversation sprang up and arrested the attention of the
little circle, and for a time everything but the topic under
discussion was forgotten. At a moment when the attention of all was
fixed, Mrs. M. looked out through the window, and exclaimed: "Yonder
comes bro. A--now!" I cast my eye in the direction she was looking,
and caught sight of a rather tall and stout-looking figure,
approaching the house. His step was somewhat quick, elastic, regular
and firm. His dress attracted my attention. He had on a mixed janes
surteut coat, white, slouched hat, rather broad brim, and not a very
high crown; the brim was broken loose from the crown on one side,
and flopped down over his ear. He had in his hand a large palmetto
walking cane, with ivory head. He was, as I supposed, some six feet
high, and a little stooped. By the time I had taken this eye-sketch
of him, he was at the door, and met by his sister with an
affectionate greeting. The first question he asked her was, "Is bro.
Hall here?" He was answered in the affirmative, and asked to walk
into the parlor. I need not say I was seized suddenly with a
palpitation at the heart, and that I felt a kind of choaking
sensation about my throat; that my hand grew suddenly cold, and my
lips dry, and that I had rather strange sensations as he entered the
parlor door and flashed upon me his keen dark-blue eye, and in an
instant scanned me from head to foot, as I stepped to meet him,
introduced by his sister. Evidently perceiving my embarrassment, he
kindly asked me to be seated. His features were animated, and his countence{sic} indicated feelings of gentleness, humility and
kindness. He beamed upon me a gracious smile, and in tones of
affection, and in a voice of tenderness, asked after my health.
Common-place topics occupied us until he was called to breakfast.
Breakfast over, he seemed in haste to get off, as the distance to
Pittsburgh, which he determined to reach that day, was considerable,
and the road rough and rocky. Taking leave of the family, we mounted
our horses, and were on our way to the coal-smoked city.
Our road lay over
mountains, across streams, along hollows and among rocks, and
sometimes, through mud.
Without intending me
to perceive it, he introduced such topics of conversation as would
lead me to express my views on a variety of subjects. The arts, the
sciences generally, medicine, chemistry, botany, physiology-all were
introduced, and briefly discussed; as well as Astronomy, Geology,
History, {???} and propane, all had a share in our conversation. Now
and then, as we passed under some frowning precipice, or stood upon
some lofty emmince{sic} that overlooked the country for miles
around, dotted with houses, Mr. Campbell discant{sic} in the most
eloquent terms, on the Majesty, Power, and Goodness of the All-wise
Creator, whose fiat spoke into being the stupendous Universe with
its teaming millions of sentient inhabitants. After dwelling for a
time on the Greatness and Glory of the Infinite Jehovah, in language
loftier than I had ever heard before; he would pour out the earnest
devotions of his full heart in humble thanksgiving for his
consideration and goodness to the children of men. The love of God
to fallen, ruined man, was a theme upon which he delighted to dwell.
Such eloquence I had not heard before. There was no effort to be
eloquent. So natural and unastentatious was his whole manner, that
more than once I asked myself, I wonder if he knows he is eloquent?
His was no tinsel eloquence—the flowers of rhetoric gathered,
assorted, and arranged in beautiful order, like a {???}; it was the
eloquence of thought, of the grandest ideas expressed in the most
vigorous language. His ideas welled up from the profoundest depths
of his great heart, all aglow with love, reverence and gratitude to
the Great God and Father of our spirits, and the Creator of all
things.
Mr. C's conversations
enlarged my views and elevated my thoughts of God and divine things.
He gave me, without intending it, or thinking of it, new conceptions
of God and Providence, and of the scheme of redemption. My feelings
of devotion were called into new and higher exercise than they were
want, and I felt that my heart was made better. My thoughts were
kept so constantly amid scenes of beauty and grandeur, that I had no
sense of weariness; and we entered the city late in the evening with
no sensation of fatigue. As it was too late to hunt up any of the
brethren, we put up at a hotel. I slept soundly, and next morning
felt quite refreshed.
On Lord's morning we
set out for Braddock's field, accompanied by several brethren. On
reaching the place, we found a large audience assembled to hear Mr.
C. There was no meeting-house; but a stand had been erected and
ample provision made to seat the great concourse drawn together by
the fame of the preacher—for he had never been there before. He
asked me to participate in the speaking, but I declined. I came to
hear-to hear Mr. Campbell.
He read the four
versions of the Commission, and discoursed on the
Gospel-identifying it by its attributes, its facts, command and
promises, its arrangement, etc. The day was cold, it being late in
September, and the wind was blowing in the speaker's face. He
spoke, however, nearly two hours. But he fell somewhat short of my
high expectations. From his writings I had formed lofty conceptions
of his powers. The effort was not up to my standard, although
characterized by perspicuity of statement, logical argument, and
conclusive reasoning. But his voice seemed cracked and soon became
hoarse by speaking in the wind. And, yet it was a fine discourse—the
best of the kind I had then heard, but not to be compared to many
which heard him deliver afterwards.
Mr. C. had left an
appointment for Pittsburg at night, and had associated my name with
his in the announcement against my protestations, and insisted that
I should preach, which I was not willing to do. The people knew
nothing of me, and I was well aware that it was Mr. C. they expected
and desired to hear.
The brethren in
Pittsburg were at that time quite primitive in their practice, even
in the holy kiss, and in their house of worship as well. Its
architectural style was something after the from{form} of a
Pennsylvania barn; about square, and the ceiling about eight feet
high. The house was not plastered, and was lighted by a few candles
stuck up around the walls. The seats were low benches without backs.
There was, of course, no pulpit; for the speaker was intended to be
in all respects on a level with the people. A small table, a pocket
bible and a single candle distinguished the place he was to occupy.
The house, though large, was filled when we entered the house, isles
and all, if indeed it is lawful to call the passways by that name,
and we had no little difficulty in worming our way to the further
side of the house when a dim taper was burning. Many of course were
compelled to stand, unable to find seats.
Mr. C. had decided
that I must preach, and from his decision there was no appeal. One
alternative, however, suggested itself. I could not speak to that
audience without being a little elevated above the heads of the
standing masses, and at once resolved not to make the attempt; and I
told bro. C. so. If I had to speak, I must have a platform on which
to stand. Bro. C. stated my determination to some of the brethren. I
saw they did not like it; but they could not help themselves. Bro.
C. decided not to speak, and threw the responsibility on me. I
determined not to speak without a platform on which to stand. Some
of the most "primitive" of the brethren showed no little chagrine;
{sic} but after some whispering among themselves, two or three of
them worked their way out of the house, but soon returned with a hat
box which they brought in, carrying it above the heads of the
standing crowd. On this I stood and spoke some 35 or 40 minutes from
Rom. 10:1-10. When I had concluded, Bro C. arose and spoke about as
long on the same subject. His remarks were fine, appropriate and
impressive. His voice was much better than in the morning in the
open air. I had carried my discourse to the extent of my knowledge
of the passage. Bro C. commenced where I had concluded and went
further than my thoughts had ever reached. He had the happy faculty
of evolving from a passage of Scripture more than any one I ever
heard.
Next morning we set
out for Bethany. And immediately bro. C. set in to making
arrangements for a tour east of the mountains, into Eastern No.
Baltimore and Phil. It was his request that I should accompany him
on this tour. We accordingly set out, as well as I now remember,
about the 1st Oct., 1833. An account of our trip was written by bro.
C. and published from time to time in the M. H.
I remained in
Baltimore until I saw bro. C. off to Phil. I went with him and after
taking leave of him and his company, I went ashore and remained on
the wharf until the boat started. The lost bell had rand, (sic) the
steam was up. The captain standing on the upper deck, cried out haul
in the plank; loose the cable. Just then I heard the cry; "All
aboard." In an instant, the boat moved off, and was soon under way,
as a thing of life. Scarcely was it out of reach of shore when I
heard the cry: "Hold on a minute, Captain, and let me aboard. You
are taking off with my wife and children; I want to go with them."
Looking around, I saw men and women running, carpet-sack in hand,
and hailing the boat, anxious to get aboard. But the Captain heeded
not their calls, and cries and intreaties. {sic} The boat sped on,
and was soon out of sight. The boat had remained at the wharf until
the hour announced to leave—the last moment of the time allotted.
When that time had expired, it left. Many who intended to go on the
boat that day, were left. They congregated on the wharf in groups
and lamented their sad fate. Some mentioned the reason of their
delay. One said he would have been on time but that he was a
candidate for some office, and called in at a coffee-house to treat
some of his friends. Another was delayed attending to a matter that
should have been arranged long ago. One thought there was no need
to hurry, supposing he would be on time. Another had slept too late.
Thus, I thought it will be when the danger of the trumpet of doom
shall break upon an astonished world. The great mass of mankind will
be in eager pursuit, each of favorite scheme—all seeking worldly
gain. Some seeking fame, some in hot pursuit of wealth; some seeking
pleasure in mirth and dissipation: but few looking out for the
coming event, and none expecting the day at hand: when sudden as an
earthquake or an unexpected peak of thunder, the cry shall be
heard: "Time shall be no longer." Then the nations under ground
shall begin to stir and spring to life. The judgment shall sit, the
books shall be opened, and every one shall be rewarded according to
his works.
During our stay in
Baltimore several were added by baptism. The number, if I remember,
was reported in the M. H.
From the first
discourse I heard Mr. C. deliver until the last during our visit to
Baltimore, he continued to rise in my estimation of him as a
speaker, until I was ready to exclaim: "The half had not been told
me!" He was greater than I had imagined. And I say now, after an
intimate acquaintance of over twenty years, and during that time
having heard him deliver hundreds of discourses; I feel compelled to
say of him, Take him as a man, and as a writer and speaker:
"Take him all in all,
He ne'er shall look upon his like again."
From Baltimore I went
to Washing {Washington} City, where I remained the greater part of
the winter 1833-4. While there I frequently visited the two houses
of Congress, and had the opportunity of hearing the great Statesmen
on the leading questions which at that time agitated the Country. In
the Senate I heard Misters Webster, Clay, Calhoon, Benton and
others, and in the lower House Mc Guffee and numerous others. While
there I learned of my father's death. He left me nothing by his
will; nor was I disappointed, as I did not expect anything; for such
was our contract some twelve years before; and I was willing to
abide by it.
Late in the winter I
started towards Ky.; stopped a few days in Fredericksburg, VA. where
I spoke a few times and immersed a lady after meeting the last
night, and took the stage at Goelack P.M. for Charlottesville, where
I remained a few weeks preaching in the Baptist Church, and baptized
several persons. Here I made the acquaintance of brethren Coleman
and Goss, then Baptist ministers, but fully imbued with primitive
Christianity. They soon afterwards took sides with the Reformation,
as did also a good many of the church there.
During my stay in
Charlottesville I paid a visit to Monicello, {sic} long the
residence of Thomas Jefferson. I visited the Va. University also,
situated near the town.
Leaving
Charlottesville on the stage, I came on through {???}, Lexington,
etc. and was anxious to visit the natural bridge, one of the great
curiosities of Va., a remarkable freak of nature, but was prevented
by circumstances. Coming by the Hawk's next, or Marshall's Pillar,
on New River, the stage stopped long enough for us to see that
wonderful precipice. It was fearful to stand on the precipice and
look over the brink, I know not how many hundreds of feet and see
the water rushing over the rocks. Our next stopping place was
Charleston on the Vanhover, in the neighborhood of the great
Salt-works of the same name. Lacking water here, I went on down to
Maysville, Ky., where I took the stage and went to Gen. Metcalf's,
and thence to Moorfield, still the home of my dear venerable mother.
I will state here
that my youngest sister, who had joined the Baptists, and my mother
both left the Baptists and united with the Church of Christ, of
which they both died members. My oldest brother Cornelius, and my
second brother, Levi F. both joined the Reformation, and were
Bishops of the Church of Christ when they died. My brother Jerry
next older than myself is still living (1869) and a member of the
Church of Christ, as is also my youngest brother.
After remaining some
time with my mother and bro. B. W. Hall who was then living with my
mother, and visiting some of my kin in that section, I went to
Paris, KY. to practice my profession and preach what I could. While
here I visited the church at old Caneridge, South Middletown,
Millersburg, Carlisle, Coopersrun, Mt. Carmel and other places and
preached the ancient gospel. I also preached in Paris, and had the
happiness of being present when those among the Baptists who
sympathized with Mr. C. and the Old Christian church, formed a union
on the Bible, and henceforth were one people. About a year ago I was
at Paris, and learned that nearly all the old members had crossed
the Jordan. A few who formed that union still live in other
countries—Bro. Heiran Bledoe, for instance, who now lives in Mo.
From Paris I went to
Georgetown where I made the acquaintance of the noble John T.
Johnson and others, and found the venerable Stone still editing the
Christian Messenger, having associated with him bro. J. T. Johnson.
Here I opened an office and pursued my profession, and in company
with bro. Johnson visited the Churches at Dryrun, Stamping-ground,
Great Crossing, Canerrun, and several others, and had the happiness
of seeing many persons in a short time become obedient to the faith.
This was in the year 1834. This fall bro. B. W. Stone removed and
took his paper with him, to Jacksonville, Ill. Whereupon bro.
Johnson and myself issued a prospectus for the Gospel Advocate, the
publication of which was commenced in Jan. 1834, at Georgetown, KY.
In the meantime we
continued to preach generally pretty much all over that country, and
sowed broadcast the seed of truth, which has continued to grow and
flourish ever since. Indeed many a rich harvest has been gathered
since then in that goodly country.
In the autumn of that
year, I visited New Castle, Henry County, and in eight days added to
the Church there and at Palmyra, some four miles distant,
seventy-five persons by confession and baptism. I visited
Shelleyville also, where many became obedient to the faith. At
Bloomfield likewise several bowed to the Prince of Peace; and at
numerous other places many were gathered into the fold of Christ. At
almost every point we visited, the truth triumphed.
The next year (1836)
removed to Lexington from which place the paper was issued. This
year I was appointed one of three Evangelists for the Counties of
Fayette, Woodford, Scott, and Jessamine. J. Creath Jr. and J. P.
Sancaster {Lancaster} were the other two. We did a great deal of
preaching, and added many to the army of the faith.
In the autumn I
removed to Woodford Co. and issued the G. A. at Versailles. After
the close of the second vol. bro. Johnson gave the paper up entirely
to me, and I associated with me bro. Wm. Hunter, a young, talented
and eloquent young preacher recently from the east. At his
suggestion we changed the title of the paper to "The Christian
Panoplist." After a short time I turned the paper over to him and he
became the sole editor and proprietor.
During this summer
(1836) I was sent for by bro. Johnson to go over to Madison County,
where he and others were gathering in a ripe, rich harvest of souls;
and having become wearied in but not of this excessive labors, they
needed help. I went promptly to their assistance, and saw many bow
to the Lord in the cause of a few weeks. Some hundreds—I forget how
many—in all were added to the army of the faith there during that
series of meetings. The number was reported in the various
periodicals.
In August of 1836 I
was married to Susan Ball of Woodford County, widow of John Ball;
which was the cause of my removing the Gospel Advocate to
Versailles. This event changed brought about many other changes
beside that of I this paper, the raped{rapid} transitions of which I
have mentioned. Instead of enlarging the sphere of my usefulness by
increasing my facilities for preaching, as I had anticipated it
would do, it increased the burden of my cares, and for a time forced
me from the field evangelical, in order to carry out the worldly
program of my wife, which she had determined upon prior to our
marriage, and which was in an attitude not then to be changed. She
had through her brother, John Mitchum, verbally contracted for land
in Miss. with the view of removing her negroes there and opening a
cotton farm. But the writings were not drawn till after our
marriage, and could not have been, owing to the fact that the papers
were not sent up from Miss. in time. When the agent of the gentleman
from whom the land had been purchased came with the papers, he sent
for my wife to go over to a neighbor's and get a deed for the land
and execute her notes for the purchase money. Instead of going
herself, she sent me as her legal representative, with verbal
instructions to have the deed made to me and for me to execute my
notes for the purchase money. On my inquiring where the money was to
come from to meet the notes—the land was bought on credit—she
replied she had had an Act passed by the Ky. Legislature authorizing
her to sell her farm in Woodford, and to invest the proceeds in part
in land in Miss. or elsewhere, and to purchase negroes with the
remainder to stock the farm; and that she intended to sell her farm
in the fall to meet these ends. Under these circumstances, I in my
own name, consummated the purchase.
Sometime early in
Oct., I think it was, by her direction I wrote out an advertisement
for selling the place, and started to have it published in a
Lexington paper. Meeting John Mitchum in Versailles, I as an act of
respect to him, showed him the advertisement. After reading it, he
said; "Susan cannot sell her farm." I asked him, why not? and told
him what she had stated to me about the act of the Legislature,
authorizing her to do so—for as yet I had never seen the Act. He
told me to go into the County Clerk's office and ask to see a Deed
of Trust which she had made just before our marriage, and I would
learn all about it. This was the first intimation I had had of the
existence of such an instrument, Some weeks before our marriage, she
had presented to me a Marriage Contract, and asked me to read. I did
so, and asked her if my signing that instrument was the condition of
our being married? She inquired why I asked her that question? I
answered promptly and emphatically, that, if my signing was to be
the condition on which we were to be married, we would never be
married; that I would not marry the Queen of England under such
circumstances. I had said to her before this that I supposed she was
aware that I had no property. She answered, she had enough for us
both; that her intention was to marry a man for his own sake, and
not for his property.
When I gave her to
distinctly understand I would not sign a marriage contract, she tore
it up in my presence, and said; "I wish you to know that this was
not my suggestion. Some of my friends urged me to name it to you;
that it could do no harm. But I was opposed to it, from the first,
and I am glad you had the independence to reject it. I will marry
you unfettered." The day for our nuptials was then fixed, and we
were accordingly married. Everything went on pleasantly until I
learned of the existence of the Deed of Trust, and had read that
strange instrument. It conveyed to John Mitchum in trust, for the
use and benefit of himself and children all her property real and
mixed, and gave as her reason for doing it, her contemplated
marriage to me. This instrument as I learned afterwards from the
witnesses was signed and delivered one hour before we were married!
So that I could not by any possibility, become possessed of a
knowledge of the transaction. She well knew that, if I found it
out, before we were married, I would not marry her.
I was now in a sad
predicament. I had executed three {????} several notes for three
thousand dollars ($300{sic} each,) payable in one two and three
years, with J. Mitchum as my security. Struck me afterwards as
peculiarly strange that he, with perfect knowledge of all the facts,
should have endorsed my notes. I could explain it only on the ground
that he was a party to the fraud that had been perpetrated on me.
On my mentioning to
my wife the Deed of Trust, she denied she had executed any such
instrument; and when I showed her the copy which I had procured from
the Clerk's office, she went into a fit of hysteria, occasioned, as
she stated afterwards by a discovery of the insult that had been
offered me, and the injury done me, but protested that the fraud had
been practiced upon herself as well as on me, overring that her
brother & G-C- had deceived her in regard to the nature and
influence of the instrument she signed.
My condition was
perplexing. 1. I was now indebt $9000 for land that I did not want,
and for which I had no use, especially as Mr. M. would not consent
for the negroes my wife then owned to be taken to the place. 2.
Confidence in my wife's veracity and integrity was materially
shaken; for her bro. John M. and both the witnesses stated the Deed
was drawn up at her solicitation, and that she had signed it with a
full knowledge of its contents and effects; and that the only
question with her at the time was whether it was strong enough!
While she averred that she signed only because of the importunities
of her friends, and that they had deceived in respect to its nature
and effects, in fact, that they told her it was a mere form with out
any force, just to gratify some of her friends! With this
understanding, she signed it.
I at once proposed to
Mr. Michum that he should take the land and meet the Notes, which I
assured him, and as he knew, I would not be able to do. But this he
refused at that time to do. I then looked around and finally found a
partner in the person of A. J. Glehinn of Lexington, who agreed to
furnish negroes worth $9000 and go in with me in the place as an
equal partner. We were to be equal in the expenses in improving the
place, feeding and clothing the hands, etc. We spent one year
clearing and fencing in one hundred acres, building cabins etc. At
which time my first note was unpaid, and I saw no prospect of paying
it. Dr. Chim, feeling himself honorably released from the contract
with me, asked for a recision. To which I could not but consent.
Mr. Mitchum, in the meantime, proposed to take the place and pay all
my notes. To this I cheerfully consented. He paid the first and
second, but became bankrupt without having paid the third. On this,
suit was brought against me, a judgment obtained, and execution
issued. This caused me great annoyance, considerable expense, and
considerably injured my reputation where the facts were not all
known, and crippled my influence. Nor was this the end of the
matter. We shall refer to it hereafter.
As I was the cause of
Dr. C's asking for a rescision of the contract, he required one to
pay all the expenses of the place, and the hire of his negroes for
one year. I was not exactly able to see the justice of this; but
rather than have a difficulty with him and my reputation as a
minister sullied, or a doubt to arise in respect to my honor, I paid
all he claimed. So much for my not knowing of the existence of the
Deed of Trust before I executed my notes for the land in Miss. I
carried out my wife's arrangements and wishes, at my own expense and
to the injury of myself only. So much, I thought I, for management
on one side and none on the other.
Finding that her
brother, or rather, that she had tied her own hands in carrying out
her intentions, my wife, claiming that her former husband's estate
owed her near six thousand dollars, requested me to call a meeting
of the County Com.: before whom she persented her vouchers, and got
the claim allowed. To enable her to get it out of the estate a
Decree of the Circuit Court was necessary. Hence suit was brought;
and her brother, the Trustee, admitting the justness of the claim,
made no defence, and the Decree was rendered for the amount claimed.
But this caused a difficulty afterwards, as I shall have occasion
to mention in its proper place.
In the meantime I
felt the disgrace of my condition. I was humiliated. A fraud had
been practiced upon me. That was clear and universally conceded. But
who was the guilty party? This, to my mind, was not so clear. My
wife protested her innocence, and her actions corroborated her
statement. Else why want me to consummate the purchase of the land
in Miss? Why did she marry me, if she did not love me? She supposed
I had no property of any description. Why, then, would she knowingly
practice such a fraud upon me? Had she done it, she knew I would
find it out sooner or later; and knew also, the effect it must have
upon me. Then all the other parties averred she did it with her eyes
open, and wanted it well done! But I inclined to believe my wife,
and resolved to do the best I could; to suffer the disgrace, and to
hear the reproach as patiently as possible. Hence for the sake of
Christianity, I suffered my mental agony. At one time seriously
meditated whether I should leave her at once, rather than suffer the
disgrace and agony of my condition. I had a legal right to abandon
her on account of the "marital fraud" practiced upon me. But several
difficulties interposed. 1. I was not certain that she intended to
practice the fraud; 2. I was doubtful whether it would not injure my
influence more to separate than to live with her, unless the world
was fully advised of all the facts. This information I was unwilling
to give. About this time I ascertained She was a woman. So,
upon the whole, I decided, of the two evils, to choose the one that,
at the time, to be the less. And, in truth, notwithstanding all, I
loved her, and for this reason I had married her.
In autumn of 1837, at
the suggestion of my wife, we rented out her place in Woodford for
the term of five years, and being called to the charge of the Church
in Lex. with the offer of four hundred dollars ($400) we removed to
that city, and I entered at once upon my labors. After the first
year they increased my salary to six hundred dollars. In the
meantime many were added to the church, and the cause we advocated
stood higher in public esteem. From this point I visited the
churches around Versailles, New Union, Winchester, Paris, etc.,
etc., and many were added to the Lord. At a meeting in Paris bro.
Dearborn, now Pres. of Princeton College, obeyed the gospel. Brother
Johnson and I paid a visit to Flemingsburg, at the solicitation of a
bro. Dr. McGuire and baptized about 40, among whom was my bro.
Nathaniel P. Hall, then an elder in the Presbyterian Church, and his
two daughters. They have all fallen asleep in Jesus, waiting for the
trumpet-peal that shall call them up in the first resurrection.
By Consent of the
Lexington Congregation, I spent one Lord’s {Day} at David's Fork,
and was invited to preach at night in the house of a member of the
Baptist Church. This gentleman was teaching a female school at the
time. His pupils were generally present, as were also many of his
neighbors, old and young. I discoursed on Eccl. 12:1-"Remember now
thy Creator in the days of thy youth," or, I saw that many wept,
especially the young. They seemed to be deeply moved.
Notwithstanding I was in the house of a Baptist. I felt it my duty
to invite persons to confess the Lord. I accordingly gave an
invitation. While the song was being sung, I noticed a conversation
going on between the Professor and one of his pupils, a young lady
about fourteen years old. They simultaneously rose up, she took his
arm, and he led her forward to confess the Lord. Before the meeting
closed that winter night, thirteen others—one young man and thirteen
young ladies, followed the example of that young lady, whose name
was Louisa. All were immersed next morning in a beautiful pond, in a
blue-grass pasture, after breaking the ice, which was about an inch
thick, We returned to the house, we all dined with the new-made
disciples and others.
When about to leave
for home that afternoon, the gentlemanly and christian Principal
called in my young sisters to take leave of me. When Louisa reached
me her hand, she said, "Farewell, Brother B. I wish you would come
to Cxxxxxxxxx and preach. I think you could do a great deal of good
there." The manner in which she addressed me, calling me brother;
although she belonged to a family, not one of which—father, mother,
sister or brother—was a member of any religious society, and she but
just introduced into the kingdom of Messiah; —the tone of her voice
her pleasant and animated countenance; the anxiety she manifested
for the community in which she lived; all struck me so forcibly, and
so won upon my heart, that I replied promptly: "I will be pleased
and indeed, delighted to do so, and, the Lord permitting, will,
provided you will attend the meeting and help me to convert your
friends." I paused. She hesitated; her eyes were cast down and
suffused with tears. For a few moments all was silence—not a word
was spoken by any one present. Then lifting her eyes and fixing them
modestly but steadily on her teacher, she answered: "I will be
delighted to attend the meeting, if Mr. T. will allow me to do so;
but I am sorry to say I cannot render you any aid in the meeting. I
wish I could, but cannot." Her eyes were still fixed on her teacher,
and she was evidently waiting in deep anxiety to hear what he would
say to her suggestion. Turning to her, he said, "I will not only
permit you to go. Louisa, but I myself will attend the meeting, and
take with me all the young ladies I can." "Then," said the delighted
Louisa, "give me the appointment, and I will send it by my father
this evening." The place was only a few miles distant, and her
father had been sent for, and had come to see his daughter baptized
and intended to return home that evening.
The appointment was
accordingly made, as I looked upon it as Providential. A few
Christians lived in and around the village; but it was a
neighborhood noted for infidelity, universalism, and dissipation. I
reached the place in time to meet my appointment, and found a good
audience in attendance, and Louisa among them, together with her
teacher and a number of the pupils.
The meeting went on
two or three days without any confessions, although the attendance
was large, attention fine, and the interest evidently deepening. One
morning at the close of the discourse, many were in tears. An
invitation was given, and a song commenced. Louisa, who was sitting
midway of the house, rose to her feet, walked down the isle, and,
going up to an elderly lady, and falling upon her knees before her,
threw her arms around her neck. For some time they wept in each
other's embraces. Suddenly Louisa sprang to her feet, and led
forward her dear old mother to confess the Savior. Her father was
sitting in another part of the house, weeping like a man! Louisa
started for him, but met her teacher who said: "Your father says he
will not come now," But he came the next day, as did also two of her
brothers and afterwards her only sister. All the family became
obedient to the faith; and ere the meeting closed upwards of fifty
joined the army of the faith—all directly or remotely influenced to
do so by the example or solicitations of Louisa. Nor did her
influence end with that meeting. It continues to this day, and
eternity alone will reveal the good which that one little saint has
done, and is still doing.
Alas! we have very
few Louisas now. Would there were more! Will not some dear little
girls who may read this story, become a Louisa?
I was desirous to see
young men entering the ministry, and found the affairs of the church
life-minded. They told me if I could find any young man in the
church that I thought would make a preacher, they would board him
among them, and pay his tuition and send him to school. We had quite
a number of young brethren members of the church. I was still
looking around to find one or more that I thought might succeed.
One night a social meeting, after several had prayed, an invitation
was given to anyone who might feel disposed to do so, to come
forward and read and pray. After a short pause a rather obscure
young man, Robert G. Rice, came forward and under great
embarrassment, read a chapter rather badly, and prayed. He was much
confused. He choked, and hesitated, mumbled his words; spoke as
though his mouth was full. His lips and tongue were dry. He
concluded. I had already, before he had blundered through his
prayer, fixed upon him for a preacher. He seemed so humble, so
earnest, so devout, that, although I did not suppose he would make a
great preacher, he might make a good pastor, and we needed many such
to take charge of our churches.
Soon as meeting (sic)
was dismissed, I reached my hand to the young brother, and told him
I wished to see him at my house next morning. He swallowed, and with
evident confusion inquired, at what hour? I replied: "At nine
o'clock", and bade him good night, as he told me he would come.
Next morning I sat in
my study absorbed in an interesting subject. The bell rang. A
servant entered my room and informed me Mr. Rice wished to see me.
"Invite him into my room," I said, scarcely remembering the
engagement. I told him to be seated, and began to talk in such a way
as to remove his embarrassment. Finally, I asked him how he would
like to be a preacher? After some hesitation, he said, to be a
preacher and a useful man, was his most ardent desire; that he had
sometime been thinking how he could accomplish his object; but that
so many difficulties presented themselves before him, he had finally
almost concluded to abandon the attempt altogether. He stated he
was poor; was a journeyman saddler; had but little education, and
saw no prospect of rising above his present condition. I told him we
would educate him, and board him while going to school. Some of his
difficulties were removed; but there was one that was insurmountable
which had not been mentioned. I insisted on his naming it, which he
hesitated to do, but finally told me he was engaged to be married
and mentioned the young lady's name. She lived near by in the city.
I insisted he should go at once and tell her all, and request that
their marriage be postponed until he had done going to school, at
least. He saw her, and like a good woman, she unhesitatingly agreed
to the proposition. Soon everything was settled, he would furnish
his own clothes by working at his trade of Saturdays. A brother Todd
would give him his tuition, and the brethren would board him.
He was soon at
School, and learning finely, He studied English Grammar, Logic,
Rhetoric, etc., etc.
In the meantime a
bro. G. N. Gaines concluded he also would prepare for the ministry.
He had a fair English education, and commenced a course of Biblical
study, reading Horn's Int. to the study of the Scriptures. Soon bro.
Rice was ready to enter upon the same studies. As bro. G. was
through a vol. bro. R. was ready to take it up.
While engaged in
their studies, I would take them with me to meetings around in the
country. They would sing, and pray, and exhort, and contributed much
to the successful results of our meetings. Their hearts were in the
work.
After reading with me
about twelve months, bro. Gaines went to Mo. and Bro. R. to Scott
Co. under instruction of the beloved Johnson. Both became eminent
and useful preachers. Bro. R. and I have held many successful
meetings together. At one of these meetings in Henry County, bro. W.
T. Moore; now of Cin. was converted and was baptized by one of us—I
forget which.
While I was in Lex.
the question of ordination by imposition of hands was sprung, which
for a time created considerable excitement, and alienated the
feelings of some brethren. I was for the ordination, which created
dissatisfaction on the part of some; and although the breach was
healed, I felt cramped, thinking some of the church were not
entirely satisfied. To remove all hinderances{sic} to a more perfect
union, I resigned the care of the Church about the middle of the
third year; and having been invited to hold a meeting with the
church in Louisville, I was called to the pastorship of that Church,
in the spring of 1840.
During my ministry in
Lex. something over one hundred were added to the church, and a
large proportion of them of the more intelligent part of the
citizinz. (sic) I labored hard for the church and received small
compensation in the way of support. But I do not complain. I look
for my reward in another life. Still the laborer is worthy of his
pecuniary reward.
While in Lexington I
was attacked with a very painful affection of the stomach, which
came on in irregular paraxisms. I consulted several physicians. Some
pronounced it one thing and some another. Their suggested treatment
was as different as their diagnosis. All, however, recommended light
diet. This I adopted; and, finally, reduced it to Boston crackers
and "tea-kettle tea", and occasionally a glass of sweet milk. This
was my principal diet for about two and a half years. Under this
regime I lost almost entirely any inclination to eat, and regretted
when I was summoned to my meals. My mental vision became clearer
than it had ever been; and I was enabled, during this period, to
perform more mental labor than I had ever done before, or than I
have done since. The best productions of my life were written
during this period. I preached and wrote out fifty discourses on the
truth and Divine authenticity of the Bible. Each discourse consisted
of one argument and each argument was based on an obvious and
universally conceded fact. The first was based on the following: The
idea of one only living and true God, self-existent, immutable,
unchangeable, and eternal, is in the world. Nay, it is an idea in
the minds of most men. This is universally conceded. The question
is, how did this idea enter into the world? To this question but
three answers can be given. 1. That it entered into the minds of men
by the aid of vaccination {???} by the process of reasoning. This I
denied. To sustain my position, I showed that reason was not an
inventive faculty; that it had to do with known truths and facts.
This point I argued at length.
The second answer to
the question: How did the idea of a self-existent, uncaused, eternal
and immutable first cause of all things enter into the human mind?
is, By Imagination. This l denied, and argued at some length. The
Third answer to the question, is by Revelation.
Having reached this
conclusion, I closed the argument for that time, and resumed it in
the next discourse under the proposition: The idea that this One God
has made a revelation, is in the world; and the question arises: How
did this idea obtain?
In this way I
proceeded through fifty arguments. But these discourses, and two
vols. of sermons and a work of some 600 pages nearly completed on
the Divine Law of Progress, etc., etc. were all consumed by fire in
Texas. This last work I had undertaken at the suggestion of brother
A. Campbell. After these papers were destroyed, I could never
reproduce them. In that Conflagration the labors of nearly twenty
years of the best part of my life were destroyed and will never be
reproduced.
But to resume the
thread of my narrative. In the spring of (1840) as above stated, I
removed with my family to Louisville, KY. to take charge of the
Church of Christ in that city, which then met on 5th St. but now
occupies a house on the corner of 4th and Walnut.
The church at that
time was in a rather depressed condition, owing to some difficulties
which had sprung up among them, and which resulted in the withdrawal
of a small party from the church. In these circumstances I began my
labors among. In a short time some of the disaffected returned to
the church, but others, headed by Dr. T. S. Bell, continued to hold
separate meetings during the period of my stay in the city—two
years and a half. My labors here were excessive.
I made it a rule to
visit every member of the Church, or all the families, once in three
months. I took them by streets. As they were much scattered, I had
to do a great deal of walking.
The following is a
program of the work which I inaugurated:
1. I arose early in
the morning, had family worship and breakfast, and three times in
the week was at market by day dawn.
2. Immediately on my
return entered my study, where I read and wrote till dinner, at 1
o'clock, p.m.
3. After dinner till
late in the afternoon, I visited the members and others.
4. Monday night
conducted the Bible-Class at the Church.
5. Tuesday night
attended social meeting in the upper part of the city.
6. Wednesday night
attended social meeting at the Church.
7. Thursday night met
with the social meeting in the lower part of the city.
8. Friday night met
the singing class at the Church.
9. Preached Lord's
day morning and night, and in the afternoon, met with the Church to
break the loaf, etc.
The result of this
procedure was—
1. The addition of
some 160 to the church under my labors and the assistance of others,
during the two and a half years.
2. Many of the young
brethren and others conducted the Social meetings by reading the
scriptures, prayers and exhortations.
3. Every family in
the Church had family worship.
4. The piety of the
Church was much improved.
During the time I
remained in Louisville, I preached frequently on Beargrass at the
house of Brother Alfred Herr, some 6 miles from the city, and
immersed about 60 persons, and constituted a church. They built them
a neat brick Church-house and continue to meet and keep the
ordinances.
I held several
meetings at Brevenerstoven, some 12 miles from the city, and added a
number to the Church. I paid several visits to Jeffersonville and
New Albany, La.{Ind.} and baptized many. I visited several other
places and gained many to the Lord.
During my stay in
Louisville, the church paid me punctually one thousand dollars per
annum, in four equal installments. Peace and harmony prevailed in
the Church. They were strongly attached to me, and I loved them
greatly.
In the fall of 1843,
owing to circumstances which I have never explained except to a few
brethren confidently, I tendered to the Church my resignation. They
were astonished and grieved when I announced my intention to leave
them. They wished to know my reason, but I could not give it. They
asked if my salary was not large enough? I told them it barely
supported me, but that that was not the cause of my leaving them.
Many were hurt at my leaving them, they have not got over it to this
day.
On leaving
Louisville, we returned to my wife's farm in Woodford County, Ky. 5
miles south of Versailles.
Shortly afterwards I
engaged to preach once a month for the celebrated old Caneridge
Church. I also preached at other places. All Lord's days were
occupied somewhere.
My domestic troubles
increased. My wife proposed to me to relinquish all my interest in
her farm and other property; and suggested that I should take my two
daughters by my first marriage, and support myself and them and
educate them, and that she would support and educate our three
children. I told her what would be the consequences of such a
course; That it would compell me to be the most of my time from
home; that I should be compelled to resume the practice of
Dentistry; and that it would soon be reported that we had
separated. But she persisted in her determination and resolved to
carry out her measures regardless of consequences. Pride and a
feeling of self-respect induced me finally to consent to her
proposition.
After travelling
around some time, preaching and practicing my profession, at which I
made a good living, she proposed to me to settle in Lexington and
practice Dentistry, proposing, if I would do so, she would come up
in the fall and live there with me. Anxious to have my family with
me, I consented to the arrangement. I accordingly opened an office
in Lexington, and visited her in Woodford generally every week.
Months passed, and she repeatedly put off the time appointed to come
to Lexington; and, finally, near the end of the year, informed me
she would not come at all!
I knew it would not
do for me to live in Lexington and her in Woodford; so I sold out at
considerable sacrifice, and again commenced travelling around,
preaching and practicing.
1844 Nashville
The next spring, she
proposed for me to settle in Nashville, Ten. and practice Dentistry,
promising to come and live with me there the ensuing autumn. Anxious
to be settled and to be with my family, I consented to do so. I
accordingly went to Nashville, rented a house, and furnished it at
considerable expense, and opened an office. I soon got a fine
practice, and made money. Early in the winter she came down and
stayed about six weeks. One day she told me she intended to return
home to Ky. the next day. This information astounded me. I asked her
if she was not at home? She answered no; that her home was in Ky.
and that she intended to go to it never to return to Nashville! I
reasoned; I expostulated with her, all to no purpose. She was
settled in her determination, and carried it out.
There I was in
Nashville with my two daughters, and my wife in Ky! I was miserable
beyond expression. What should I do? I could not remain there; that
would not do. But what to do, I could not determine.
In this state of
unrest, I was notified that I was appointed to a professorship in
the Medical College in Memphis. Owing to a disease of the throat, I
was unable to preach much. So I concluded to accept the appointment.
But as I had been some years out of the profession, I concluded to
go to Phileo. and attend a summer course of Sutures, and brighten
and post-op. I did accordingly. I received a diploma from the
Philadelphia College of Medicine, and also one from Dr. Meigs and
Warrington as an obstitrician.
In the meantime I was
informed by the Trustees of the Memphis School that things would not
be ready to open the School that fall, and receiving a letter from
Aberdeen, Miss. to come there and debate with a Universalist; I sent
up my resignation to the Trustees in Memphis, and wrote that I would
be in Aberdeen in October to hold the debate.
I returned to Ky. and
remained a few weeks with my family, and took the stage for
Nashville, where were my daughters. It was my intention to take them
with me as far as their grand-father Chrisholm's near Florence, Ala.
But they preferred to remain in Nashville. So I purchased a horse
and buggy, and set out for Aberdeen, which I reached in due time;
met my opponent, settled preliminaries, and held a six days
discussion—the third one with Universalists.
Among the preaching
brethren I met at Aberdeen were, bro. Caskey of Mis. and A. Graham
of Marian, Ala. At the solicitation of the latter, bro Caskey and
myself agreed to visit Marion. On our way we held a meeting at
Clinton, Ala. and gained some fifteen to the cause of truth. A few
became obedient to the truth in Marion.
Brother Caskey had a
string of appointments extending from Palo Alto, Miss, to Jackson,
and by his request, I accompanied him. In Jackson several obeyed
the gospel.
While at Jackson, I
learned the Colera{sic} was in New Orleans; and never having seen a
case of this mysterious malady, I concluded to visit the city and
learn what I could of the feel destroyer. Leaving my horse and buggy
with brother Gen. Clark in Jackson, I took the cars for Vicksburg,
and there a steamboat for New Orleans. On my arrival in the city I
first sought a hotel, and next the Colera wards of the City
Hospital. Here I found the Colera in all its stages, and in its
terrible malignity. Obtaining the assistance of three able
physicians and good anatomists, I commenced investigation into the
disease. We were two weeks in the hospital, dissecting a subject
every day, making observations and taking notes of each case. At the
expiration of this period, we were just as wise and knew about as
much of the Colera as we did in the beginning.
While in New Orleans,
I was frequently in the office of Warrick Martin, an exchange
broker. At his suggestion I concluded to pay a prospecting visit to
Texas with view of locating lands in the State. I accordingly took
a Steamer for Galveston. The second night after my arrival in
Galveston, I had an attack of Colera, but was relieved by the timely
aid of a physician, who was my travelling companion. In a few days I
was able to take a steamer for Arkansas Pass, the inlet to Corpus
Christe{sic}. I landed on Indian Island, where I had another attack
of Colera, but relieved myself with medicine prepared for me by my
physician in Galveston. There were but two families living on this
island, and they were not on speaking terms.
In a few days I had
recovered sufficiently to be able to go in a sail-boat to Sarnar, a
small village at the head of Arkansas Bay, where I found a family
from Ky. who extended to me their hospitality, feeding me on fine
fat oysters and red fish, and excellent fresh water that gushed up,
bubbling from the very edge of the salt water Bay.
After exploring the
country around Aransas{Arkansas} and Espano Bay, and Live-oak Point,
I set out on horseback for the lower San Antonio. Here I spent a few
days exploring the country around the mouth of the river and Hine's
Bay. During a few days here I saw more wild ducks, geese and Swans
than I had seen before in All my life.
I then went up the
river to Galiad, where I visited Labarde, the old Spanish mission,
where Fannin and his men were massacred by order of Santaria. Their
bones were still exposed, bleaching, all around the mission on the
prairie. They have since been gathered up and interred. Many a poor
young man who left the States full of hope, inspired with shilvalary
fell in that massacre, far from home and friends, and none to bury
him.
From Goliad I went
across, some thirty miles to Victoria on the Gaudaloupe, where I
took the stage for the city of San Antonio.
On the way from
Goliad to Victoria, I passed the place where Fannin was surprised
and captured by the Mexicans.
On the way to San
Antonio, I passed through Gonzalles, and several other beautiful
towns on the Gaudaloupe. San Antonio is a beautiful city near the
head of the river of the same name. At the time of my visit, in the
winter of 1848-49, The inhabitants were fully half Mexicans. In one
part of the city is the celebrated Alamo where Crocket, Travis,
Bowie and others were slaughtered by Mexicans. I visited the place
and saw the breack in the thick wall through which the Mexicans
entered; and was shown the spot where Crocket fought and fell
defending himself, single-handed against a multitude of savage foes;
also the little room in which Bowie lay sick, and where he was
butchered by blood-thirsty Mexicans. From San Antonio I took the
stage to Austin.
During my travels I
had ascertained there were great quantities of fine vacant lands in
Texas; and all that was necessary to enter them was to purchase
Headrights and file upon them, and these could be purchased at from
6 to 8 cents per acre. I had learned also that there were many
spurious Headrights, and that land titles were uncertain owing to
conflicting claims, spurious Headrights, and numerous other causes;
and that, in order to locate lands in Texas with safety, one must
understand the complicated land laws Coahula and Texas, the land
laws of the Republic of Texas, and of the State of Texas. He must
also have a book containing an abstract of the different classes of
headrights, besides a vast amount of other information in regard to
men, laws, fixed customs, frauds, etc. etc. Meeting at Austin with
two lawyers originally from Ky. Judge Jennings and Mr. Alexander,
and informing them of my wish to locate lands in Texas, they
generously loaned me the requisite books and kindly offered me their
aid in obtaining the necessary information. I, therefore, quietly
sat down to the study of Texas land-laws, etc. under their
direction. Mr. Alexander charged me nothing for the use of his books
and the information which he imparted. Judge Jennings, boarding at
the same house I did, required that I should copy his "briefs" in
land cases in the Supreme Court. This was of great service to me, as
it enabled me to see many points of importance in the land laws of
the Country.
After I had read and
been examined on the terms which they had informed me I had to
master, they pronounced me qualified to ferret out the difficult
problems of the science, and the questions that might arise in my
path. I therefore set out for New Orleans via Houston & Galveston.
On my arrival in New Orleans, I reported progress to my friend, W.
Martin. He was so well satisfied with the information I gave him
that he proposed to furnish me with money to purchase Head right
certificates, and locate lands in Texas. Furnished with two thousand
dollars ($2000) I took a steamer for Galveston, and in that city and
Houston purchased some twenty one thousand seven hundred acres
(21700) of unlocated Headrights, and repaired to Northern Texas, and
located the whole amount in the Counties of Grayson and Dallas, and
had them surveyed and the Headrights and field notes filed in the
Gen. Land Office, Austin by the 1st Jan. 1850.
While looking for
lands, I was the greater part of the time alone, in an uninhabited
country. My diet was cold corn bread, midling bacon and cold water.
My bed was the grass on the prairies. The sentinels that kept watch
around me were wolves, whose hidious{sic} howl was my lull-a-bye. My
horse was my one companion. My weapons of defense were a five
shooter, a hack-knife and hatchut{sic}. My dress was buck-skin. Thus
armed and equipped, I paraded over the broad prairies by day and by
night. Frequently I was wet for days together from drenching rains
and swimming swollen streams. Once four of us together were met in
the edge of a prairie by about seventy Indians, while we were
nooning and taking our lunch. The one who seemed to be the Chief,
demanded, in English, first our dinner, and this being refused, next
my horse. This was also denied him. I stood upon a rock, gun in
hand, and putting on a bold countence, {sic} in a decided tone,
bade them to leave instantly. The leader heard me through my speech,
then turning to his men, jabbered to them a little, whirled his
horses' head to the front, adjusted himself in his saddle, and
struck off in a Southwest direction. No sooner were they out of
sight than we set out in a different direction. We saw no more of
them. That was one time in my life that I "whisled{sic} aloud to
keep my courage up."
The following winter
I spent in Austin getting a certain measure passed by the
Legislature. Not a man, save one, knew or suspected my business. I
preached regularly every Lord's day either in the Legislative Hall,
or in the Senate Chamber. I made many friends and some enemies. A
Banker in New Orleans promised me, if I would go to Austin, and get
a certain act passed by the Legislature, and get the Governor's
signature to the Bill, he would give me half he made by the
operation. The thing was right in itself, and a contrary action by
the State Legislature, would have a reproach to the State in all
future time. The Banker acknowledged to me he had made sixty
thousand dollars ($60000) by the act; but instead of paying me the
half of that sum, put me off with six hundred ($600) dollars!!
On reaching New
Orleans on my way home to Ky., I learned that Brethren J. T. Johnson
and Dearbourn were holding a meeting in Baten Louse{sic}. I called
and preached a few times, when Bro. Johnson returned with me to Ky.
I was taken sick on the way; and when I reached Versailles, was much
reduced, and looked badly. I learned my wife was in town. She had
come in a carriage, drawn by a pair of dapple gray horses, all of
which I had bought with my own money and given to her. I started to
hunt her, but was too feeble to walk. A friend, seeing my debitity,
kindly proposed to go and bring her to me. She came, and informed me
she was not yet ready to go home, and that there was not room in the
carriage for me—although there were only herself and daughter—and
that I had better hire a buggy and go out home! I did so. She
returned home about dusk. Next day I was quite sick; but as she had
a visit in view left me and two daughters—good girls—to wait on me.
In a few days I
learned that the eight thousand ($8000) dollars that had been
awarded to me by Wooley & Johnson she had brought suet for; and
under one pretext and another, and as I made no defense, she
succeeded in getting set over to herself and our three children!!
The decree of the court is now to be seen, together with her reasons
for asking for the action. Many of her statements on record were
news to me. Others I knew to be mistaken. Some I could prove by
documentary evidence, to be erroneous. But I suppose her attorney
made out the case for her! Unless my friends choose to set this
matter right when I am gone, I will let it rest until all mistakes
shall be rectified by a tribunal from which there will be no appeal.
Soon as my friends in
different parts of the State heard I had returned to Ky. I was
written to hold meetings at various points. I spent the greater part
of the summer in protracted meetings, until autumn, when I set out
in a buggy to see after my interests in Texas. On reaching Memphis,
I was told by brother S. Bradford, whom I had formerly known in
Nashville, that he had been praying for me to come to Memphis to
hold a meeting for them. I had promised a Ky. friend to wait for him
in Memphis, as he wished to accompany me to Texas. So I commenced
preaching of nights, but to rather slim audiences at first. The
number of hearers, however, increased, and by Lord's day a rather
small house was comfortably full. In a short time the house was so
crowded the foundation began to give way. Great excitement was the
result. Some ladies screamed; one or two fainted; several persons
jumped out of the windows, and others were injured in the rush for
the door. Quiet was ultimately restored, and the services resumed.
Assurances were given publically that by the next evening everything
would be made secure, which was accordingly done. By this time not
half the people who came could get into the house, which stood on
the corner of two streets, running at right angles. Hundreds stood
on the outside of the house in the streets and listened to whole
discourses. The desire to hear became general in the city.
Church-houses belonging to the different parties were applied for,
but none granted, until the 2nd Lord's day, when Hughtower Hall was
obtained—the largest house in the city. It was an upper room, and
was densely crowded before the preaching hour. Hundreds who came
were unable to obtain entrance. Fears were entertained by many lest
the floor should give way, but it did not. It was announced in the
morning that that nights' services would close the series of
meetings.
I preached eighteen
days, generally twice a day and often administered baptism besides.
Some were immersed the next morning before I left. Forty seven in
all were immersed during the meeting. Monday I set out for Texas via
Little Rock, accompanied by my Kentucky friend. This was in the fall
of 1850.
At Little Rock I
found a number of my old friends still alive and holding on their
way, bent heavenward, but many had gone to their reward. I preached
a few times for them and resumed my journey towards Texas.
I stopped in Titus
County, Texas, and held a meeting with the Brethren there; several
became obedient to the faith.
I remained in Texas
and returned to Memphis. On reaching the city, I learned to my great
joy that brethren Johnson and Dearbourn were there holding a
meeting. I hastened directly to the Church and found brother
Dearbourn preaching. At the close of the services, I had a happy
greeting with them and many of my Memphis friends. I remained a few
days and accepted a call from the church to preach for them one
year, and hastened on to Ky.
During my first
meeting in Memphis, I delivered a discourse on the four baptisms.
This discourse was heard by a Methodist preacher, who undertook to
answer it in a discourse in the Methodist Church. He had his sermon
written out and read it. Some one, as was supposed, appointed for
the purpose, arose at the conclusion of the reading, and asked, in
behalf of the Methodist Church, a copy for publication. I returned
to Memphis the following week. Brethren consulted me in regard to
the publication of my discourse which had provoked the review. I
informed them the discourse was written out, and needed only a
little revising to be ready for the printer. At a night meeting
fifty dollars were raised to publish a thosand{sic} copies. It was
published accordingly. This is, in brief, the history of the
publication of that discourse. The pretended review never saw the
light. The Mass was strangely lost between the committee and the
printer.
During my stay in
Memphis, the notorious Mr. Chapman, the Methodist champion of
Pedorantism, published in a secular city paper a challenge to me to
debate the subject of baptism. Through the same paper, I accepted
his challenge, provided the debate should not come off before Oct.
He accepted the time. We met and settled the preliminaries and fixed
the time. We agreed to use no authority except the New Testament.
Sunday before the debate was to commence on Monday at Gorlack A.M.
notice was given in all the churches of the discussion. At the hour
designated, I went to the place of meeting with my New Testament and
notes. On reaching the Methodist Church where Mr. Chapman was the
stationed preacher, I found the door closed and locked, and could
see nothing of Mr. Chapman. Soon one of his friends appeared and
announced to the confused audience, in a whirl in the streets, that
Mr. Chapman was not in the city, and that the Trustees of the Church
had decided that no debate should be held! Thus ended the affair
with Mr. Chapman. Some of the Methodists stated afterwards that Mr.
Chapman was foolish for agreeing to be confined to the New
Testament; that no man could sustain infant sprinkling by the New
Testament alone. I was, and am still, of the same opinion.
During the hot, dry
month of August, a Dr. Henderson, a Methodist preacher at the other
station in Memphis, in a discourse on Lord's day morning challenged
me to a debate with him, provided the discussion should come off the
next week. I accepted, On the Monday morning of the next week, the
discussion commenced, and continued day and night until the next
Saturday night. The next day Dr. Henderson was unable to preach, I
preached as usual, and received the confession of twelve young men.
Dr. Henderson lingered on for some time and died.
Before the close of
my first year in Memphis, I was chased{????} for another year, and
accepted. About the middle of the year my health failed, and I was
forced to resign. I then returned with my family to Kentucky, where
I regained my health.
The next spring—1853
nothing would do my wife but to visit Texas. Accordingly, after the
close of the Revision{Bible Revision Society} meeting in Louisville,
the 1st of April, we took our departure for the floral south. We
cane by boat to Jefferson; thence to Clarksville in a hack.
Travelling one way and another, we passed through Paris, Honey
Grove, Bonhan, and on to Grayson County, where my land principally
lay. But she liked none of this part of the country, not even Mormon
Grove, the half of which I had promised to give if she would consent
to come to Texas. We next went to Dallas, and on to Austin; thence
to Gonzales and down to Powderhorn, when we took a steamship for New
Orleans via Gavelston{Galveston}. She said if I would purchase land
somewhere between the Gaudaloupe and the San Antonio rivers, she
would be willing to come to Texas. This I did not, at the time, feel
prepared to do.
On our return to Ky.
the Missionary Board appointed me agent to organize District
Co-operation meetings in the Louisville Congressional District. I
accepted, and entered at once upon the work. My first meeting was at
Eminence on the 4th day of July 1853. I next held a meeting of days
at Lagrange, which resulted in thirty five accessions to the cause
of Christ. My next was at the mouth of Salt river, where we gained
thirteen.
The State meeting was
to come off in Oct. at Harrodsburg. I had been appointed by the
Board to read a paper on Cooperation. It was written in
piece-meals, as I could snatch an hour or so from my excessive
labors. Brother W. T. Moore accompanied me during these labors. It
was the beginning of his public labors. He aided much by his fine
singing, exhortations and prayers.
At the State Meeting
I was appointed General Agent to organize District meetings through
the State, but declined in view of the labor, and because they did
not offer me enough to justify my undertaking the work. I was then
appointed Agent for the Orphan School, and set out to obtain funds
to educate and support the female orphans of the State.
Among the first
points I visited was Cynthiana, where I held a meeting of days,
added several to the church, and obtained some funds for the Orphan
School. Christmas week I spent in Flemingsburg, preaching and
collecting funds for orphans. The weather was intensely cold, and
the ground covered with snow. Yet the house was crowded every night,
and extra seats had to be procured, and the isles filled with them
to accommodate the people. Still only some ten or twelve persons
became obedient to the faith.
On this tour I met
with the amiable and earnest John Rogers, who intimated to me that
the compensation he received for preaching was not sufficient to
support his family, and that he would like to have such an agency as
mine. I told him I would resign my position in his favor, and did
so, and recommended him to the Board. They appointed him.
Learning that I had
resigned my agency for the Orphan School, the Missionary State Board
tendered to me the general agency for the State with the same salary
which I had received from the Orphan School. I accepted, and early
in the spring set out for the Green river country to preach and
organize Cooperation meetings. The spring was backward and wet and
the streams swollen from excessive and continued rains. It was late
before I could open the campaign. And just as I was getting fairly
into the work, I was attacked with inflammation of the throat
resulting in such hoarseness as rendered me unable to preach. Hence
I felt it my duty to the Board and to the cause which lay so near
their hearts—the Cooperation of the Churches throughout the State in
Missionary work—to resign my position, and give them an early
opportunity to appoint another agent.
As summer approached,
the condition of my throat improved, and I was able to do some
preaching. Towards fall some brethren in Chicago induced me to visit
that city with the view of getting money to build a church-house in
that growing and import place. They sent me on a few weeks mission
to the interior of the State to see whether the churches would aid
them in building a house for the Lord in the Emporium of their great
State. I returned with a favorable report, and then went home for a
few days, and proceeded to meet the Congress of the brethren in the
Queen of the West.
On my return home
from that meeting, my wife informed me she would not go to Chicago.
I, therefore, wrote to the brethren of Chicago, stating the fact,
and, in consequence, resigning my Agency for the Church there.
I was now upon my
oars, knowing not what to do. My wife seemed not to consent to
anything I proposed. She had virtually exiled me from home; had, in
fact, given up her home and divided out her property among her first
children, retaining for herself and our three children only the
eight thousand dollars she had induced the court to take from me and
give to her. She was now living among her children, and I was
afloat.
While resting and
reflecting on my condition, and thinking what I should do, I
received two letters, nay, three. One tendering me a situation in
Cincinnati with a salary of twelve hundred dollars; another the
agency of the Missionary Society with a salary of fifteen hundred
dollars; and the third inviting me to Memphis with the promise of a
thousand dollars. My wife objected to my accepting either of the
first or second propositions, but insisted on my taking the last.
Why, I never knew. But I had to yield, and accordingly set out for
Memphis and entered upon my labors in the latter part of Nov. 1854.
My wife was to have come down in December, but did not reach there
until February.
In the early part of
summer my health began to decline, and I was anxious to go to Texas.
My wife seemed almost persuaded to comply with my desire. {????}
William, and her daughter, Mrs. Gray, hearing of it, came down from
Ky. to dissuade her from going, and persuaded her to return to Ky.
I still continued my labors in Memphis, but in bad health. Sometime
in Aug. my health became so poor, I was forced to resign and quit
the city. In the mean time my wife wrote me from Ky, that, if I
would go to Southwestern Texas, purchase a place, build a house and
make preparations for her, she would be willing to go to Texas.
I purchased a horse
and buggy and set out for Ky. by way of Florence, Ala. to see my
widowed daughter, Mrs. Peabody, and Nashville, Ten. to see my
brother, Dr. B. W. Hall. I then went on to see my wife and children
in Woodford Co. Ky.; and after remaining there several days, my wife
still adhering to her written proposition, I took leave and returned
to Memphis; and on the {??} day of October 1855, in company with
several families, crossed the broad and turbied Mississippi on our
way to Texas. About the 1st of December we reached Mission Valley,
on the Gaudaloupe, in Victoria County. During the winter I purchased
land on the Cabasa, in Galiad County, and early in the spring of
1856 commenced building a house. By early autumn of 1856, I had the
house built and forty acres of land fenced in and broken up, a
cistern dug, and numerous other improvements made.
From the time of my
second marriage I had not been a free man, nor had I been the head
of my family. I had been subject to the will and pleasure of
another, who never consulted desires, nor my interests, temporal nor
spiritual, She had her property and I had mine, and the laws of
Texas resputed and protected the rights of each and of both. From
the day that I identified my interests with the "Lone Star," I
determined to be the head of my family, and to have a will of my
own. To prevent all difficulty on this subject in future I informed
my wife of these facts and my determination by letter. I told her
also that I would have nothing to do with her separate property;
that she must manage that herself or get some one else to do it for
her. I told her that my widowed daughter, Mrs. Peabody, would live
with us, and that she must be treated with the respect due a lady,
and as my daughter. I finally wrote her the house and all were
ready, for her to come on. In reply she wrote me eight pages of cap
paper full of the most abusive and insulting matter, and in
conclusion told me she had never intended to come to Texas! She gave
Cap, G. W. Cassleman a power of Attorney to take all my household
goods—indeed, everything I had—and to take them back to Ky. I
consulted some of my friends, who advised me to open the boxes and
trunks, and to request their ladies to look them all over, and to
divide the whole equally between my wife and myself. I did so. They
then had the boxes nailed up with my name on mine, and my wife's
name on hers. I informed Capt. Cassleman of this division. But in my
absence he took all the boxes and trunks and sent them to
powderhorn to be shipped to Ky. On my return to Victoria, I had
nothing there! Even a silk quilt which had been made and presented
to me by the ladies in Memphis, went with the rest!
Learning from Capt.
Casslemen that my wife seemed distressed, and that he thought she
was sorry for the letter she had written me; I wrote her a kind,
respectful letter, stating that I would consult her interests and
seek to promote her happiness, and taking back any and every thing
I had written her to which she had taken exception, and promising
her, as I had always done, to treat her kindly and as my beloved
wife. She spoke to some of her friends of the receipt of this
letter, but never answered it. She was advised, in writing, by
several brethren in Ky. either to come to Texas, or to request me to
return to Ky. But she would do neither. My eldest son, Benjamen,
wrote his mother urging her for the sake of her children to come to
Texas. In reply, she wrote him a bitter, insulting letter, and told
him not to presume to counsel her, but to attend to his own
business! This was the last communication I ever saw or heard of
coming from her to any one in Texas. I never knew her to express
regret or to ask pardon for anything she ever did or said, or to
revoke a decree she had ever made. She was a woman of strong will,
great firmness, proud, ardently in love with money, secretive,
revengeful, and bitter in hate; but withal, possessed of many fine
traits and excellences of character. She would have been a good wife
to a man who could have bowed willingly to her dictates and worked
to carry out her will and pleasure. But, unfortunately (?) I was not
that kind of a man.
Owing to my second
marriage my life has been a sad disappointment. Unhappy, miserable,
as I was, I would, for the sake of the cause which I love dearer
than my life, have continued to love her during life, had she not
cast me off. For years she had tried to get rid of me by one method
and another; and, finally succeeded by getting me off to Texas with
the promise to come, and then declining to request me to return to
Ky. This unfortunate affair has greatly crippled my influence for
good, and will be the cause of my sun's going down under a cloud.
The summer after I
settled on the Cabada in Texas, the brethren concluded to hold a
Camp-meeting, as the country was sparsely settled and the
brotherhood much scattered. The time and place were announced some
time beforehand in the secular papers. As they meant to have a good
thing of it, and intended to have all things in common, they
purchased one or more sacks of coffee, two or three barrels of
sugar, several barrels of flour, and other things in proportion.
Each family purchased as many bolts of domestic as would make all
the tints he desired. Some days before the meeting was to commence
quite a number of men met at the place in a beautiful live-oak grove
in a wide prairie covered with fine musquete grass on the border of
a fine, clear stream of water, and put up a large arbor, and built a
pen large enough to hold twenty or thirty cows and calves, and drove
posts into the ground for tents; took a number of cooking-stoves to
the place, and fixed a table out of plank, long enough to
accommodate one hundred persons. On the morning the meeting was to
commence some 40 or 50 wagons might have been seen coming from all
directions to the meeting place. Horsemen might have been seen
driving cows and calves. Everything was conducted in quiet and good
order. The first night of the meeting at least one thousand persons
slept on the camp-ground. Many came as far as sixty miles. From the
manner in which the services were commenced, it was manifest the
people were earnest, that they had come to worship God and to
benefit their fellows. A hymn arose, on which the wing of devotion
poised itself for heaven. Prayers went up as incense before God.
As I was a stranger
there, the brethren decided that I should do the most of the
preaching—all that I was able to do. I accordingly, preached twice a
day from Friday until the next Thursday. The immediate result was
the confession and immersion of forty six persons. Several others
took membership. It was truly a great and good meeting. What a
joyful time it will be when all the Christian pilgrims reach their
heavenly home, and swell the anthem of redemption that shall roll on
forever! Halleluyaw!!
My worldly interests,
except the place I owned on the Cabasa, were all in northern Texas,
-(and I much preferred that to the place where I was living; and
since my wife was not coming to Texas, and it was because she had
consented to go to Southern and would not live in the northern
portion of the State, that I had gone there) I determined to go
where my lands were. I accordingly disposed, at great sacrifice too,
of what stock and loose property I had in Galiad County, and went up
to Grayson County—a distance of 350 miles, intending, however, to
return in the course of a few months, and settle up all my business
in that part of the State. This last however, I accomplished without
returning, and consequently, never went back.
In Grayson County, I
found a tract of land of 402 acres, some 50 acres in cultivation,
frame house, it was near to some of my lands, for sale, and bought
it, and settled down, and commenced enlarging and improving my farm,
and building additions to my house; and, in the mean time preached
regularly through Grayson and Collin. At a meeting of ten days in
McKinney 43 were added to the Church. Additions were made almost
every month where I preached at Mantera. At a meeting of twelve days
in my immediate neighborhood fifty obeyed the gospel. In
Kentuckytown in six days twenty four were added. At White Mound, 8
miles east of me, fifty obeyed the gospel in eight days. A few weeks
afterwards at Mantera, fifty became obedient to the faith. In
Sherman, the County seat of Grayson, several, from time to time,
obeyed the Lord. In Dallas frequent accessions were made. In Fort
Worth, at one meeting forty seven joined the army of the faith, and
at another twenty four. St. Plaino and Duck Creek twenty four came
out upon the Lord's side. At other points, there were, in all, about
eighty.
All this labor I
performed, with the above results, without scarcely any
compensation.
At a Cooperation
meeting held in Mantera it was resolved by the brethren to send out
and sustain an Evangelist in the Counties of Grayson and Caooin;
also to publish a monthly paper, I was chosen as Editor, and Dr.
Clark assistant Editor. He was likewise chosen as the Evangelist.
A Prospectus was
issued for the paper, and many subscribers obtained when the Cloud
of civil war loomed up in our horizon, and the wheels of our
progress were suddenly stopped. The war-cry sped through our country
as upon the wings of the wind. The fire was kindled, in whose
terrific blaze, all other lights paled. Thus matters stood for four
long, dreadful years, when heart (?) was again restored.
When the question of
secession was sprung, I was frequently consulted in reference to
the measure. I gave it as my opinion that, from the terms of the
federal compact, a State had the right to secede; but that it was
impolite to do so' that in the present attitude of affairs,
secession would be ruinous to the South. It would unquestionably
bring on a civil war. The South was weak; was wholly unprepared,
and subjugated; and slavery was certain to be abolished. I knew the
North would have the sympathy of the powers of Europe, because they
were all opposed to African slavery, because African slavery was
opposed to monarchy. These things I frequently stated in public
addresses. I told the people, if we provoked a war with the Federal
Government, we would have to fight the whole world.
But when the
Convention passed the ordinance of secession, I submitted; and as I
owed allegiance to the State of Texas, I went out of the Union with
my State. As I then and now understand it, my allegiance to the
Federal Government is in consequence of my allegiance to the State
of which I am a citizen. As I believe, it was the States, and not
individuals, that entered into the Federal Compact. But I am no
politician, and really take but little interest in any government,
save that of the King of Kings. But during the war, I went heart and
hand and soul, for my country, because I knew our only hope was in
our success. But I am not a man for blood, nor war. I am for peace.
True, when the war
came, and my neighbor young men, multitudes of whom I had immersed,
solicited me, I did accept the Chaplancy in the 6th Texas Calvary,
Col. Stone's first Regiment, and was nine months in the service, and
tried to do my duty in all particulars—to the sick and well, the
dying and the dead; in calm, on the march; on the battle field,
where the cannon boomed, and blazed, and hurled missiles of death
thick and fast. I prayed, and preached, and exhorted the men to do
their duty to their country, and to their God. And did I not do
right? Will any say I did wrong? Set the wise, the just, and the
good answer. I fear not their decision. Above all, I appeal to the
great Searcher of hearts and am content, as I know I shall be
compelled to do, —to submit to his decision. I was in, or rather
at two battles, and carried a weapon of war, and deadly one, but
never used it against anyone, I neither brandished sword nor fired a
gun at an enemy. So I am sure I neither killed nor wounded anyone. I
am not, therefore, guilty of blood.
At Corinth, I think,
on the 27th day of May 1862. I resigned my position, and returned to
Texas, and reached home the 14th day of June, the day before I was
59 years old.
During the nine
months I was in the army, except a few days in MO. and a week at
Corinth, I enjoyed good health, notwithstanding my exposure to heat
and cold, and wet; often lying on the cold, damp ground without a
tent, and with a single blanket under me and another over me; on the
march by day and by night—indeed, all the exposures, privations and
vicissitudes incident to a soldier's life. Not one ever heard me
complain of hard fare, or no law; hard marching, exposure, or
anything else. No one ever heard me complain of our officers or say
a word unkind or disrespectful of any of them. I had my troubles,
and privations, and trials; but I bore them all in silence, and
admonished the men to do the same. The same is true of me as a
Christian soldier. For many long years I have suffered on in
silence, disdaining to hoist the flag of distress to the world, or
to my brethren. There has been for many years a manifest disposition
even among our staff-officers to depreciate my services in the cause
of truth, and even to ignore altogether my sacrifices, my labors and
my success in the cause. Numerous instances could be given, but I
{????} I look not for my reward from men; God only knows my labors,
my sacrifices and my sufferings for the sake of truth and right; and
to him I look for my reward, in the great day when the secrets of
all hearts shall be revealed, and when every one shall be rewarded
according to his works. I love God and his truth, and I love good
men; and many such we have in our ranks; and those who are contrarywise, {sic} I will let God judge. I may be mistaken in men
and their motives; but God knows all things. And "The Judge of all
the earth will do right." This life is short; the life to come will
be eternal.
"I'll suffer on my
three score years,
Till my Deliver
came,
To wipe away his
servant's tears,
And take his exile
home."
One day in heaven
will amply compensate me for all I had done and suffered in this
life.
On my return from the
army, I resumed my labors among the churches; and although,
considering so many were from home in the army, the congregations
were large, not much visible good was done while the war lasted,
owing, doubtless to the fact that, the minds of the people were
fixed upon the fearful struggle and the probable issue of the fratercidal{sic} contest. But when peace (???) was restored, and the
people resumed their avocations, the attention of many was arrested,
and their hearts won to the Savior. And it so continues to the
present.
The next year, in
February, 1863, after my return from the army, I was married to Mrs.
Elizabeth Collins, formerly of KY. and daughter of Thomas Palmer, of
Madison County, KY. I made her acquaintance in the spring of 1857,
in Texas. She purchased a farm and lived one mile from me from that
time until we were married. I found her to be a good and pious
woman, and an excellent housekeeper. I was living alone except a
family of servants I had purchased, and had been from the winter of
1857, when I settled where I now live. I had been in Texas more than
six years—almost seven. By the laws of the State, I was divorced
from my second wife on account of her continued absence from my home
and from the State. I did not, at the time of my marriage, know
whether my former wife was living. I had not put her away. She had
abandoned me, and that too, as far as known to me, without cause. I
was, therefore, released from her, as I considered, not only by the
laws of the State, but by the law of God likewise. 1 Cor. 7:15.
The following is
brother A. Campbell's conclusion and understanding of this passage:
"When a woman finally deserts a Christian husband, and utterly
refuses to live with him, we should, on all our premises, not
consider him obliged to live henceforth without a wife, provided the
civil law of the country fully sanctions such a marriage."
Millennial Harbinger of 1853. p. 533. This was his final conclusion
after a full and thorough examination of the question of "Separation
and divorce" in all its phases.
Before deciding upon
the important step I first sat down to a denovo investigation
of this grave and moated question, and endeavored to make the
investigation impartially, as in the sight of God, and in view of
the filial judgment and the retributions of eternity. I turned to
the Savior's teachings on the subject of marriage and divorce,
contained in the gospels, and in Mat. 19: perhaps more fully than
elsewhere.
In order to
understand the Savior's language here, it is important to note the
circumstances under which he spoke. Under the Jewish law a man could
put away his wife whenever he chose to do so. All he had to do was
to give her a writing of divorcement and put her away without any
cause, and to marry another at pleasure. The main subject under
consideration in our Lord's teaching was, whether a man had a right
in and of himself to put away his wife, and to annull, set aside,
abolish the marriage covenant and dissolve the marriage relation
between himself and wife, and that too, without any breach or
violation of the marital law on the part of his wife. A man's right
to do this is what the Savior denies, and the practice and custom he
denounces and rebukes in the strongest terms. He allows but one
exception, and that is when the woman is guilty of a flagrant
violation of marriage vows. In that case, having herself broken the
marriage contract, her husband is justifiable in putting her away.
And with this agrees a great law of Justice, clear to every mind,
that, when one of the parties violates the terms of a contract, the
other is no longer bound by it.
To the same effect
argues the apostle Paul: "If the unbelieving (husband or wife)
depart, let him depart. A brother or sister is not under bondage in
such case." Why not? Because the one departing is an unbeliever?
Clearly not; for he says, "if the unbelieving wife be pleased to
dwell with, let him not put her away. Or if the unibelieving husband
be pleased to dwell with the believing wife, let her not leave him."
Hence it is not unbelief that affects the bond of matrimony, What is
it then'? It she depart, let her depart. Her departing, then,
is the cause by which the effect is produced. But what is the effect
produced? The answer of the Apostle is: "A brother or sister is
not under, bondage in such case." Departing, then, being a
violation of the marriage contract, breaks the bonds that united
them together as husband and wife, and frees the other party.
In regard, then, to
myself: I did not put away my wife, nor leave her. She abandoned me;
and as far as known to me, without cause. As she "departed" from me.
I was no longer bound to her, but was released from the marriage
tie, and, consequently, at liberty to marry again, according to the
Scriptures. There was, then, no law of God forbidding me to marry
again.
But did the laws of
the State allow me to marry again? Or did I, in marrying again,
violate the civil authorities? I answer: 1. In the civil code of
Texas there are several things laid down as grounds upon which a
divorce may be obtained. One is: The continued absence of a wife
from the bed and board of her husband for the period of two years.
In such case, the husband may bring suit in the District Court for a
divorce.
In the Criminal Code
of the State the law runs thus: If a wife absents herself from the
State for the period of five years, the husband on account of this
absence of his wife, is divorced from her, and is at liberty to
marry again, provided he does not at the time of his said marriage
know that his former wife is alive. My wife had absented herself
from Texas over six years; and I did not at the time of my marriage,
know whether she was living, not having heard of her for years.
Before I engaged
myself to my last wife, I consulted some of the best lawyers in the
country; all decided that, according to the State rules of Texas, I
had a right to marry. I consulted several preaching brethren, elders
and others of piety and intelligence in the Scriptures; they all,
without a dissenting voice, decided that I was Scripturally
authorized to marry. I even consulted men of influence and
intelligence belonging to some of the sects, and men of no party.
All concurred in the same opinion.
Finally, a preacher
took offense at {me} for my political position, and vented his
spleen and spit his venom at me, saying, I was living in adultery,
and that he could prove it! I preferred against him the charge of
slander. He was arraigned before the Elders of the Church, and from
the evidence adduced in the case, he was found guilty, first, by the
Elders, and then by the whole Church; and was required to withdraw
the charge and make acknowledgments for the offense; in default of
which, he was excluded from the Church.
Not satisfied with
the action of the Church, he appealed from their decision to a
Cooperation meeting. I consented, and the Elders of the Church
consented that he should have a new trial. The chairman and the
greater part of the delegates were of his political party. A
committee of sensible and good brethren were appointed by the Chair
to try the case de novo. After giving him a two-days hearing,
they sustained the decision of the Church. They unanimously
pronounced him guilty of slander, and required him openly to confess
the offense and ask my forgiveness, or else to stand excluded from
the Church. He chose to do the former, and the matter was settled,
and remains settled.
The war, coming
suddenly upon us, caught me some two thousand dollars ($2000) in
debt. The interest at 10 and 12 percent swelled the sum greatly.
Several of my creditors instituted suit against me, and, although
they could not collect their debts during the war, they increased my
liabilities in the way of costs. After the war closed, a stay law
was passed by our Legislature. Appeals were taken from decisions
under it to the Supreme Court of the State, and the law divided to
be unconstitutional. Before these decisions were known, but in
anticipation of the result, and unwilling for my property to be sold
under execution; I concluded to take some forty horses that I had
raised north to sell and pay my debts. Having sold all by household
and kitchen furniture, farming utensils, cattle, hogs, etc. etc. at
public sale; on the 22nd of July 1867, I started to Mo. My wife went
to visit her parents in Ky. Four young men drove the horses, a wagon
and buggy. In Mo. sold all my horses, and followed my wife to Ky.
That winter we spent
mostly at her father's and at her daughter's, Mrs. Dillehay, in
Danville. Early in the spring, I visited Carlisle, Moorfield, where
I was born and bred, and Flemingsburg, and spent several weeks with
my brother Jerry, some three miles from town.
In May I returned to
Madison County, and opened a Dental office in Richmond, where I
remained until the 1st of Aug., when I went to Gallatin, Ten, to see
my brother, Dr. B. W. Hall, and spent four weeks preaching in that
County, and added about twenty to the cause of the Redeemer. I then
returned to Richmond and resumed my profession, preaching
occasionally there and at other points in the County as opportunity
offered.
In the meantime the
churches in Dallas and Fort Worth, Texas wrote, requesting me to
return to Texas and take charge of the churches in those places.
Propositions were made for me to go to Sumner County, Ten. But I
finally accepted the offer of the churches in Texas, and started for
that field of labor in Nov. 1868, and, after much delay, reached
Dallas, about the 1st of Jan. 1869, and found all things in
readiness to receive us. Our friends met us gladly.
I at once entered
upon my labors for the two churches, and up to the end of Aug. added
to the church in Dallas about twenty, and about the same number to
the church in Fort Worth. During the time I held a meeting at Scyone
and gained fourteen; and two in Cleabourn, {sic} Johnson Co. and
constituted a church of brethren already there. They number some
thirty now. I held a meeting in Saneaster likewise, and towards the
close, was assisted by brother Dr. N. H. O. Polley. About eight were
added. In Aug. brother Polley and I held a meeting at Plaino, and
gained upwards of thirty to the cause. This was a Cooperation
meeting, the first we have had in this country, except one, since
the war.
The Second Lord's day
in Oct. bro. Polley and I were in McKinney. Only one obeyed the
gospel. The next Friday night we commenced a cooperation meeting at
Rockwall, Kaupman County. We had a harmonious meeting, and all
seemed to feel it was good to be there. We adjourned to meet again
at Plaino on Christmas day. We anticipate a good time.
For three years my
farm in Grayson County had been rented out. I paid two visits there
while I lived in Dallas. I saw my farm and premises were going to
wreck, and I realized but little from the place. I found it
necessary to take care of my place, to return to my farm. I,
consequently, resigned my position to the churches in Dallas & Fort
Worth, and returned home in Sept. This arrangement will not at all
interfere with my preaching. On the contrary, I hope to be able to
preach pretty much all the time during the seasons that will admit
of my holding protracted meetings. I am getting old now; have been
my 66th year since June. I am, however, still able to preach nearly
as much as ever the remainder of my days must necessarily be . . .
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